Hope (A Thank You to the Fandom)

[skysweep 541]

This is dedicated to any and all the bronies out there who feel alone, lost and ignored, like me. I hope this will give you some strength to keep fighting. 

 

This may not be any form of official event, but it is a celebration in my perspective.

4 years ago, I was a simple, lost soul, cast out by the castes of a very stringent society. I was lost, with not much else to live for. I wasn’t accepted by any group of people. Nobody lent any helping hand. For once, there was an experience of true loneliness.

It wasn’t until this fandom reached out to me did I ever think I was worth anything more. But even then, things were never easy. For the years that followed, there was an ever present specter of not belonging. No matter who I turned to, I always left a little more hurt, a little more shattered. Even those that people would call on, turned their backs in the end. From those who tout themselves “leaders” to those who call from the right of religion, there was no true sanctuary.

With each attempt, the pain got worse. Anguish was all that was left of an empty husk I dared to call myself. Collecting mental illnesses and pills like bank statements of dealings gone wrong. With every step, the severity increased. From behavioral therapy I followed the path, all the way to the strongest trauma medicine legally allowed for a somewhat sane human being.

I resigned myself to my fate. I felt and knew that in spite of the many accolades that adorn my walls, I wouldn’t count for anything in the eyes of people.

But there was hope yet. After collecting my next set of ever stronger pills, it all finally made sense to me. “Trauma”. Trauma isn’t a thing that is self inflicted. Its something that happens to you when the circumstances are terrible. There is absolutely no reason for me to think I am some disfigured reject, and that the world as one sees it can be wrong, and not the ultimate authority. I didn’t take a single one of those pills. They still sit here, unopened. The clarity the labeling offered was far greater than the medicine inside.
It was then I realized that there was only two groups of people who were ever consistent in my life. Even as teachers and authority figures and peers came and threw me aside, my family and this fandom, these bronies, all of you, are the only people who stayed by my side. Each time I tried to end it all, my thoughts flew to my family and to you lot, the only tethers that kept me anchored to the world of the living. And yet, all this time, it was a thankless task for those who helped. I was irritable, with endless parades of demands. My stress and anxiety would catch up to me and I would lash out. I never felt that bronies did enough to help.

And yet people followed. Followed along in unwavering support.

From this, is when I realized that some thanks were in order. So I did. I rejected every school and social event, knowing that would earn me nothing but pain. I took the money and got commissions to share. I took the time to learn to draw, and build a collection of art to thank those who helped, and to assemble this modest celebration that is here today.

Now as I graduated from high school and finished my final exams just days ago, I felt it would be fitting to pay tribute to the people who have seen and protected me in this difficult journey till today.

And so I title this simple thank you celebration “Hope”. For all that this fandom and all you people offer in every shape, manner and form. Keep doing what you do. You may not realize the hope your simple existence offers.

And so below are the little tributes of art I made and commissioned from other artists. Hope you enjoy.

 

These are some of my drawings I tried to learn to make for this day.

 

 

 

 

Here is my deviantart to go and see all these drawings and their descriptions in a little more detail:

http://skysweep.deviantart.com/

 

 

This is a commission I got from 11newells, a really mega one (that’s why it’s a link, the size limit really does her work no justice)

https://www.dropbox....ission.png?dl=0

 

This is her profile, if you haven’t done so, do go check her art out. She is a wonderful and kind artist.

https://mlpforums.co...2046-11newells/

 

And this is a song I got from Prince Whateverer. Its titled “Brighter” and I really hope it evokes some hope in you as it did for me. (Sorry Prince, had to reupload it to wipe my real name off)

http://www.mediafire...y_Skysweep).wav

 

This is his youtube channel. Go in with an open mind, you will surprise yourself how addictive his music is. Trust me, I stepped in not tolerating metal and walked out loving it.

https://www.youtube....rincewhateverer

 

 

I will add Floor Tom’s work when it arrives, but do see his other works too:

https://mlpforums.co...0430-floor-tom/

 

I hope this little surprise and little tribute can be appreciated in its on little way by all of you.

Thank you all, those I know and may not yet know, for being part of this amazing world. 

Keep being the amazing bronies you all are. Thank you all. 

 

Please share this around. I really do hope this can touch others who have felt this way, in the same way my story began. And to let everyone enjoy what is here. 

