Not much can really be said here. When the people you care about diss you, only time and an apology from them can cure it.

Until then...  I send my condolences.

I'm really sorry to hear that Kyoshi. That's really heartbreaking to be alone on such a holiday. I hope that when you're a little older, you have a family of your own, and then you make your own and new Thanksgiving traditions. It may be a dark time now, but at the end of every tunnel is a light.

Take care buddy. Know that everyone at MLP Forums is thankful for you.

i'm sorry to hear that your turkey day was crappy

It takes two to tango, similarly its partially your responsibility if you want a relationship with them. If. You are not obligated to help them, you are not obligated to spend time with them, etc. Paying for them if they wouldn't do so for you is not good. Look up stuff like this http://www.wikihow.com/Persuade-People-with-Subconscious-TechniquesBecause part of your focus seems obligation and expectation related, so either it was how you were raised, or how someone persuaded you. Also not to be rude or w/e, but when people use the term beta male, that is a stereotype and all, but its based on truth. Like the above link says try not to use sentences with 'um' and such. It shows more confidence. (here is a study about confidence http://www.livescience.com/8392-superstitions-bring-real-luck-study-reveals.html https://www.nap.edu/read/2303/chapter/13 )

Also if you are stuck being the helper you may end up a doormat, its good to let them know you aren't just a helping robot through incidental operant conditioning. Also be aware of the conditioning others give you and you give them. It requires attention though so would be more difficult the more tired you are, but to reinforce the consistency of it its ok to ponder about it when tired too, shouldn't stop it early when it comes to mind.

Also if you are the type to vocalize inconsistently, too much, or not enough consider that you may need to work on your expressiveness, and thats tied to confidence also anyways.

Break a leg.

Sorry the links bugged up, it does that here sometimes.

https://www.nap.edu/read/2303/chapter/13

http://www.livescience.com/8392-superstitions-bring-real-luck-study-reveals.html 

It takes two to tango, similarly its partially your responsibility if you want a relationship with them. If. You are not obligated to help them, you are not obligated to spend time with them, etc. Paying for them if they wouldn't do so for you is not good. Look up stuff like this http://www.wikihow.com/Persuade-People-with-Subconscious-TechniquesBecause part of your focus seems obligation and expectation related, so either it was how you were raised, or how someone persuaded you. Also not to be rude or w/e, but when people use the term beta male, that is a stereotype and all, but its based on truth. Like the above link says try not to use sentences with 'um' and such. It shows more confidence. (here is a study about confidence http://www.livescience.com/8392-superstitions-bring-real-luck-study-reveals.html https://www.nap.edu/read/2303/chapter/13 )

 

Also if you are stuck being the helper you may end up a doormat, its good to let them know you aren't just a helping robot through incidental operant conditioning. Also be aware of the conditioning others give you and you give them. It requires attention though so would be more difficult the more tired you are, but to reinforce the consistency of it its ok to ponder about it when tired too, shouldn't stop it early when it comes to mind.

 

Also if you are the type to vocalize inconsistently, too much, or not enough consider that you may need to work on your expressiveness, and thats tied to confidence also anyways.

 

Break a leg.

Yes, because I am supposed to work on all of this shit so my family will fucking ask me if I want to go somewhere with them. Thanks.

As a fellow depressive, I can attest to the fact that sometimes people leave you alone because they think you want to be left alone, and that talking to you or asking if you want to do something will only upset you.  You should speak up and make sure they know that want to do something with them next time.