(I'll be using this picture when in my crummy mood, by the way.)

So, what are some thoughts that you receive on a normal bases. It can be any thoughts, good or bad.

The thoughts I usually have are pretty saddening, so read on if you care, if not, here is the questions you need to answer in the comments.

• What are some thoughts you have regularly?
  
• Are they good or bad?
  

Well, I think about the future constantly. What it may bring. Being heartbroken so much, I'm afraid if love is even possible. I know that I have many years to go until I am an adult (2?), but the thought of getting heartbroken constantly is always so scary to me. I feel like I cannot trust people anymore, as I keep getting stabbed in the back from the people I thought were closest to me.

It makes me feel like people in general cannot be trusted. I know there are trustworthy people out there, but they are lost in a sea of lies and deception. I do not want to get played like a hand of poker, but set on the field for all to see like a scrabble piece. And the more you add on to me, the bigger I become. I use this analogy emotional wise. The more people I have in my life, the greater I become. The less I have, the less meaningful I really feel.

These dark thoughts and emotions are pretty scary to feel sometimes. It's at the point to where I hear a song my ex used to love, I cry my eyes out. I was sleeping with my music on last night, and a song came on called "Odd one". The lyrics-

"Hey, it's gonna be ok.

Hey, we're gonna laugh at this one day"

Seem to form tears in my eyes every single times. The thing is, I don't want to get over people. I just want a lasting relationship. That is all I ever want. But it seems like people my age aren't ready for anything like that at all. They want to PARTAAAAAAAAAY and SEEEEEEEEX everyone in sight.

It just hurts so amazingly bad.

Ah well.

I need to get ready for school.