For the past few days I have seen a particular member on here talk about committing suicide and it has really got me thinking. I have been complaining on here an awful lot about my job and my life in general, sure I haven't talked about scheduling an early meeting with the grim reaper but as I have said before to him and on other occasions here I have considered it in the past so I do know what it is like to have that kind of hopelessness and despair. To clarify I don't plan on doing that myself, so you don't have to send me messages telling me not to do it.

I just thought I would take a few minutes to come up with a few things that are actually going right with my life because I have noticed that are a lot of people on here dealing with depression and hopefully what I say can give at least one of them some hope and I could use a bit of reminding myself.

1. I am financially secure: I am no millionaire but I am doing okay for myself, I have perfect credit am in virtually no debt and am able to provide myself the basics and the occasional extras such as video games.

2. I have people that care about me and are looking out for me: I have had a lot of deaths in my family these last 16 years and with that comes changes but I at least have some people left in my life. As I have pointed out there are people at work I want to punch in the face but I have also met a lot of great people there too one of them being the friend that introduced me to ponies. And I have also met some pretty cool people on here too.

3. I have a good chance of turning my life around: I have a plan which I know if it succeeds will end my rut and allow me to live up to my true potential, it is pretty detailed though I went over some of it my blogpost Operation Exodus.

4. I have survived far worse: I have been through family tragedies, two times in my life where I considered suicide, extreme anger issues and have been through many of the challenges that come with being an individual with Autism and have conquered it all.