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Remorseful. Ashamed. Undeserving of forgiveness after all I've done.

I suppose my own would be Make yourself your best friend, especially when not a single soul among 7 billion wants to.

Completed Series of Unfortunate Events. And other films I still had to see. But all the other "originals" are outright trash. Now there's nothing left for me to watch on Netflix, besides the 1st 2 Spongebob seasons. ( And they're the only seasons available.)

She's completely irrelevant now.

Just like Joker said it, some people I've met online always insist that even though they're aware that those claims about CN or KR are just "jokes," they insist on making those claims the absolute truth of humor, as in all other forms are pointless and stupid (Something like Oxford definition of humor - Chuck Norris or Keannu Reeves). All because they worship them as God and that they want to evangelize everyone to worship their "divinity and greatness" like some cult. They think that they alone are the only existing authority who determines that CN and KR humor is the only humor, and they use their obsession as the reason why. Too often, I'd encounter some CN or KR "joke" that is completely irrelevant to whatever Youtube video or some other subject I'm on that doesn't and shouldn't involve them at all. And besides, I've actually understood a number of jokes there, and they still aren't funny at all. For the record, I'm not jealous of either of them. It's because their worshipers remind me of preachy people in my life who keep trying to make me Catholic again even though I left long ago.

All the more reason why I hate people who expect me to treat them seriously. As if these comedic material actually had any real-world purpose. I can probably expect this from people saying stuff like this about fictional characters. Because no matter how realistic fictional characters are, they'll never be fully human. But when you equate CN or KR as being God who can do anything and that they're the definition of everything that is good, that's when the line is crossed. There are those of us who do like that he is a good human being. I admit that I'm one. I appreciate him being a proper model. But we don't give two sh*ts about things like every footstep he takes or what thought is on his mind every second or that all other good people like him are nonexistent.

So KR is going to get a cameo in the new Spongebob movie. Super yay (and I say this in a monotone voice with complete apathy.) What, I suppose you expect me to proclaim that him simply breathing will instantly put an end to Covid?

I will play: Man in the Mirror (Michael Jackson) so I can remember that I am a human being who is capable of changing myself and the world. Sweet Victory (Spongebob Squarepants) So I can celebrate me leaving uni forever and be an human capable of anything without restraint Let it Go and Show Yourself (Frozen) To remind myself that there are good people who will love me for who I am I can blast them to the highest volume to show my happiness of being free from any institution and being capable of choosing.

And you're sure you haven't felt the slightest bit of guilt of not watching it while it was still "popular" or that you can be hypothetically be the last one on earth watching it? I and possibly you would not give a damn that we watch something because it's "the biggest thing." We watch it because we feel satisfied watching it, popular or not.

Well I recently got into Batman TAS. It aired back in the early 90s (if that's right) and I still wasn't even born yet. But since here I am in 2020 watching it a bit more regularly even when most or everyone of the original fans who first watched it in the original airtime are gone forever, that still doesn't diminish the fact that it's still ok to regularly and avidly watch a movie or series even if it aired millennia ago?

To be honest, sometimes I feel like a "loser" for not being in the trend while it still lasted.There have been instances where I was made fun of missing out on "the greatest movie(s)/series of all time." But then being the "only one" watching after something has long ended isn't wrong, right?

I'm talking about both films now. Please don't start with the implicit or explicit LGBT or feminist agenda because that's not the point here. So what if people say everything of the franchise is so overrated? Maybe I can see the journey of Elsa, Let it Go and Show Yourself as a coming-out regarding sexuality. But it doesn't apply only to that realm. Just because there are those of us who are born luckier than others it doesn't mean we have it all well. There are shy people regardless of any social criteria who people have a hard time understanding and accepting because of my/our eccentric or unconventional beliefs, preferences and actions. Elsa being born into royalty and me being born into a stable family doesn't mean we have it good every second of our lives. She and I have had our share of being given questionable glances and words simply because we don't adhere to what is normal. Even that fear that we're watched doesn't help at all. I myself and people like me are rightfully sick of having of having our fears and issues trivialized just because others use the overrated argument and overdone political agendas in film argument to claim that these movies are shallow or overdone. Listening to Let it Go again and again was fun and relatable for me. I related to it already. But doing the same thing for Show Yourself actually made me cry (and I don't often cry with songs). I think Frozen 2 was already my mirror. She made me feel validated, that there is always the potential for deviants to be loved. Coupled with the fact that I'm about to be free from uni, it makes it all the more profound because I will be a free agent who can improve myself and explore the world and life.

