StaryStory

Lots of calm, lots of silence, lots of concentration, lots of attention, lots of focus, lots of mental training...

Also, looking for Inspiration in Professional Artists ~☆

@anakin Thanks for the follow! ~☆

Happy Birthday Iforgotmybrain! Hope you have a beautiful future my friend! ~☆

I only want to share this little piece, because regardless of any problems or what you think about me in relation to other friendships, you'll still be my very best friend and someone who helps me a lot. I can't imagine me without you and you made me take the next step in my personal and artistic journey, you brought me many opportunities and I'm grateful for all of them. You're an angel for me and I'm glad you're strong enough to not let the much darkness to take you down. I know your struggles, the many challenges and pain that life throwns at you.

But I just want to say that I'll be here for any help, I fully trust you and I'm glad you exists and also consider me your friend, no matter the level, you're of extreme importance for me and it would be of much impact in my life if you decided to leave. I'm glad you'll continue because not only me but also a lot of other people in the site need you. You're a good person and I know you can recognize it's worth to continue fighting for the good, I know it's hard, but I also know you have the strength to fight. Me, your friends and other people in the site also have our struggles and we try to fight them so we can also assist you in your battles, I care about you and they care about you. Please continue being this blessed being with a lightful spirit that you are, I'm sure you'll still bring many more good things and hope in the future, just how you did with me.

Happy Birthday, Silky ~☆

Just a silly little detail I would like to share before my post counter changes. Because this really wasn't intentional. Now back to training ~☆

“You don't want to learn anything, let's see how it'll be when you'll need to face things alone”

That's what my mother told me yesterday, and as always, no answer from me, just silence.

I was thinking about if I had to share my thoughts on this or not.

But this time, I will, because now what I felt was something different. 

Normally, these words would only make me feel sad or hopeless. But now, they made me feel challenged, a genuine underestimation of my person from her. As much as I underappreciate myself a lot, I can not accept this. This is what I feel. A challenge was thrown at me, and I want to face it.

The choice of not answering, but just staying silent isn't simply because I don't have anything to say, but because, now, more than ever, I feel how important it is to talk less, and act more. Silence can be interpreted in many ways, and here it represents that the days of discussion between me and her came to an end, it means “Challenge Accepted”. I no longer want to talk to her about such nonsense, it always annoys me and it never leads anywhere. Now every time she'll try to push these subjects to me, I'll simply ignore, not because I'm ignorant, but because now I only want to show it, no more talk, stay silent, focus, only act, make it happen, show it happening. Her reaction later? It will be of no importance, what matters is to achieve it. 

I don't care if the many years I spent trying to learn English and Drawing, alone, with no teaching, tricks, or anything, completely by myself, or the things I still try to learn nowadays, means “Learning nothing” to her. The fact that I learned how to draw and speak in english without the help of anyone are the only two things that make me feel proud of myself, and that for me is enough to show that I can do more, and I don't have to brag myself about it, a simple action can mean more than a thousand words.

I already had “less talking and more action” in my mind before, but from now on, it'll be stronger, time for me to start taking things even more seriously.

Motivation is something that is constantly hard for me to feel, but when I feel it, the story quickly changes, and I'll now promise to myself that she'll learn to not underestimate me anymore. The less I talk and the more I act and show results, the better I'll feel with myself. Or else, I'm the failure that I constantly feel that I am. 

In such troubled times we are living, before all that chaos culminates in absolute destruction, it's best to show what I'm capable of.

I really don't know what to say about this 💦, I think we are living the decade of the weirdest crossovers ever seen, seriously, not even when I was, like, 10 years old I could imagine a crossover between Sonic and Spongebob, It's randomness at its peak, I guess Fortnite has really created a school of collaborations/crossovers, out of nowhere a lot of recent games are just feeling straight like MUGEN lol

Yeah the site ultimately just keeps crashing in a 502 error message multiple times for me, no idea what's going on, if it's only happening with me or not. Well, fortunately at least it's not the Cloudflare Captcha error (☆) that literally forced me to use Derpibooru in a different browser (☆). If the same happened here with me, daaaaamn that would suck. 

No clue about this, but hope it stops happening. Anyway, my art recess in the internet needs to end, back to training now!

Happy Birthday Snow! Hope you have a beautiful future! ~☆

Nothing much I'll say here, only some appreciation, which maybe would've worked better if I did a year ago, but It doesn't matter, I can do this at any time, and it's a coincidence now as I wrote this while there is the event occurring where users are appreciating other users. It took me a while to realize it but I just made my participation now and messaged those users who impacted me the most. But I also want to "send flowers” to a group of people who aren't here, people who I can't really communicate with, especially because one of them passed away, but they had and still have a huge impact and importance in my life because what they did really matters a lot for me and I want to honor their work for inspiring me so much.

I took a path for my drawings in the last 6 months that for me felt new and different from what I tried to do before. I got quite obsessed with that 2000's visual novel look and I'm still am and even that moe art style has been influencing my drawings I think. Not much surprises, I'm using it for training after all.

