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  1. TheMarkz0ne
    So 5 days until the event we have all been waiting for is upon us. Luckily it is a short work week for me. Not only do I have the 4th off... I only have to work tuesday and wednesday and I am using paid time off thursday, friday and monday. I earned this mental break, my job has been hell and school is halfway done.
     
    If you people want to meet and possibly attend events together, my number is 978 382 5870. I am driving from NH, so I am aiming to be in Baltimore by at least 2pm the latest(when badge pickup starts) on thursday. I have met some people in 2014 when I went.. But due to life issues I couldn't attend the 2015 con.
     
    I have a room in the Hilton too. Not asking people to spend the night there, but for bronies who want a place to chill, you're welcome to hang out with us.
  2. TheMarkz0ne
    No story details, just traits I have in mind for a story I might write in the future.
     
    Male
    young adult aged 20-23
     
    Characteristics:
     
    anti-social
    not that talkative
    good natured, helps others, has a sense of heroism
    Questions to the point of annoying people
    illusive motives
    No practical talent
    Lone wolf/isolationist
     
    How am I doing with the traits?
  3. TheMarkz0ne
    Had some time to have introspect about my life in the past several weeks. One thing people have always told me over and over again, is that I am too serious. They are actually right. I don't laugh in social circles, I laugh alone and it's usually things people don't find funny. I always walked through life isolated ans asked questions, questions and more questions. I am naturally a curious person and the way I talk to people is like I am studying them, if that makes any sense to you.
     
    Here I am now, 23 and alone. I associate with people, I talk to people and I have shared moments with people. But people in due time, have left me. Usually them coming to the realization that I am odd and they don't like me at all. This isn't me beating myself up, this has happened my entire life.
     
    You either hold these philosophies on the subject of change. You believe that people can change and that we can all coexists and potentially get along. Or you believe people don't change their nature and you are forced to deal with the hand Mother Nature dealt you. I am going with option two, the view that people find to be the negative view.
     
    I am not going to accomplish anything major in life. I never wanted fame, I did however want to die knowing I have done one great thing in the world. Just one major accomplishment and I could pass in peace whenever my time comes. I can't say that will happen at all, but I can't count myself out yet. I can only conclude that I am fine with being single, women don't desire me. And I would be fine walking the dirt trail alone in the night without a flashlight. I used to be afraid of failure, now it seems I'm embracing failure and accepting life for what it is.
  4. TheMarkz0ne
    I am back to cheap laptop games and console gaming, sold my PC and 3d monitor for a decent return, since electronics don't retain value. With Pascal and Polaris 10/11 on the rise, my GTX 970 was not even a good GPU even when it came out. I wanted to sell my other 5 year old hardware before it depreciated even more. I also was able to put more toward my car loan because of that.
  5. TheMarkz0ne
    So we're already in april and the convention starts in early july. I already have the pre requisites in motion.
     
    -I have my room booked at the Hilton
    -I have money to go
    -Waiting to buy my ticket
    -My GPA at school is a 3.7 so far
    -My attendance instructor told me taking 2 absences to go to the convention is fine. He told me the teachers know I do my work and when I go to employment fairs, 3 absences in a whole year is easily overlooked and no hassle.
     
    The main issue is my parents. I know I live with them, but I am 23 and in 2014 I came back in one piece. I have earned the right to go and it's my only vacation this year I really want to attend to. I heard the 2015 bronycon wasn't good at all, so I hope 2016 is much better.
  6. TheMarkz0ne
    Today I have turned 23, feel like the years are just stacking faster and faster. Not much has changed in terms of my life status. Still in school, I have a dead end job, I rarely see my friends(the handful I have) and my family is in constant drama I can't avoid.
     
    I am not depressed today, just really tired. My classes are becoming an annoyance, not that anything is difficult, I just don't have high motivation at this juncture. My first semester ends april 8th... It is divided into two modules. I already finished the first module and got a 4.0. This module is almost done and I'm on my way to getting an A again. But the exams in january are what I care about the most.
     
    I have had it with people lately. I have been questioning my status with long time friends. People I have recently met, people I have been with for almost 2 years, they are going to leave you over one bad little thing they didn't want being said. I was friends with this musician who lives in southern California. He's also a highly intelligent scientist and a hard worker who is making progress toward his goals. He is poor but a persistent man. He decided to cut ties with me over something petty such as referring someone else's work for a different circumstance. There's more to it, but overall he was being a baby and removes my comments from his youtube channel.
     
