Clawdeen

The doctors office mess aside. I’m also feeling conflicted on what I want to do with a writing project I’m figuring out.

All I’m asking is if I do or do not have the virtual doctors appointment tomorrow I scheduled. I have gotten everything but a straight answer. The more this person says to me the less I understand. Best of luck with the move.

Oh my gosh I am so enraged. I just have a simple question. Why are we dancing around a simple question

Like you don’t want to speak to me on the phone rn💀

The way I feel exactly the same. It’s easy to find somebody it’s hard to find somebody of quality tbh. It’s why I really hate how dating apps are the thing nowadays. Which let me not get on a big rant about it but. Nobody fills in an about me section these days. Even on Bumble. It’s very looks based and I can’t connect with other people based off of looks. You’re hot? Great and? How does this help me know if I’m going to be able to have a conversation with you or not. Or even want to tbh.💀 People who don’t write anything about themselves are an auto left swipe for me. If you can’t be bothered neither can I lol. Vice versa on that I’m spending 500 bucks on Botox and 700 bucks on fillers for each side of my face. That seems to be an expectation for some folks out there, especially because I’m a 30+ woman and I’m not doing it. I can’t afford that sort of routine maintenance. Even if I could I could use that money towards other things. It’s the ghosting once you make matches, the bots, the gross first messages, people you have to pull teeth from to even hold a conversation with them, aggressive messages, being strung along, etc. Then once you find someone you want to meet in person it’s hoping you have a good enough first experience to warrant a second date. Which I’ve not had. Because oof. Red flags. Red flags everywhere 💀 Even then it’s just hard for me to connect with people. I’ve already told some of my other friends that I’m just gonna be y’all’s single witchy auntie.

Going to straighten my hair

15 rainbow cakes

Yeah I redownloaded it again. I’ve been alternating between it, Cult of the Lamb and Lollipop Chainsaw

Mines a mess since I’ve been time skipping to keep moving in all the characters I want lol.

I am going to get ready and attempt to take a nap before Clash of Paris comes on today. Since I got up super early again

I’ve been playing Cult of the Lamb all morning

5 rainbow cakes

Look at you planning out how to get away with hiding money from the government

So my answer is yes but we’d have to have a discussion on that. Would you date someone who only bathed once a week?

I have new thoughts. My new thoughts are trying to figure out new clothes to buy

I’d like Winter as a name.

I turn even paler than I already am and almost faint. Almost. I’ve not fully fainted yet.

I’m proud of myself with how I handled a situation. Also I’m amused with myself over my own silly actions

Well now that my excitement for today has passed I’m going to go be a cult leader and play Cult of the Lamb

I had Wendy’s biggie meal. The chicken sandwich version. It was ok. The fries were mushy

I am an actual mess and that’s all I’m going to say about what just happened lol. I don’t know why I thought doing that would help. I truly lacked all common sense in that moment. But it made it worse lol. Now I get to wait for my friend to hop onto discord so she can be like “No *insert Clawdeens real name* Why? 😂 “ I get to be like I don’t know 😂.

I’m proud of myself. What’s going on isn’t easy but despite what I was thinking prior to this, the way I’m handling it now shows me that I have made progress. Even when I thought I haven’t been.

The company my father and I both work for has randomly decided to change our health insurance to a completely different company. We got letters in the mail. I wasn’t happy at first but reading over it I feel like this one may be better than what we had. This was however a random surprise

Well hopefully I’ll be eating lunch and have figured out what I want to play lol

I mean I gotta go with the bat pony