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[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.416

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338417

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.418

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338419

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.420

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338421

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.442

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338443

[lomk 20,663]

338xxx

 

I live to disappoint

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.425

 

I live to dissapoint and getting dissapointed *Shrugs*

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

338426

 

I live to Pony.

 

 Hi Woona.

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338.427

 

I live to fck everything up :c

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.428

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338429

[lomk 20,663]

338xxx

 

This is one of those times where I'm being serious.

 

I'm sorry, ma, that I can't be fucking perfect in every way and that I'm a piece of shit excuse for a human being because I'm not very good at managing things. I'm sorry that I'm a fucking disappointment. Don't worry. I'll find ways to let you down daily til the day one of us dies.

 

At least, that's what I want to tell her.

While I'll admit I'm at fault because, no, organization is not my strong suit, she just doesn't understand how little self worth I have and that every time I screw up, what little I have is destroyed.

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

338431

 

*Hugs Woona* Honestly, it sounds like your mom is the one being a disappointment right now.

[lomk 20,663]

338xxx

 

She wants the best for me, but I can't be everything she thinks I can be.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.433

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338.434

 

:c
*hugs Woonbear*

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.435

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338436

[lomk 20,663]

338xxx

 

She doesn't understand what it's like to be depressed. She doesn't understand what it's like to wake up every morning not liking who you are. She can't comprehend hanging on to the things that hurt you because you believe wholeheartedly that you deserve to feel that way.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,462]

338.438

[DasCapschen 7,766]

338.439

[lomk 20,663]

338xxx

 

Sorry. I don't mean to be like this. I'm not usually like this. I just don't do well with confrontations.