    Why can't you find honest people anymore? I know unconditional companionship/love exists. But it is like 1 in a trillionth chance.
  7. TheMarkz0ne
    I know I am not the most liked person on the forums. But for those I talk to on a normal basis, thanks for being there. I am currently taking an accelerated IT program for a year. I am actually shocked how much I got done in three days. The objective of the course is to get my Comptia A+, Network and Security certifications so I can leave my job which I despise at the moment. I have class from 7:30am to 1pm 5 days a week.. I work 2 to 7 5 days a week. So as you can see, it;s not games here, they are condensing a lot into one year.
     
    I am also kind of taking a pony break... well not really. I still go on EQD and look at pictures of Chrysalis, Sunset and Rainbow Dashie But for now until season 6 gets started, I'm done for now. There is that amazing indie game that is ponies vs changelings being made in Japan.. That is something I am anxious for as well.
     
    Please message when you can. If I have time on the weekend, I might pop in for a little bit!
  8. TheMarkz0ne
    I haven't seen it yet, but I find the reviews of high praise suspicious. There's no way Disney would allow a $4 billion investment to fail. Prior to reviews coming out, I was already filled with skepticism. It seems from the summary, looks like a carbon copy of the original 1977 movie.
     
    You cannot capture the magic and awe of the original trilogy. I simply want something new while upholding the tradition and continuity of the original three movies, I don't want a rehash! Regardless, I will see the movie and I know there's no way in hell it can be prequel trilogy awful. This is Disney, it's going to have some soulless corporate vibe stigmatized onto it. I know movies like Empire and Jedi were major Hollywood productions, but things are not like 30 years ago. Today everything is a marketing commercial within another commercial.
     
    Even a movie I recently saw, Creed, has those issues. Creed wasn't set out to be a blockbuster and I went into with low expectations and was proven wrong. I am a Star Wars fan over Rocky every day of the year. But I am uncertain over episode VII.
  9. TheMarkz0ne
    I have never been a great illustrator. I have always considered if writing was a skill I can utilize. I have been told by artists I have really imaginative ideas and can do good. I know that my grammar is not perfect, I would describe my mental process as a narrative imagination. I am always plotting out the beginning,middle and climax, then I decide how a character gets developed.
     
    I don't want to rush a fim fiction. I see them go up after a new episode finished airing. I admire the creative impulse, but I really value a quality work over something rushed out. The fandom is also critical of art in a deconstructive way in my opinion.
     
    I want to write fim fictions that are for everyone. Nothing too colorful, but not grim dark nonsense that doesn't belong in MLP in my opinion. Adventure as a genre is my preferred choice, although I am interested in writing just simple slice of life stories.
     
    I am just asking for useful advice on how to entertain, but also not compromising what I want.
  10. TheMarkz0ne
    Today at work was just disgusting. So Columbus day coming soon, I have that day off. I made a comment.
     
    " Oh we name a holiday after a psychopath who helped waged genocide on the Native American people and we all get a day off from it."
     
    Co worker: " Oh hey I at least get the free day off."
     
    This is the type of nonsense and downright immoral attitude I deal with at work. And I know it's like this for other people too.
  11. TheMarkz0ne
    As someone involved in the brony fandom, I'm not looking forward to season 6's premise based on how the ending for S5E26 went. There were so many problems with this episode. Even before I seen it, the trailer gave me bad vibes. Time travel episodes are really hard to do, especially in two episodes. I was thinking about shows like Xaiolin Showdown, where I think it was a 4 part finale that had great pacing.
     
    This episode felt like more fanservice than Slice of Life. Slice of Life was meant to be a fan episode and I am confused that people complained about it for fanservice. There are episodes from this season that I can name without thinking that were better than today's
     
    Lost treasure of Griffonstone
    Tanks for the memories
    Slice of Life
    Princess Spike
    Amending fences
    Do Princess Dream of Magic Sheep
    Canterlot Boutique
    Brotherhooves social
    Crusader's of the Lost Mark( best season 5 episode)
    Made in Manehattan
    Hoofields and McColts
    The Mane Attraction
     
    Season 5 was consistently great.. Season 4 was too, but season 5 had ongoing episodes where I wasn't bored. It lacked a good finale like seasons 2 and 4 had.
     