Edited December 3, 2015 by skysweep

[Guest]

Bloody yanks you said it was a LITTLE surprise. A laggy iPhone which can't handle the forums's interface doesn't do this justice XD

 

Damnit sky I gotta be at the gym by 8 tomorrow and eat breakfast an hour before that

 

I remember when I met you for the first time, on the poniarcade mine craft server. If I ain't randomly said that I was from Singapore, we would never have met XD

 

I hardly used the forums before I met you. I still didn't after.

 

But then I discovered the role play forums. Yeaahhhh....

 

Without the incentive to use the forums I would never have met nox ( free carry in CSGO, but damn you sucked last game ) and melke, neither would I have attempted to draw.

 

I would make a longer thank you/ your welcome but it's 12.40 am in the morning so NITE NITE

Edited December 2, 2015 by Guest

[skysweep 541]

Bloody yanks you said it was a LITTLE surprise. A laggy iPhone which can't handle the forums's interface doesn't do this justice XD

 

Damnit sky I gotta be at the gym by 8 tomorrow and eat breakfast an hour before that

 

I remember when I met you for the first time, on the poniarcade mine craft server. If I ain't randomly said that I was from Singapore, we would never have met XD

 

I hardly used the forums before I met you. I still didn't after.

 

But then I discovered the role play forums. Yeaahhhh....

 

Without the incentive to use the forums I would never have met nox ( free carry in CSGO, but damn you sucked last game ) and melke, neither would I have attempted to draw.

 

I would make a longer thank you/ your welcome but it's 12.40 am in the morning so NITE NITE

Thats ok Enzo. Its great to see that.

[NOX33 184]

nox ( free carry in CSGO, but damn you sucked last game )

Hahaha screw you XD XD

 

 

 

 

I wonder how we met actually, it just like came and say hey then boom we're friends now. Same here I THOUGHT YOU SAID IT WAS A SMALL SURPRISE XD. I'm using my spare Iphone5 and its laggy hahhah. Its great knowing you and also being in the same group chat makes us more closer. I am curently in a rush because I kinda woke up late but if I could I would write longer thank you for the surprise thing. And keep drawing man, your drawings are great and boy I cant even color my sketches.

 

And actually finding out this forums was the best thing in my life too. Despite the daily isolation and stress its good to just come back and relax here. Enzo no!! Just becsuse I malay doesnt mean this is a lepak corner for me ah XD. So yeah this is the least I could write becsuse my class starts 8mins from now

[Lunar Echo 10,335]

It's good to see the community has had such a profound affect on your life. I feel the same way, the only true people that have shown they love and care for others were on this forum. When I have no one to turn to this forum always provided aid and healing. I am very thankful I found this site and these wonderful people who inhabbit it. I only hope I am as much help back as people have shown to me. Loved every bit of your Thread, it's a wonderful thing to read, thank you.

[Princess_Bellalatanya 1,053]

before ji had mlp

i had ninjago

but when mlp entered my heart

i knew iwas gonna love it for ever

i loved everypony in the show

my cousin likes it

MY LITTLE PONY TNK U  SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHH

AWESOME SEASONS,QUALITY ENTERTAINMENT
TNK U MY LITTLE PONY FORUMS

WE ARE LIKE FAMILY ON THIS FORUM

 MLP SEASON 5

[MarionEtte136 79]

@@Lunar Echo,

As always, it's a pleasure talking to you. Just don't go pulling that stunt again, or I'll have to find you, and bonk your head!  

[Guest]

Lol nox, what a coincidence, I typed it my spare iPhone 5 too

[Kivil 1,721]

Stuff like this reminds me that there are other bronies other people who came and went though this fandom rougher than I am or will. I have one thing to say back to you all.. Thank you... Without all of you here I probably won't be here either!

[MarionEtte136 79]

Anything for the Changeling race! *Salutes* ALL HAIL THE QUEEN!

[Yellow Diamond 7,574]

The subject of this topic has little potential to spark discussion between many members and, as such, would be better suited to a status update or a blog. When creating a thread, please remember that the goal is to start a conversation with room for many people to chime in and give their own viewpoints on, and that sharing events of an anecdotal nature would be better done elsewhere.

 

Having said this, thank you for sharing your personal story, skysweep. It's always nice to see the brony fandom and the positive spirit of MLP doing things that inspire.