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An Apology

Sir Hugsalot

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I was going to do this yesterday, but I didn't want to mix positivity with negativity, so... here I am today.

People who remember me from before remember me (I hope) as a generally open and kind person, maybe a little crazy random at times. Overall, needless to say, this forum was my safe haven when loneliness in real life became a burden I could handle no longer. I look at my past memories and I smile at them, miss them, feel nostalgic about them. Some of better times in my life, sincerely. 

But then... people started leaving this place. Needless to say - it did not make me happy, I was here when forum was far bigger than it is today and I begun to feel lonely too... eventually... I also drifted away and I feel like by doing so I did what I hated when others did to me - I abandoned people. Some of those people I can no longer reach even, their accounts are dead and they've left no trace to track them down.... I feel like I've also broken my own principles, which sadly some people experienced (You know if You were one of those people). I am disappointed in myself, to You it may seem silly, but to me it's a way to mend a wound I inflicted upon myself and maybe some people too, people who cared about me yet felt like I just left them behind. 

I love You, people. I love mlpforums. I want to contribute to the community only in a good way (and maybe contribute to making staff sing for our entertainment if given an opportunity :fluttershy:). Because yes, to those unaware - staff had to sing for us as part of Making Christmas Merrier. Would be a shame if we made them do it again, hmm? :orly:

So... I just wanted to say that I am sorry. I am so sorry for not living up to reputation I've made by always doing my best to make others happy, for betraying my own principles and for possibly hurting some by doing that. I don't know if any person involved will read this, but if they do then I hope they will forgive me :(

There is one person especially hurt by what I've done - to her no apology will be enough. Only me living up to my own expectations will matter and that is exactly, what I intend to do.

I missed this place so much, being back here makes me feel alive again in certain ways nothing else can. But it did not feel right to be around and smile without letting out my own mistakes and being "clean" again. 

 

I love You all! :( Big hugs to all those, who were with me, reading this entire entry... much appreciated, even if You leave no comment. 

... actually *big hugs to everypony* :wub:

 

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Ice Princess Silky <3
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*Squees and happy dance* !! 

So happy to know you're staying, Sir Hugoholic! @AuroraGlimmermentioned how she rarely saw you around anymore and it made us really really sad to see you go :awed:
But this is amazing news and I will always cherish the memories we've shared both on forums and out of them. You rock! 

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Pandora

People make mistakes such is the way of life- I too have made mine but that’s what makes us human 

just do your best to enjoy your time here 

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Samurai Equine

(Passes through)

Hi there. :devious:

I can't bring back those that are gone, but I invite you to join me at the top of the summit of Yggdrasil. I'll be waiting.

 

...

 

...Or, you know, you could just follow me or DM me if you ever want to be friend or something. S'up to you. :sealed:
Later!

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15 hours ago, -Solstice- said:

@Sir Hugoholic

I don’t know you nor have I met you but I have made similar mistakes. Time heals most things in life, everyone makes mistakes along the way. It’s nothing to look down on yourself for.

Actually You do and You're one of people that I basically vanished in front of. And I agree - I should not think less of myself for mistakes I've done, but still it's something I really had to let out from my system :coco:

15 hours ago, Pandora said:

People make mistakes such is the way of life- I too have made mine but that’s what makes us human 

just do your best to enjoy your time here 

Thank You ;-; I will ^^

5 hours ago, Samurai Equine said:

(Passes through)

Hi there. :devious:

I can't bring back those that are gone, but I invite you to join me at the top of the summit of Yggdrasil. I'll be waiting.

 

...

 

...Or, you know, you could just follow me or DM me if you ever want to be friend or something. S'up to you. :sealed:
Later!

Which Yggdrasil? I know a few of these :D 

And sure, I can shoot a DM later :) 

17 hours ago, Silk Glamour said:

*Squees and happy dance* !! 

So happy to know you're staying, Sir Hugoholic! @AuroraGlimmermentioned how she rarely saw you around anymore and it made us really really sad to see you go :awed:
But this is amazing news and I will always cherish the memories we've shared both on forums and out of them. You rock! 