    I mean aside from the villains getting pointless cameos, why was nothing focused on? Stopping Starlight Glimmer? Ok fair enough, simple premise. But why waste time on alternate realities with no tension in them, because they disappear the next scene anyways. I wanted to know more about Sombra and Chrysalis ruling their kingdoms and instead we had to move on to Starlight throwing temper tantrums and having a slapped on redemption at the end.
  12. TheMarkz0ne
    I have awful luck with women. We are both 22 and I met her going to a lake trip 2 weeks ago. I have her contact info and she wants to spend time together tomorrow. I am excited, but I never have this happen to me, and genuine relationships take time. When I met her at the arcade she was trying to keep her friends from scarring me away.
    So we are meeting at around noon tomorrow. Is it possible I might have something here? I haven't dated since 10th grade.


  13. TheMarkz0ne
    I have been viewed as a bigot on this site. Now I want to settle some disclaimers before diving into the topic and will kick start a discussion to avoid TLDR excuse.
     
    -I am against gay marriage for the secular reason that in nature, you have a mother and father. Boom that's it. No gay parents exist because they can't procreate and raise children.
     
    - I think homosexuality should be legal. But children should not be taught sex ed. Many gays in the LGBT are teaching sex ed as early as Kindergarden( disgusting )
     
    - I am not doing this from a religious perspective. Homosexuality has it's own domestic issues and this whole marriage thing will be taken for granted because EVERYONE gets divorced.
     
    I have a sexual attraction to men, and lately been questioning emotional attachments of romance to certain men. I can't deny that. And I love woman( what man wouldn't?) So my views on homosexuality are fair, they aren't one sided in favor of LGBT and the whole liberal agenda.
  14. TheMarkz0ne
    I recently argued with my dad this morning. I'm summing up this entire situation to save you all time. My parents own a "home health" agency. I DESSSSSSSPISE it! I always loathed going there every day. I make $13.50/hr and am currently having some money issues. During depression or not feeling of any worth, I bought some items to make myself feel better. I still have enough to pay my bills though and am in no trouble yet. My biggest let down was $1128 for a simple car insurance down payment scam. That's another story.
     
    So I am looking for Costco and they seem to pay $13/hr like its no big deal, that's if I can get employed there. I have tons of work experience( clicking buttons like an inane moron for 5 years)So my resume is no issue for Costco or a decent warehouse. I worked at 2 Dunkin Donuts, a different home health agency from 2009-2011( wasn't fired).
     
    I want nothing with my parents now. I'd rather die in the streets than be with them. Rather my stomach eat itself than do what they say anymore. I don't like my parents, I don't want to sink myself to hatred and always dwelling on them. They established themselves as greedy, disgusting, materialistic, evil and barbaric practices. If you think I'm just exaggerating, you haven't lived in my family, it's an absolute tragedy, I have no sane family member. My mom wished my aunt to 'drop dead' over money. I cannot respect people like that. I hate this "parents always deserve respect." NO! If you are scumbags.... You are compared to other scumbags.
     
    I wanted to let close friends know about this( people like my friend Nuke). So the next 2 weeks are going to be stressful. I was originally not going to work today out of spite for my pos dad. But it's smart to bide my time and find a reasonable replacement and my friend's mother rent. Will it happen? Not sure. But I am assuming the default choice of human wisdom( ie people who don't serve my cause, can go get stabbed and eaten by other people because their insecurities enable them to allow this type of world)
     
    I needed a lot to get off. I am quietly angry right now.
  15. TheMarkz0ne
    I have been banned some weeks back from using general discussion. I haven't been on in quite a bit. I had time to think about getting banned. I understand that my actions were not debate appropriate. However I was angry because I thought people were looking down upon my views, or how I went about displaying information.
     
    My information comes across as conspiratorial, a word I really think is shallow. But nontheless I am myself and I know what I am talking about is true. Then again, I'm on a MLP forum and this obviously is not the right area to talk about such things. But I see so many threads on abortion and humanism. Those are things that will get me angry, regardless of where I am, or whom I am talking with.
     
    So I will apologize for my behavior and harsh words toward others. I will apologize to atheists on this website. I have no ill will toward homosexuals, transgendered folk or in minor cases, some religious people. I will not explain why I hate atheism, it's a very personal subject to me, and this is an apology, I can discuss that in private for those who want to know why.
     
    I am not expecting reentry into the forums. But either way, an apology is owed to people I have made upset.
  16. TheMarkz0ne
    I know I'm not the most liked person on this site and I don't aim to be. I know I have caused drama and some confusion as to why I argue what argue about. If you want the plain cut version, I can try to be quick. I really don't have anybody. I never had one real friend in my life. My parents have never given me emotional support they just keep me in a house. I get made fun of for driving in my car and am not a socially acceptable person. I'm just going to say I'm a failure and a phony. If I died tomorrow, oh well I could care less. I won't kill myself since I'm afraid to. But if something happened... Whatever people don't need me and I don't care if I'm alive or dead in a week.
     
