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I'm honestly feeling a lot better, which is a stark contrast to how I was feeling this morning. Not completely healed, but happy at least. It brings me joy seeing friends happy and spreading positivity. Just seeing cheerful interactions in general brightens my day. Thank you all for being here when I hit my valley deep lows and soar to my mountain tall highs. I'm going to do my best to not let things ruin experiences for me. I'm also going to strive to be even more kind and So do not fret when I am not well. I will get better in time
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*taken down*
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I'm so sorry to hear this Interstellar. what you really can tell her is that you won't be a kid forever. If she wants to be alone, I think she deserves it. Abandoned and age until death because nobody will care. I hope you and your sister can get the best out of this. I desire a lot of luck to you two and saddens me as well to hear that your childhood is not good. Mine was so good I wish it was the same for you. I'm really sorry.
If i can do anything for you, I'll be here
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mega thread How are you feeling?
EtchASketch replied to Rift enchanted's topic in General Discussion
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critique wanted Snow's scribbles for the fridge door.
EtchASketch replied to Snow's topic in Visual Fan Art
Ooh! You did really good for your first animation, even if it's one second. I personally use Flipaclip. You can animate as long as you want on there. ^u^ -
critique wanted Snow's scribbles for the fridge door.
EtchASketch replied to Snow's topic in Visual Fan Art
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Hey! Hey you!
SpoilerA ton of people think you're super duper cool and awesome but they haven't said it to you yet! And I think you're extremely amazing too! (≧▽≦)
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About to go to Honors Geometry and then I'll have two more classes left. Wow, high school classes pass by so quickly.
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Free hug to maybe make you smile!
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I don't want to post this in any topics, maybe less people will see this that way. I don't want to upset anyone with this rant. So uh, maybe don't read and just ignore this. Yeah.
I'm sorry in advance for all of the negativity. It's not something I want to spread, but I'm getting too used to bottling things up again and I'd like to write out how I feel
I've been keeping some things in, and it's been slowly taking over my mind. "Mother" has been continuously yelling at me for the past few days. She will absolutely always find something to get upset at me about. A few days ago, she lost it because I was still experiencing these symptoms. (Persistent fatigue, weakness, low appetite.) "Get it together, school is starting soon." What...what does that mean? "You were fine before and now you're feeling like this right before school!" You described what occurred not too long ago. "School is starting whether you like it or not, and you're not skipping it." Correct. I never claimed I would skip. I love school, actually. Sure, I had my anxiety, and still do, but that happens every school year. That's nothing new. I'm not trying to skip anything. (Trust, I would much rather be there than here. I am running to that bus stop. She's been yelling at me this entire break.) I didn't..cause whatever is going on...I can't just flip a switch and then everything is better. I'm not coming to her for answers about it. She broke down at the hospital telling the doctors that I needed to tell people when I wasn't okay so that they could help or at least knew about it so it wasn't a surprise. I felt really bad, so I did that and told her some days later my symptoms weren't getting better. "Mother" screamed at me talking about how overwhelmed she was and basically that I should "stop" whatever this is. "What're you going to do for school?!" Go...I'm genuinely sorry you're overwhelmed, but I didn't know any of this would happen. Yes, it's my fault for being ill. I'm not sure how. It just is. My sister was at work that day, so she had no knowledge of that shouting incident.
"Mother" proceeded to scream at me for the next few days. Today was the worst. It happened...four or five times today. For not getting better again. For not being able to help out much because of that even though she told me to just rest. For..having no appetite. ("Girl, you need to eat! You gotta eat at school!" That wasn't out of care, she just sounded so mad.) For starting to help out a little more with chores again. Finally, after dinner, more shouting. Shouting at me for drying the dishes. The time I tried to aid in the chores some more and all she did was get angry with me. I just cried afterwards. My sister has been telling me to not take it personally. I wish I could be like her, only letting it all affect her on the surface. But it gets to me so easily. “Hurting someone’s feelings is as easy as throwing a rock into the ocean, but you don’t know how deep the rock goes.”
