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Why Now?

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Why is everything hitting me so hard all of a sudden?

 

Why is it that, since Valentines Day, I've been feeling depressed again? There's just no rhyme or reason for it. I'm suddenly remembering my depressing past and feeling sad about my present. Nothing specifically sad is going on for me right now. No sad events, no memory-triggering people, no anything. I'm just feeling like crap out of nowhere and I don't understand why.

 

Then again, while nothing sad has happened recently, not much good has happened either. The extent of my day is waking up, going online, watching tv, and going to sleep, with the addition of work on some days. Maybe I'm just lonely, I don't really have many friends. And, I have just lost the last of my friends(that I talk to daily) about a month or so ago, leaving me with only one true friend...online. And I haven't spoken to a friend with my actual voice in months...

 

You know, the whole depression thing is starting to make more and more sense...

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i'm pretty much in the same situation you are, i don't really have any real life true friend, but i found that, if i wanted to, i could make so many friends in here, and i think that's keeping me alive, out of a repetitive routine *School, home, computer, study, bed, repeat*

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i'm pretty much in the same situation you are, i don't really have any real life true friend, but i found that, if i wanted to, i could make so many friends in here, and i think that's keeping me alive, out of a repetitive routine *School, home, computer, study, bed, repeat*

I don't know how to make friends. I've lost so much trust in the human race, every time someone convinces me they're gonna stay with me they end up leaving for some new reason. I don't know how I can trust anyone, whether in real life or on the forums :(

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I know the feelin' man. Only i've been dealin' with it for years. It's not an easy thing to put up with.

Years? Welcome to the club :/

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Years? Welcome to the club :/

Yeah it sucks. I got like 1 IRL friend at this point. I don't leave my house. In the end, it's kinda a thing i've grown used to. I try not to think about the depressin' parts of it and try to find the positives that I have left to keep me goin'.

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Yeah it sucks. I got like 1 IRL friend at this point. I don't leave my house. In the end, it's kinda a thing i've grown used to. I try not to think about the depressin' parts of it and try to find the positives that I have left to keep me goin'.

Sounds like me, but without the one irl friend and little to no motivation left due to the repeating leavings of many trusted friends :(

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Sounds like me, but without the one irl friend and little to no motivation left due to the repeating leavings of many trusted friends :(

I think the only reason I still have this one irl friend is because we both are big into computers. Other than that I didn't keep my other friends, and my ex hardly talks to me either so there's that. As for motivation, I know what you mean. I have 0 motivation everyday. My grandparents can attest to that. Wake up, get on my computer, get lunch, go back to computer, eat dinner, go back to computer, and sleep. It's no fun.

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I think the only reason I still have this one irl friend is because we both are big into computers. Other than that I didn't keep my other friends, and my ex hardly talks to me either so there's that. As for motivation, I know what you mean. I have 0 motivation everyday. My grandparents can attest to that. Wake up, get on my computer, get lunch, go back to computer, eat dinner, go back to computer, and sleep. It's no fun.

Well at least you have that one irl friend. I would love to have one of those. I haven't had one since high school ended, mainly because my one school friend lived a fair distance away, so we just spoke online with his other friend. Then things happened and now we're not talking anymore :(

 

 

I can completely relate man :(

Yep, I know ya can :( You are literally the only friend I have at this point, and the person I have any trust in :/

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Well at least you have that one irl friend. I would love to have one of those. I haven't had one since high school ended, mainly because my one school friend lived a fair distance away, so we just spoke online with his other friend. Then things happened and now we're not talking anymore :(

 

 

Yep, I know ya can :( You are literally the only friend I have at this point, and the person I have any trust in :/

I only talk to him like once a month if that. When high school ended, my entire circle of friends I had just up and left. I had my own problems to deal with here at home with my grandparents and none of my friends understood that I had to take care of my grandparents over hangin' out with friends. It made me sick.

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I only talk to him like once a month if that. When high school ended, my entire circle of friends I had just up and left. I had my own problems to deal with here at home with my grandparents and none of my friends understood that I had to take care of my grandparents over hangin' out with friends. It made me sick.

I'm sorry about that. I know what it's like for friends not to fully understand :/ That was the reason I lost my last two friends :(

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I'm sorry about that. I know what it's like for friends not to fully understand :/ That was the reason I lost my last two friends :(

It's alright. I've never been fully understood by my so called "friends". But I know all too well what you're goin' through.

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