Silky, stop melting my heart, seriously... did she really? Gosh, You guys...

I am so happy to be around with all of You... :(

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Wingnut

Hi Sir Hugoholic!  Sorry I’m a bit late replying to your blog.  I don’t know what exactly prompted you to write this.  But I can say that as we go through the journey called life, we’re going to hurt a few people we care about along the way.  It’s an inevitable part of the human condition.  Whatever happened, you’re doing everything you can to make it right.  
 

I want to take a moment to say this forum has been a special place for me too. I’ll grant you it’s not 2014 anymore and most of those members we greatly admired are no longer here. I have sometimes disappeared for extended periods myself.  Anyway, during my time here, a few members have truly touched my heart.  Believe it or not, Adrian, you’re one of them.  If you ever want someone to talk to, you’re always welcome to give me a holler.  :)  

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7 minutes ago, Wingnut said:

Hi Sir Hugoholic!  Sorry I’m a bit late replying to your blog.  I don’t know what exactly prompted you to write this.  But I can say that as we go through the journey called life, we’re going to hurt a few people we care about along the way.  It’s an inevitable part of the human condition.  Whatever happened, you’re doing everything you can to make it right.  
 

I want to take a moment to say this forum has been a special place for me too. I’ll grant you it’s not 2014 anymore and most of those members we greatly admired are no longer here. I have sometimes disappeared for extended periods myself.  Anyway, during my time here, a few members have truly touched my heart.  Believe it or not, Adrian, you’re one of them.  If you ever want someone to talk to, you’re always welcome to give me a holler.  :)  

*looks at you with glistening eyes of sentimentality* You were one of the first few people to say hi to me as Magical Mare, Wingnut. I regret never sticking around long enough to help build the memories. I did cling to Sir over here a lot. I was terribly shy and he was super Mr. Popular. Isn't he great, though? He's always too humble for his own good.

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7 minutes ago, Silk Glamour said:

*looks at you with glistening eyes of sentimentality* You were one of the first few people to say hi to me as Magical Mare, Wingnut. I regret never sticking around long enough to help build the memories. I did cling to Sir over here a lot. I was terribly shy and he was super Mr. Popular. Isn't he great, though? He's always too humble for his own good.

Sorry to say I barely remember the name Magical Mare but that’s about it.  Glad to see you didn’t give up on the forums altogether. And I can concur with everything you said about Sir Hugoholic. 

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4 minutes ago, Wingnut said:

Sorry to say I barely remember the name Magical Mare but that’s about it.  Glad to see you didn’t give up on the forums altogether. And I can concur with everything you said about Sir Hugoholic. 

Yeah, I know. I only remembered the name Wingnut cause it's literally in my "New member" thread :rarity: it was so sweet. Happy to see you're still around.

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5 hours ago, Wingnut said:

Hi Sir Hugoholic!  Sorry I’m a bit late replying to your blog.  I don’t know what exactly prompted you to write this.  But I can say that as we go through the journey called life, we’re going to hurt a few people we care about along the way.  It’s an inevitable part of the human condition.  Whatever happened, you’re doing everything you can to make it right.  
 

I want to take a moment to say this forum has been a special place for me too. I’ll grant you it’s not 2014 anymore and most of those members we greatly admired are no longer here. I have sometimes disappeared for extended periods myself.  Anyway, during my time here, a few members have truly touched my heart.  Believe it or not, Adrian, you’re one of them.  If you ever want someone to talk to, you’re always welcome to give me a holler.  :)  

I am humbled and if You would like to talk I am always open for that too. 2014 was amazing year honestly and I wouldn't be honest if I said I did not miss it. Magical Mare, the lovely user who responded to You - she's an amazing person too. I find it sad You never got to met her, because she's truly one of a kind with heart of pure gold. Unfortunately she got pulled away from forums before making herself comfortable here, a mistake, which obviously has been avoided this time :blush:

Honestly, even I returned now because of her. I buried my feelings deep within me and did not even realize how much I allowed myself to lose. It's no exaggeration, I owe her my life. 

@Silk Glamour I've said it before and I will say it again - You're the best pony and there are no words to express how much You mean to me...

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