And there have been people in my life who hate me doing something for the sake of doing it. But who the f cares? Me watching movies and series and playing games for the sake of enjoying them, for not doing anything constructive or destructive should be enough isn't it? Doing something like enjoying hobbies for its own sake is already enough? Either I could care or not about the social implications but in the end feeling good alone about doing them is enough.

Some cases I wonder why for example: Why I wasn't born in the 1940s or 50s and ended up preferring Star Trek and watched the original series while it originally broadcasted and that there were many other people who I never interact with but feel like their existence gives the show value (but then I ended up being born preferring Star Wars) Something along that line. For my little pony, maybe the show will still be there for eternity. On one hand, I feel like I have never missed out on anything if I watch it decades after it ended and that I'm hypothetically the only or one of the very few fans in the world enjoying it. On the other, if I watch it that long after, I still feel empty knowing that there's no one else's existence to give it value, even if I choose to never interact with them. Should I focus on the former, when it comes to watching any series? On something on the side, I watch Snow White (1937) and never give a damn if I'm the only one in the world who loves it.

Only alcohol because I'm too afraid to act irrationally that might result in me dying.

Often times I'd encounter others defend certain instances of other comedy types for "hurting yo wittle feewings." Like they expect everyone to toughen up. So I guess one point of those comedy types is to make us all insensitive and inconsiderate to everyone we meet because we always assume everyone is living in some sort of bubble? We should live our lives behaving indecently because our "wittle feewings" don't matter? That's a world I absolutely hated being part of and then left. Me liking dark humor provides a sort of invisible outlet for me where I can fantasize about doing terrible things to people I've disliked in my life and people who I never meet but still dislike from afar. The best part is I can fantasize about those things all I want and that I still remain sober enough to never actually act them out. Not expressing what those thoughts are further enhances it for me.

To be specific, I've watched many comedies or teen sitcoms back in my day and unfortunately I believed that characters having such hyperbolic and stereotypical behavior was how real life people act. Now I blame myself for actually believing that real people behave like I saw them on TV and I also blame them for just being so stereotypical and completely antithetical to common decency. And yes, here comes the crowd who says this kind of humor is intentionally done to make some point and that I was too idiotic then to understand anything then. But how was I supposed to understand it like that? I wasn't exactly hardwired to look beyond face-value behavior in my past years. I've done some exploring of myself and I think I realized that the only kind of humor I like is dark humor, preferably when people somehow get hurt or killed. Maybe it's because I had unsavory people in my life and even people who I only hear of in news and despise them anyway. Maybe I like dark humor because those undesirables getting offed like that in violently hilarious ways gives me some sort of satisfaction in knowing that they'll get what's coming to them. Good examples will be Deadpool.and that Regular Show episode In the House.

Apart from MLP, I can probably think of many other movies or shows that I haven't watched due to these reasons: Having never even heard of them. Not watching them while they were still freshly released/broadcasted and while fandoms were still alive watching them. I feel like watching them now many years later makes me feel like I'm watching in a void where my enjoyment is completely isolated. Looking back then and believing that I liked those movies or shows only to suddenly encounter negative backlash that still endures all these decades later, whether it concerns some specific aspect/episode or the entire thing. Those are the ones at the top of my head right now. But if I come up with other reasons, is it already too late to watch any media I've never heard of or rewatch familiar material? I feel like I've missed out a lot and it's too late to appreciate back them while they were still in their prime.