where do I begin? so I have been up and down lately, I have got my forklift license and I am 1 step closer to a job I want to do ... but now I have entered what has been known as the "Christmas Depression" over here ... it goes like this, every year I struggle to buy even the most simplest of gifts for the fam and it makes me want to provide for them, before I moved out it wasnt a big deal, but now that I have bills to pay its a shit-load harder to make a living on what I currently get, but I still manage to get by (even thou I'm not sure how )

I just hope they will love what I get for em this year and still have enough for the rent at the end of the day :/

I also don't know if I will be going to PonyConAU next year ... I really want to, but I'm not sure if ill have the money ... I guess I will need to wait and see hmm? ok well fmd, that sounds fun *types something dark to do to myself here that hurts more then it is fun*

its funny really ... whenever I hit a depressive time for me, I use this as a line to make me smile again "A Feeling That I Know So Well, OH Its Got Me In Its Spell" and that is found in a song I love atm and I know everthing will be somewhat ok ....

Cash Cash - Overtime