There is something I have been meaning to say but as per my weirdness, I have struggled with wording it. So I am giving it a shot now. I friggin' hate shots by the way.

ANYWAY, I will admit something, I am not the best of friends out there, I know I am not. I am not always completely reliable and I have many struggles within my mind at times which makes concentrating on certain things rather difficult. Like how if someone sends me a message, I sometimes may not get to responding within that same day or even a couple of days even. That isn't exactly preferred, but my mind gets so scattered and things get lost in the clutter. Think of my brain as a really weird rubbish bin. Now throw some fire crackers in it. And some sugar, why not.

What I am meaning to say is this...I appreciate all of my friends. All of you. You all are some of the only friends I have left and I want to make sure I show my appreciation, specifically. Sometimes, one must take a step back and give appreciation to what good they have and friendship is one I never want to let slip through the cracks.

If I take a long time to respond to a message that you have sent, I do apologize, but know that I am not ignoring you. I never want to do that. It probably is just me being super scattered as my thoughts go everywhere. I don't mean anything bad by it. The same goes for my depressive outbursts, usually seen in statuses if I have those. I don't mean any harm by those, if I ever worried anyone or brought anyone down with those, I deeply am sorry about that too.

I don't know if I am being too sappy or weirdly wording things, but it is just something I wanted to tell you all. That friendship matters to me, deeply and you all matter to me. It is something many of you may already know but I feel like setting it in a blog. I think I made a blog like this a long time ago actually, but I want to keep the thought burning in my mind.

Thank you for reading if you made it this far, with my weirdly worded bloggy stuff, it can be difficult to survive. Really though, thank you for reading. I hope I can be a good friend, even if at times I know I am not a great one.