Today I broke one of my cardinal rules for using the internet: "Never make a facebook post about your feelings." And right now I'm breaking another one: "Never make a blog post about real life problems."

Over the last year and a half, I've been a semi-active member of this community and had the pleasure of meeting a lot of good people. Some of those people I feel know me a lot better than some of my real life friends... Unfortunately, that's all coming to an end. I've been having a decent year of school, but apparently decent isn't enough. I've been losing sleep over trying to keep my grades up, and it's ended badly for me. I've become more irritable and jumpy, and my grades have suffered since I've started trying as hard as I can to keep myself afloat. At the same time, two of the people I thought were my closest friends have drifted from me so they can spend time with their girlfriends, and the closest friends I still have are someone whose only real interaction with me is playing a game or two when he's not completely swamped with work and someone who's just as smart as me but incredibly annoying. After that it's the person I hang out with occasionally and the two aforementioned friends who I barely talk to due to their girlfriends. This combined stress, along with the lack of my usual outlet in playing games, has led to a further drop in my grades. This has led to my parents deciding I can spend no more than an hour on the computer all day, including doing my calculus homework (it's computer based), which usually takes about an hour on its own, 2-3 hours if it's derivatives. For about a month now this forum has been my only real source of fun and relaxation, and I can't use it anymore. Thanks for bearing with me, I know this is a pathetic thing to rant about when other people have much worse things happening, but this is basically raw emotion. This isn't my "fractalmoon" persona, this is the actual me, and the actual truth. To be honest a lot of you people are more fun to be around than any of my friends, and I'm grateful to all of you for tolerating my sometimes funny, usually annoying, antics.

Thanks for having me around,

Brent Singh