What surprised me though is that this made me forget about my former art inspiration for a time, but maybe only in my mind, not in my drawings. Dragon Ball continued and continues living in the composition of my arts, it's hard to explain, but like.

Even though my arts distanced from Dragon Ball quite a lot in terms of visuals, DB still is the basis for almost everything I draw, composition, poses, anatomy, facial expressions etc, all traces back to it, and of course, I still love drawing these characters, so the distancing was almost none. It started back in 2018, a year after I rediscovered the series and got obsessed with it, it's because of it that I started taking drawings seriously. Of course I always liked to draw before 2018, but it was always 100% only for fun. It was after I rediscovered DB that I started to treat it like a work, because the series gave me a new perspective on it, those visuals, art style, somehow convinced me to treat myself more as an artist, it just surprised me somehow, something other animes couldn't do as before that rediscovery I watched a few other anime, like Pokemon, and none of them motivated me to start taking arts seriously like DB did. Maybe it was the nostalgia from when I watched it from 2009 to 2014? I really don't know, it just happened.

It was after I rediscovered it that I started to design my own characters, before it, all the characters I drew were already existing characters and the few OCs I made were very unoriginal (Sonic and Tails fusion, oh my XD), it also made me build my own art style, before 2018 I barely had a style, and I used to constantly trace art (at least only official ones), because I didn't take my work seriously. After 2017 I never traced ever again because DB made me want to take my work more seriously and stop tracing over other art.

So yes I think I can say this series is what really made me into a full artist, someone dedicated to the arts and focused on arts, I can't imagine myself being a serious artist nowadays if I didn't rediscover it 8 years ago. So yes I can't do anything else but only thank it for everything, because I think drawing is what really gives me purpose in my life nowadays, and if it wasn't for DB you probably wouldn't be seeing that drawing that is now in the site's banner, or any of my drawings in general, I wouldn't have started drawing Ponies if it wasn't for it, it was because of it that I started uploading my arts on Facebook back in 2018 and made me join an artist community in 2019.

I feel that with time I take drawings more seriously, because of all this, I’m planning to make a few changes in my drawings and overall artist content (you probably won't notice), I'll still keep my goal of making my arts look exactly like the 2000's visual novels, but now in a kinda different way.

But especially, as a tribute to this series for saving my life, I plan to make a blog here talking about the artistic aspects of the series, talking about its artists, animators, designs, art process, everyone and everything that brings the world of the series to life (or almost everything).

I tried to do something similar with MLP before, I created a blog where I tried to make a collection of the artists of the series, but it just didn't work since MLP doesn't really feature that much deepness in art, especially in G4 where its main production was made in flash, almost all artists weren't known or credited and very little material really featured something artistically impactful (mostly the comics only). It wasn't very interesting, no one really was interested and I also lost interest as well, so I deleted the blog due to how empty it was. 

But when it comes to Dragon Ball, that becomes a lot more interesting, I still love going through the art, the artists, animation and animators of the series and I always learn something new, it's something I can spend days and days looking for. 

It's easier to look for manga artists, but for the animators it's really hard, it's something that requires a lot of study to understand, identifying art styles, animation style, corrections, supervision, etc, it's very difficult to get information on these, I spent almost the entire day making the image below yesterday, first because of the montage, second because I had to find each image in high quality and the best of them, and third because at least 13 of the Gokus below were made by animators and 2 I struggled to find information about who was the artist behind them.

It's something that really takes a lot of time to do so it will be definitely a blog that will require a lot from me, research etc, and I can already expect that almost no one here will really show any interest in the blog, I understand it, I'm not complaining, people here already barely showed any interest every time I tried to talk about MLP official art, imagine Dragon Ball? So I'm just saying this because It will be 100% a passion project, it will need a lot of motivation from me, and I have a lot, though I can't promise that it won't fade away with time, I can lose interest. But I'll try because it's what I can do aside from fan arts, and also celebrate the work of these people and the series' creator himself, who already passed away a year ago. At the time I was very impacted and it was the first time I cried over the death of someone I had never met and who wasn't a family member of mine. Thinking about it recently made me feel an impact again, of course smaller, but a different one because at the time I wasn't thinking so much about my art and I was less mature as an artist as well. Now I'm a more mature artist and I could feel more the impact from it artistically. Now I realized even more how important it is.

it will be a tribute and I want to fill my profile with this homage ~☆

For those interested, list of all artists who made the Gokus below

Hi Woohoo! Just here because I can't send a private message. Only want to say that you're a really fun guy, always entertain me to go through what you post and the cartoon scenes you share. I still think that " Character Color Palette Challenge" you made in 2024 was very fun, tested my memory a lot haha ~☆

Also, only because...~☆

Thank you @P1x3l and @Lleys for the follow! Also thank you @Bairro M Vagrant for you follow as well, my bad for not saying it in the day 💦