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440499

Hey Caps!

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440500

Sup?

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

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[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

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[DasCapschen 7,766]

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[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

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[DasCapschen 7,766]

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[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

440507

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[SparklingSquirrels 21,341]

440509

So quiet

Doing anything fun today? c:

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440510

Not really. You?

[SparklingSquirrels 21,341]

440511

Nah, nothing special. 

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440512

Okay, we are having a bbq

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

440513

Just prepped meat for tomorrow night's BBQ.

After 1kg of salmon and 2kg of steak prep ...I always want to say balls to our guests and have it all to myself

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

440514

Hiya.

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440515

Hi Base, how are you doing?

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

440516

Heya Caps, mostly good, having a weird emotional crisis though. How about you?

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440517

Oh that's not nice :/

I'm doing pretty good

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

440518

Nice to hear you're doing good.

 Yeah, it kinda sucks. I just came to a weird realization this morning, and it's made me feel sort of uncomfortable, because I feel like I know something about myself but I've said something else in the past, and I also kind of feel like people don't really believe or trust me on something.

[DasCapschen 7,766]

440519

Don't feel bad because you said something that is no longer true. People change. 

And why would people not believe or trust you? Have you disappointed them so often? Because if not, then there is no reason to think that. 

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

440520

In this case, the issue doesn't really have to do with any kind of disappointing people and more just to do with how I feel, and people not being willing to believe me about the way I feel and trying to tell me something else.

 And now I feel like I might have realized those people might have been at least partially correct, but honestly that just makes me feel even more disrespected in a weird way. It's like...sure, maybe they ended up being sort of right, but I believe what I said when I said it, why couldn't they trust me on what I said? If anyone knows how I feel it's me, and even I end up being wrong, or if they're really good at guessing or seeing certain signs, that doesn't mean they're 100% accurate or know me better than myself.

It also makes me super anxious to admit they were at least partially right, because I feel like they'll take that and run with it, and assume they weren't just partially right, but fully right and they know me better than I do, and that kind of makes me feel uncomfortable.

[SparklingSquirrels 21,341]

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[BastementSparkle 20,326]

440522

Heya Swirl.

[Dawnchaser 🌄 8,088]

440523

Hi Base

Hi Swirls

Edited August 3, 2018 by Dawnchaser