No your not lol . Nobody knows. I cant do the love thing unless i find someone i who can get me as much as i get them. It's complex and not as simple as, oh, you 2 have like 3 things in common lol. I have to feel for them on a deep connection level and we have both be understanding of each other. The crush i did have is not the right person for me. Now I'm adrift again on the open ocean.