Fourteen years of just suffering from this lady. Time like this takes a heavy toll. I cannot even consider her my mother anymore. She's a complete stranger to me. I've cried almost every other day. She treats everyone with such disrespect and is so inconsiderate, it's unbelievable. I've never known anyone else to be this way...so hateful. I truly did try to talk to her about how she makes me feel when she does this. She says she'll try to be better. I never saw any actual aspiration in her bettering herself. I gave her so many chances, I've lost count. If it really was a mistake, how come you keep doing it? You show no remorse for anything. No apologies and no sincerity in the ones she does give...she's just unreasonable. I'm serious, I talked to her one time and all she did was roll her eyes and downplay how I felt. No matter how much I speak, there's no guarantee it's going to be heard. I think this is the person she wants to be. She never wanted us and it shows because she treated us like burdens. Every claim she made of loving us...I see now it was untrue. All of it. I'm so tired.
I'm not angry when I write all of this, simply deeply hurt and exhausted. Anger is something I lost years ago. Waow, I feel a bit lighter now writing it out rather than keeping it all in. I still need to heal, so I'm so sorry if I can't exactly be the same, happy Stellar as before! I'll try to be as positive as possibly possible from now on, I swear!
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I like to give other's second chances however there appears to be a repeated pattern of behavior from your mother that from what you're telling us, is not giving way anytime soon. I find situation like yours tragic, this pattern of behavior appears to stem from unresolved issues which your mother never received help to address, and because of that, all she has ever known is to be abusive toward other's. I'm torn between my compassion for her and also recognizing the damage this is doing to you, EtchASketch, I do not like to see individuals fallout, I would much rather see relationships mend in time, unfortunately the real world reminds us that sometimes this is out of reach. So you're left with the difficult decision of moving out when you can and are old enough.
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mega thread How are you feeling?
EtchASketch replied to Rift enchanted's topic in General Discussion
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Well, uh, school's tomorrow.
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Post random facts about yourself even if they are obvious
EtchASketch replied to Bendy's topic in Forum Games
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Alright, I'm going to force myself to get the energy to draw tonight so I'm not slacking on my art.
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It's the legendary: Crypty Scribbles in PonyTown!
Super cool pone
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Updated PonyTown designs because I have way too much free time now that I can hardly draw:
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And me q:
oops, how'd that get there-
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My left hand has be hurting on the inside since yesterday. It's so weird because this pain switches between hands some days and it's not from overuse. Today it hurts the most. I wonder what this is..
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mega thread How is or was your experience in high school?
EtchASketch replied to Gamer98's topic in General Discussion
I hope it's good.. School starts next week. 😓 -
Finally got around to making Trixie on PonyTown ^u^
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Um um um, hi guys, I'm back 😅 I'm so sorry for worrying you all. I didn't mean to cause such hurt. I missed you all the whole time I was gone. You all mean the world, the solar system, the galaxy, the universe, and the multiverse, and beyond to me! Truly, I don't know where I would be if it weren't for you awesome people! I feel so much safer here than anywhere else and that's because of all of you. This place is a home to me and you all are family! I love you all sosososososososososososososososososososososososososososooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...( 12,362,729,107,200,199 years later)...ooooooooooooOOOOOOO much! Never, ever forget that or doubt that! GINORMOUS GROUP HUG!!!!
GIANT HEARTTTT 
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Everybody, take a vacay! I'm going off the interwebs for a while. Mighty stressed and I'm going to be back sometime in August. You can still contact me on Discord, if you want. ^^
Seriously, take a vacay guys.
"Ohh, uh, I just got off of one, I don't need it-"
Take it. Take it. Take. It. Relax for a while! However you relax, do that! 🫵🤨 Do it. Calm down, don't be stress stress >:0
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This is bad. This is really bad. I knew my mind was old but it seems my bones are too. The back pain is worse now ;-; *need more pillows*
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mega thread How are you feeling?
EtchASketch replied to Rift enchanted's topic in General Discussion
Ouch...my back hurts when I straighten it. It could be because of my horrible posture while arting. or because of my old age -
mega thread How are you feeling?
EtchASketch replied to Rift enchanted's topic in General Discussion
Take! -
mega thread How are you feeling?
EtchASketch replied to Rift enchanted's topic in General Discussion
Well, I'm doing much much better than last night. I was going to get to work on an animation, but this silly cat is laying on my legs and I can't reach my stylus! But I don't want to wake this precious creature. So I'll just talk to you all in the mean time! (P.S. Thank you all for the kind words and understanding.)
Okay, have fun in your vacation. 
