I can’t help but to constantly feel
This pain that you won’t allow me to heal
My will to live diminishes every day
From the mean spirited comments you always say
Why do I feel as if I can never think?
Why do I feel like I’m always clueless?
My will to live will always shrink
As long as you keep making me feel useless.
I feel so alone, like no one understands me.
I feel as if my mistakes and failures are all they see.
I no longer feel any fear or anger or any kind of emotion, whatsoever,
Cuz my feelings have always been suppressed, always told I should never
Put my feelings ahead of anything that they feel is important
But what good will all of that be when you’re all ignorant?
You only see my undoings, failures and mistakes
That I never get the chance to show you that I have what it takes
Why do you expect so much of me
When I’m not even at the point of my life where you want me to be.
Like I said, I’m slowly losing my will to
Live as long as I have to always hear you
Screaming and shouting vulgar things at me
Just because things aren’t the way they’re supposed to be