    I just work and get money. I don't have the freedom to explore and enjoy anything. Always in my imagination being something I will never be. I have given up on people and might just live defending myself. Whether I'm at fault or someone else is I don't care anymore. Let me stay in my house and leave me alone.
     
    Just letting people know that I'm not happy with people.. I don't want to stoop to hate, but I am in disgust with how we treat each other and how we destroy everything and call it progress.
  17. TheMarkz0ne
    I am typing this as an expression for my current life situation. I am having some job issues and some major family issues. I work for my family's business and they are agents of a medicare system that downright infuriates me and I can't do much of anything. This job is the reason why my parents haven't kicked me out of the house and also how I can pay my bills.
     
    Point is I'm in a discovery crisis and have been for many years. I feel as if something big is on the way for me and I will be patient, but I need to find a starting point. I need to find a purpose and I'm not really thrilled nor whole because my life consists of just mediocrity and no friends in my area who remotely care to listen to what I have to say.
     
    I truly am tired of this greed and joke of what we call reality. I left the phase of caring to help people think for themselves, let them just live destructivley I say.
  18. TheMarkz0ne
    I wanted to just ask some friends who may follow me, about really breaking free out of my wage slave job. Now I have bills to pay of course, granted not much. But I'm not going to live life just clicking buttons for my parents. My family owns a home agency. I took out the words health and care because I see these people all the time and they're drugged beyond comprehension as these corrupt nurses just demand more money and act like they have entitlement.
     
    I am saddened and angry over the greed and money built on drug addition. My family has gotten into so much trouble with distant family over this. My family has become so materialistic that I can't deal with this anymore, that I regret my materialistic behavior as a kid. I want to do art and get out there and leave my mark. But this 40 hour a week job is keeping me in prison. I need advice on how to make the money I need, while having time to do what I want to do.
  19. TheMarkz0ne
    I did good in science in high school. But there was just no flare excitement or heart from the sterile classrooms and drone assembly line known as public indoctrucation. I am getting interested in all these amazing topics
    biophysics
    biophotonics
    Epigenetics(you have free will, yeah I said it)
    quantum mechanics
    plasma cosmology( no big bang ever happened)
     
    I am ready to have my house burned down, lynched and possibly fed to someone's animal (ok I'm joking)
    But I think it might be too late to get into science. I really want to do it. But science does lie and they center "science" on scientism, which is mathematical equations not backed up by observational science THEN having a mathematical formula. Science IS a method and has been a religion ever since Einstein stole "his" theory of relativity from french mathematical physicist named Henri Poincare.
    You can't attack people like Carl Sagan and Stephen Hawking. Even though today we realized Einstein is being regarded as wrong for the theory that he stole. Nikola Tesla was a man that was ahead of our time, we are coming to terms with all the amazing things he invented and a future of free energy he wanted for humanity.
    I am also interested in Walter and Lao Russell who pretty much made plasma-electric cosmology before it even became a thing. I am interested in Sir William Crookes who invented the cathode tube for TVs in the the 1800s. Also Sir Oliver Lodge who actually sent the first radio signal and invented the "Tesla Coil". Marconi didn't send the first radio signal.
    It seems all the men who contributed to science were shunned and they had everything stolen from them. It's unfair and it shows that scientism(not science) is rigged intentionally. We are being kept in the dark. DARPA, Raytheon and all these private contractor corporations are making the real magic happen, and when it makes news, you have people calling it "pseudo science"
     
    I'm not scientist. But I am willing to learn. But I can read and think for myself and I see dogmas in science and we aren't allowed to question anything without being made fun of. I read about young scientist on youtube who pretty much destroyed Newtonian physics and "Einstein's" relativity theory( that he stole)
    Kepler for example destroyed the Copernican model of a helio-centric pancake... I am talking about the circle model for orbit..of course I know that the sun is in the center no ******. Kepler proved elongated circles.
    I don't want to turn this into a debate on scientism. I only want opinions on getting started in science in general. Because I know the big names are lying to the public and it's no "conspiracy" there are thousands of youtube scientist out of college who debunked Newton, Einstein, Sagan and the whole saying "matter only matters"
    Quantum mechanics, the science that created your computer.. Proved that matter is condensed to a slow vibration and that everything is energy, frequencies and information...that makes the material known as matter. Also gravity from what these people conclude, is just electromagnetism, it's not a force that is dictated by the mass of celestial bodies. I might have comes across like an idiot. But I don't mind.
    I am only going off what I read so these aren't my conclusions. It's my opinion with a mix of what I watched from others. There is this video, it's 30 minutes. But if you have time, please give it a fair shot.



