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[Overdrive 5,366]

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Hey

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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My mood's already failing today. Not even really sure why, it's been a good day so far.

 

 Kinda annoying.

[Overdrive 5,366]

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Try not to focus on it. Think about the positives instead.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Well, the day has gotten a lot cooler, which is nice because I like the cold better than the heat. The coffee was really good this morning. I've gotten to come here and talk to my friends, which I do everyday but it's always nice. We're having Bacon and Eggs for breakfast which is delicious. I was planning a walk out today and with the colder weather it sounds wonderful, and I was planning on getting some of my favorite tea and watching either Ponies or Doctor Who with it. It all sounds wonderful.

[Overdrive 5,366]

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Feel any better?

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Sorta, not really?

 

 I'm happy when I do things like that, but the second I stop I kinda just revert to this...Dullness. Then I have to try and motivate myself to do anything else, and I'll feel happy while it's going on, but then I get upset again when it ends. Usually, at least.

[Overdrive 5,366]

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Honest question: have you ever considered maybe seeing a psychiatrist?

[Zyla Fae 5,405]

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[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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I probably need to, but there's so much stopping me.

 

 Lack of money, the inability to do it without my parents knowing, potential worries for what they might think I need to do...That kinda thing.

 

 Hey Sey!

Edited March 7, 2015 by BasementPrincesses

[Overdrive 5,366]

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I know, but from a personal perspective, I feel like you could really benefit from an antidepressant.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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No. Just honestly and utterly no.

 

 Being dead honest if a Psychiatrist prescribed that stuff to me I just wouldn't take it. They'd have to literally hold me down and force it down my throat.

[Overdrive 5,366]

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I know, but you've really been down in the dumps lately, and to me, it doesn't look like it's getting better.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Maybe it won't, It never really has. But I'm not taking any kind of anti-depressant.

 

 The thought actually makes me feel ill.

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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*Attacks Base from behind with a hug *

I think maybe learning an instrument could help that kind of thing Base. Give you something you can always turn to.

[Overdrive 5,366]

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I'm not going to get into specifics here, but I've seen what happens when this goes unchecked. At least try to change something so that your mood gets a bit better.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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*Hugs Fox back* What do you think I've been doing all the walks, and drinking more of those calming tea's, and trying to watch more things other than just ponies for Smash? They've been helping, just not as much as I might like.

 

 Not really into that idea Fox. It'd take money I don't have, and time, which is something I already feel like I don't have enough of.

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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I have zero experience with anything like this, but any kind of hobby that you can always do/practice sounds like a way to cheer you up.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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I've got my games, shows, talking here, RP's with Rising, reading, spending time with my cats, going on my walks, blah.

 

 I have literally endless free time right now, and it doesn't even feel like it's close to enough. It'll only get worse when I have to get a job. Adding something else to that doesn't sound like it'll help.

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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Do you think it's possible that the lack of anything physically productive causes you to feel like that?

Sometimes I kind of feel down because I'm not actually getting anything from the things I do right this moment, in other words, only preparing myself for the future. What I'm saying is, sometimes I wish I had a job so I was doing something that I was rewarded by instantly.

Edited March 7, 2015 by Frozen Fox

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Labor and work tends to just upset me and make me feel worse afterwards. It's less time to do what I want, plus money I can spend on things I want that I now have less time for.

 

 I can spin anything into a depressing line of thought, can't I?

 

Whatever, tired of sad topic, anyone have something less upsetting to talk about?

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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If you could only find a job you enjoy, that could be rectified...

I think you may be thinking too much about the future, but anyway...

 

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Sometimes it's like my brain is twenty years in the future, like it time traveled ahead into the most negative timeline it could find.

 

 My brain's a time traveler. A really bad one.

 

Love that song.

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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I think it sounds like you may be missing something in your life, but you don't know what it is...

 

That song was when I started to love Pinkie.

[BastementSparkle 20,328]

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Eh, not really. Unless you count things like unlimited money, portal to Equestria, Time machines...The things I've wanted in life have always been the things that are either the simplest to get or things that are impossible.

 

 I loved Pinkie almost from day one, but that song made me love her even more.

[Ice Fox 1,145]

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I wish I could help you more...   But I guess the only thing I can really do, though, is be here when you need me.