Imma take off my jester hat and be real for a minute.
The only thing I’ve been seeming to find is disrespect and I’m tired of it. I’m not just something that exists to be hit on and also treated like garbage. I am a living being who matters and I’m tired of life throwing these people my way that want to treat me like I don’t. I know a lot of people in some unhappy marriages and I will stay alone before I let that become me. I am looking for a genuine connection with someone who’s gonna respect me. Yeah I can put myself back out there like I’m being told. I can hop on a dating app again, match with somebody to get ghosted or have gross overly sexual comments made to me within the first two messages. Ofc we can’t forget the people who see my job title and think that means I have a lot of money. Just lookin to hopefully use me for money. Nobody wanting to bother to get to know me. At this point I know I’m ending up alone. The universe just does not wanna stop the clownery. Something is getting its enjoyment out of the clown like behavior being consistently sent my way. Really my time is being spent working on myself, my job, making friends and buying things that make me happy.
My answer to this question is that it’s luck based. You can find it either way depending on if you’re lucky.