writing Thoughts and Emotions of a Lost Soul

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Hiding behind hateful love, I feel despair.

A bloodcurdling scream, so common.

But, tears have been dyed scarlet.

Fallen on a dark, stone paved street,

Tattered, crying and in bloody rags,

Was it you all the time, who cried for me?

 

A very tightly clenched heart, steeled,

Ready to unlock through cage to light,

Has failed you once again, it is true.

And, I lowered my head in shame.

Silent, grieving tears continue to fall.

 

But several feelings make promiment.

You won't understand a temptation.

I want to tear that fortress around you

From stone to stone till it becomes debris:

A firm castle to hellish remains of rubble!

 

I want to claw open a healing, scabbed

Wound that is bitter with angry hatred.

I'll see exactly how bloody I can make it,

And paint the red with even more of red.

 

But even so, it's you whom I love so dear,

Who I will always want to always be beside.

I want to be your knight, I want to erase pain.

I don't want to cause trouble, lest he strikes.

And, this makes me so confused, so astray.

 

If I cross a fork in the road, will it vanish soon?

If I walk in darkness, it the sun brighten it out?

If I learn how to smile, would I not create pain?

Would I not be so forlorn? Would I never cry?

And, would should such a black hatred end?

 

Is this true, real thoughts, emotions?

I question myself every single day.

I don't want to live this way, with hate.

I don't want hurt other people either.

And, I'll promise that I'll die when I must!

 

So, come on, and hear my cry now!