I perfectly know what you mean, I've been there. You're supposed to know what is where, but things actually aren't that obvious or simple to achieve, like others say. I do have a job, but I'd love to change it in the future - change to something, where my work actually would be appreciated. It's hard to find a good job, so be prepared for potential disappointment. Either way, I believe in you Taze and hope, that you'll find something you'll enjoy. I wish you all the best.
As for the forums - that's understandable. Real life always has something to keep us busy and it's absolutely fine if you have other hobbies you'd like to spend time on as well. I have too many hobbies, so I can imagine how it goes. Either way, you're one of the most active users here ~ I see you everyday, so that's more than enough!
Take your time and balance things, so that you can enjoy all of them.