  20. TheMarkz0ne
    You can check the link below and tell me if you're interested in my story. I am only going to dedicate time to my writings if people read them on the site. I am planning on getting the first chapter done within a week. So I am not going to rush my first FIM Fiction.
     
    http://www.fimfiction.net/story/190548/reclaim-the-perfect-day-a-queens-revenge
  21. TheMarkz0ne
    I hope I can get some followers rolling. It is very nice out in Southern New Hampshire. I woke up this morning very groggy and congested. I was like that for essentially a week, but had high vitality and still do. I have an awesome track record of not getting sick.
     
    I have some things to do today that I want to get done before monday. It kinda sucks I have to work on an english research paper and prep for a peer review on tuesday. I really wanted to get started on my first FIM Fiction. I want to do 2 chapters and see if people are hooked. I want to get these ideas, out of my mind and onto a site. I don't want to spoil too much of what I'm writing. But if you love the Chrysalis and our newest villain Tirek, I hope you enjoy it. The changeling lore has already been established and I want to try something new with them. I love my hive minded, let's convert ponies into changelings as much as the next guy. But I want to write something fresh and new.
     
    Bronycon 2014 is finally a reality for me this year. Last year my parents wouldn't let me go to Baltimore, MD because they're immensely over protective and don't trust me. This year I was able to get myself a yes and approval. My parents pull the cards such as "We don't want you getting stabbed." or "we pay part of your car insurance." so I already have my room for a low rate, not even a mile away from the convention center. I also have someone coming with me and am so excited that I can finally go. I will be driving, 6 hours actually. So it will be nice to take a long weekend off from work and just meet my fellow bronies.
     

  22. TheMarkz0ne
    2 weeks until Brony Con and I literally cannot wait for it to start. Hotel is all situated and passes are here, I did need to replace things in my car.. Brand new overpriced battery, air filter and oil is still good. I might need a transmission flush, but other than that, it is a 420 mile drive to Baltimore and a 420 mile drive back to New Hampshire. I was going to fly down, but I drove down in Baltimore back in 2014 and was fine.
     
    I really loathed driving in New York and Jersey, by far the worst states you could possibly drive in. My safety rules are to drive the speed limit in those states... I can imagine cops are itching to hand out a ticket and other drivers are just looking to cause an accident, no joke, people in New York and Jersey are more dangerous than Boston drivers.
     
    I am going to be leaving the at 3am, my goal is to at least be out of NY by 8am the latest... It's already enough the I93 and I95 are car infested at 6am... If you are in my area, you know what I am saying lol
  23. TheMarkz0ne
    Wanted to put this into a blog instead of a comment thread. This isn't mean to be disrespectful to any deceased people. I just view it as they were once people and if they were around today, I would attempt some relationship with them anyway.
     
    First crush of mine, is Emma Borden. Lizzie Borden's older sister. Lizzie and Andrew Borden always scared me as a kid and still do, with their soulless and deadpan faces. Emma strikes me as peaceful and was burdened to essentially mother her younger sister. I am not claiming this as a paranormal encounter, I know ghosts exist, however this instance was most likely my mind playing tricks on me, not everything is done by spirits. I walked into Emma's room when I spent the weekend in the Borden house hold with my headphones on. I felt this cool touch on my neck. Again, not claiming a ghost encounter, but I hope Emma gave me a poke on the neck. I don't care what people say, the Borden house is haunted for realsies.
     
    Emma's innocent and goddess face.
     
    https://sanctaflora.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/emmaborden1.jpg
  24. TheMarkz0ne
    July 7th 4pm check in
    July 10th 12pm checkout
    Price for entire stay $537.08
    x2 Double-beds=4 people plus one couch
    Hotel is Baltimore Hilton located on 401W Pratt St Baltimore, MD
     
    If anyone is interested in rooming together, I would really love to hear by sometime in mid may or early june.
  25. TheMarkz0ne
    After waiting and skipping out on last year's con, I am officially going this july. If anyone is seeking a room mate, please let me know. I have a one king size bed at the Hilton, although we can work that out some how, since that room was a last minute grab. I am pumped to go! I met some people from this forum when I went in 2014, I hope to either meet you again, or meet new people.
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