Vera Veil

Ugh, I feel strange, I feel like I'm losing control but at the same time, like I'm gonna power through the ..... For lack of a better word, situation, that I'm in ..... I really don't know what to do, or how .... I hope it's not too late

wow, been a LONG time since I did one of these? how is everyone? as for me? a lot has changed, especially in my head and im just not sure anymore

Sigh, these last few weeks have been depressive, and that's an understatement ..... I kno when something is bad, but this? Beyond bad ....... I just wanna hide in a shell, maybe it's the perfect place for me, I seem to live it in my mind as is :/

oh, sorry, alittle context would be nice, huh? Well as I said earlier, last few weeks have been depressive, I've had to deal with so much and I'm on the point of breaking, that's y I'm back, maybe I can find ............ Something, anything .... To free me of this ..... My bday, on the 9th? Had all these plans, and what did I do? None of em ... Slept all day, was awake for 4 hours, before falling asleep all night ;-; no need to say the 3 words, they will fall on deaf ears at this point, and .... Idk

damnit coz I broke my ipad screen, it means ill be semi out of action for a few weeks while I build my savings up and get more and more jobs to pay my bills .... -_-

Ok everyone, I would just like to say I'm Officially back, but by Officially Back, I mean I'll be on when I get the chance as I work almost everyday and in my days off I'm busy cleaning or resting or chilling on Xbox or PC .... If u wanna hit me up on Xbox 1, my gt is Chill On My D, so don't be stranger, I won't bite, but I do have a mic, so be wary of that .... Um, I will be on from time to time depending on when I can get on ..... For now thou, enjoy this adorable Fluttershee

Hey guys, look at what that cat dragged in ...... That's rite, a dead user .... Anyways, I'm not officially coming back, no, but I will say this ... I now have an old iPad working in really good condition so I will be back, very soon too, but not now as I am currently overseas in Fiji on holidays .... I wish for my return to be fun, happy and full of friendly faces that I have known to like over here on mlpf and I can't wait ..... I will see u guys soon, real soon

what do I do now? do I hide, do I stay, do I work my way up the system, or do I be a self made man? plz help?

after a long, hard week, 12 hour days, including on the 40C day (oh hell yes, I worked in 40C heat ... or a 104F of those people who use Fahrenheit instead of Celsius) in absolutely NO shade ... all day stop/slow ... stopping traffic and releasing it when given an all clear .... I'm not thinking about the money next week ... I'm thinking about the time off I will have oh, and this beer I'm having

hmmmm, is it me, or is there a serious lack of hamburgers here? meh, I just had beer battered chips and now I feel like the pones after eating AJ's cupcakes ... last thing I need is a burger 

I'm in a reasonable mood, put some money into a claw machine a few days ago, and won these 2 ...

and earlier today, I put my dashie dog tag around dashie ... she looks so cute 

even thou things are still bad, I just came back to make sure I wasn't dead, ill be posting little snippets here and there, but for the most part ill be pretty much dead here until I get my act together ... and I still need to update my blog, its kinda important to me and yea :/

gtg, need to have a shower and just play pd2 on my xbox some

-sigh- I hate the bad stuff that just keep happening to me, that's why I'm not around as much, I wish I was here more; but I just cant be .... so I'm taking some time off, get my medical stuff in check, get back on track with work, fund a new car, wait for ... why am I stating my problems here? its the internet .... ugh, just know that ill be inactive for a while as I'm in WAY over my head and cant find a way out ... until I get better and can be here once again, peace out /)

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whats everyone up to?

I'm kinda sorta upset about the loss of the BBCode, but I guess I can live without it unless there is a way I can use the BBCode in the Signatures setting tab, then I guess I will just keep what I currently have, I don't mind having TwiDash, but something a little fresher would be nice ... oh well 

sorry for not being here for the last little bit, I had things to do, nasty things that I just had to deal with .... but I'm here now on a brand new pc, so I'm good to stay

wow, how long have i been dead here? i had nearly 1k missed messages lol ....

whats happening?

sorry i have been inactive, work has me all tied down

well i know why i hate birthdays now .... because they just hurt me inside ....... if u need me pm me, im going back on hiatus again, but can be tracked on Discord, Insta, Skype and Xbox

yay, im on the banner with my two best friends, Applebloom and Sweetie Belle where is Pinkie when u need her?

how is everypony today?

great, now things are going sour with a friend and coz its 2 am, i wont be sleeping well tonite .... ;-;

ok i am back, i took a long time, a very long time ... you could almost say it was a Vera long time ..... No? ..... well ok then .... that was a pun on my OC, but whatever ....

anyways i am still waiting on a few people to message me and other things to happen first but i still am reachable on my Discord or Skype (Skype preferred as im always there and barely on Discord) but I will try to be here more again

how are we all?

Im sorry for my inactivity here on forums, Im under pressure and feeling the squeeze and has dropped my emotions to a point where I know I should be as far away from here as possible

how is everyone else today, thou?

ugh, idk y, but its just getting harder, i wish i knew what to do

im too upset, im falling to pieces and everything it not ok, and it is not from my injuries, so you can see my current feeling, have this old song .... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rq8N5aqeaHc