Vampira Heart

If you were a tiny bit closer I'd invite you over for sewing fun.  What kind of things do you like to sew?

@Widdershins

Well my mom said mean things to me the other day that really hurt my feeling and when I confronted her about it she just got mad at me, and I want to see my best friend really bad and it seems no one wants to help me see her  

also my gerbil bit me super hard on the hand when I went to hold her to relax and try and make my self happy and blood dripped down my hand cause it was a pretty deep cut and it triggered a wound in my heart that made me sob for no reason cause I'm just sick of all the regection and hurt I face in my life

  I just need some one to hug me and tell me it's ok but no one hugs me or cares about anything I have to say in this house...~_~ 

 but don't worry I should be back to my old self in a little bit I just needed to vent this out  ^~^

@SolarFlare13

yay! Can't wait! *snuggles*  

Thanks Pinkie I would love that if I could do it! I see many things, plushes,clothes, pillow cases, quilts anything really :3

  I like to recall some things of Buddism here & there. I would suggest that too, go to your local library and see if you can't dig up a book by the Dhali Lama. He's done quite alot, despite them seemingly all saying more or less the same thing, but that doesn't dampen their message any.

  Thank life for its adversity. Trouble only strengthens you & mistakes only enable you to further withstand & take caution for when & if it happens again. Not to mention all pain, like most experiences in life are but temporary. Take your lil' pet gerbil, surely it cannot be blamed for its actions? It's a small critter, likely lost, confused & scared at the time. Having your huge hands wrap around it or lunge towards it was probably just something it didn't want to put up with at the time & lashed out in a momentary lapse of its animal mind. That doesn't mean or prevent you from cuddling it again in the future or elsewise loving the tiny fluffball. Even if it should lead down that unfortunate path, Love can always find you again.

   A moment is but a moment, not indicative of the future or a sign of things to come. My own Mother has been... very... hateful... in... in the past...   ...

  ....*twitch*...

  ...but she still calls me. She still seems to genuinely care about how I'm doing & my welfare even if it has become so very, very obvious that it isn't healthy for either of us to be in the same area. Even the most vile & hateful of beings do not always mean to offend or wound. Mostly, because when one is perpetually & consistently horrible, steps tend to be taken, like, oh, child-protective services. Heh, but I'm sure it's not that bad! My own Mother used to come back after what she called her "Rages" and would apologize for having not meant it & having been stressed, tired and far too emotional at the time.

    Doesn't... make it any better, but consider it. What evil reflected onto you is but a small spark of the evil in some hearts that needs to come out every now & again. We don't blame a machine for the choking fumes it belches forth, it is indeed its fault, but it is but a effect of its process. Others being mean to you is just one of many reactions, a flaw in them visited upon you, but not indicitive of the whole. One loves in spite of flaws.

    Sure, if you keep getting hurt, you take steps. But Pain is momentary, Pain is no less an emotion than any other feeling. Pain makes you stronger, teaches you that you can survive more than you think you can. Respect your Pain for what it tells you, because where would we be if we couldn't feel?

   Some of us may rarely experience comfort or safety, or be the sort to fully appreciate it when it does happen, but that does not detract from it ever happening. Your life will always get better, it stands to reason. Hope Never Dies.

   ...uhh, maybe I should stop... think I may be beginning to sound too much like the abuse victim...