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    "Help Me"

    By Heretick-Tock,

    How many times have you felt alone, left out or left behind, forgotten or betrayed? If you're human like the rest of us, probably more than once.
    Growing up I didn't really have any friends, and no one really paid attention to me or to anything I did. I was an outcast among my peers and mostly the guy who got made fun of by everyone for being different. I wasn't different in a bad way, but I didn't always have the best clothing or understand the latest trends.
    Family and friends believed I was autistic, thinking I wasn't able to communicate with others like everyone else. That wasn't the case, it was more that I was just excluded from everything.
     
    In middle school the same thing happened, even though I was more in touch with what all the kids were interested in.
    However, it was in that time where my first interest in magick began. Granted, I didn't understand it like I do now; and I thought spells and rituals were an external force rather than an internal one. I later found this out when my magick wasn't working and most Wiccan groups didn't accept me since I "wasn't like them".
     
    I was all alone.
    I screamed "Help me", hoping some deity would come down and take away all my pain that had only accumulated time and time again when I was pushed to the side to make room for someone else.
    The feeling of being used is the worst feeling of all, as far as I'm concerned. Because of my many failures in friendships, I learned pretty quickly that a whole lot of people don't understand how to appreciate all you do for them.
     
    I would buy friends, friendships and even people to hang out with by offering to take them out to dinner or to an event. I'd do anything in order to make sure I wasn't alone.
    And when people didn't appreciate what I did for them, I got furious. They only wanted to be with me since I had money - and I didn't have much, either.
    However, another lesson was soon learned: people who are only going to be with you because you have money are most likely not worth your time or energy. They're energy vampires - people who feed off of your generousity - and when your patience runs out, so do they.
    Since I was (and am) a serious hot head, they tried to block contact with me in every way possible but that didn't stop me from reminding them what they did to me. I was like a cancer that refused to die, making sure that they "get what they deserve".
     
    I would later find out that they would get what they deserve by being driven into a life which none of them wanted. Unplanned pregancy, being kicked out of their home, and financial struggles were all events that devistated the lives of those who took advantage of me.
    The worst part was I still had untouched, pent up supplies of anger inside of myself which felt so... unsatisfied. I wanted to see their lives crumble with my own eyes, to make them understand that everything they did to me and how I felt when I gave all I had to no prevail.
     
    Eventually I gave up on my conquest and realized that my struggles were not bringing about fruit. I wanted only one thing: to be loved and I wasn't finding it.
    I wanted to be accepted after so many years of what I thought was undeserved suffering for something I had no control over.
  5. Heretick-Tock
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHhmhn-NIhU&feature=youtu.be
     
    Sorry about me goofing up at times, this one was done via direct upload.
     
     
    I'd also recommend getting a notebook and writing down all the predictions you've ended up recieving. After a year of doing so go back and read which ones "speak" most clearly to you, look for repetition and find what aspects of yourself you've changed in order to change the things happening in your life.
  6. Heretick-Tock
    Hey all, I'm doing free tarot readings for everyone.
     
    Just leave your question and I'll get back to you as soon as possible. If you're more comfortable leaving me a PM instead of posting on this entry, feel free to do so.
  7. Heretick-Tock
    Do you like helping others? Most people probably do.
     
    However, a lot of us help not out of concern but for recognition. We want to be rewarded for doing good deeds for others, and if a reward does not come we feel let down, stabbed in the back, and worthless.
     
    Ask yourself today: Are you helping with a servant's heart or with an agenda?
  8. Heretick-Tock
    What is God?
     
    Christians say that God is a man up in the clouds who watches over us.
    Hindus say God is many gods, making up the universe.
    Atheists say God does not exist.
     
    The catch? All of them are right.
    God is inside you, around you and through you. God is not different from you, nor is God judging you for what you've done. Like the Bible says, "God is love."
  10. Heretick-Tock
    As I place my palm across my face I can't help but wish this entry wasn't so hard to write. Because, quite frankly, Discordian magicians are some of the most "crazy" people in the occult.
     
    I hate to come off as a person who's judgmental and I really don't want to be, but my dear Goddess, Eris, happens to be quite the handful, especially to anyone who practices Qaballistic magick which realize heavily upon balance.
     
    My dear Eris, as seductive and tempting as you are, you really need to realize that you're nothing besides a reflection of Qliphoth.
    Destruction DOES NOT exist in the higher dimensions, so thus you cannot exist anywhere besides (maybe) Malkuth.
     
     
    Okay, okay, I'll get to good part.
     
    Eris is a Goddess of complete disorder; and she happens to enjoy exciting both guys and girls alike in order to bring imbalance to the ten Sephiroth. And to invoke her seems to bring with it quite a bit of maddness, which is why I don't ever recommend doing it (unless you possibly want to die).
     
    This is why I encourage everyone to avoid chaos magick at all costs, since it's only going to hurt YOU in the end.
     
    Trust me, even as I write this I can feel a bit of "naughtiness" creep up my spine. Yikes.
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    Opiates and alcohol aren't something you kids want to deal with.
     
     
    Don't do drugs or drink excessively, guys. Now I have an eternal twitch in my right eye that won't quit.
     
    The worst thing is that I'm doing well and school and have absolutely no other reason to quit than for my own health.
     
     
     
     
    Don't worry, I'll learn one day.
  13. Heretick-Tock
    Recently I decided to break down and purchase a deck that I've had my eye on for about a year now: The Hermetic Tarot. It's the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn's pride and joy (aside from all the authors they pumped out over the years) and still remains a favorite among readers and practitioners alike.
     
    Though there have been some other decks I was looking at, and ALMOST purchased if I didn't stop myself beforehand.
    Whenever you're purchasing a tarot deck, get something that resonates with you and that you'll be able to connect with. Make sure you'll be able to see yourself using it in the distant future, or until it tells you it wants to be passed on.
     
    So here are the rules:
    1. Don't fall into that whole "you need to be gifted your first deck." That's New Age bullshit.
     
    2. Unless you want to study Qabalah for about a year, I'd really suggest you begin with something self explanatory. Divination cards are great for this reason, since there's almost zero Qabalistic influence over the cards in any way.
     
    3. Christian/Islamic/Judaic tarot sets are expensive as all hell and incredibly rare. Master Tarot is an example of this.
     
    4. GET A DECK THAT MIRRORS YOUR OWN PATH. Do not just buy any deck that "looks pretty". Though it's not a necessity to purchase a deck that aligns with your belief system or method of practice, it's easy to become bored of a deck you can't relate to. For example, don't purchase the Gothic Tarot of Vampires deck if you're going to be practicing Islamic mysticism, since matching up definitions with cards can become confusing and more work than it is worth.
     
    5. Get something you can learn the definitions of fairly quickly and then progress from there. The Mystic Faerie Tarot is great for this exact reason (if you're just starting out and have no idea what system works best for you, or you're looking to develop your own). In all reality, this is probably one of the best decks out there right now for anyone, anywhere since it doesn't hold ground in anything specific.
     
    6. Once you get your deck and things start "being read" for you or your friends/family, avoid getting freaked out. Just go with the flow.
     
    7. There are free tarot decks out there, and the best one is undoubtedly the Discordian Tarot.
     
    8. Don't do readings to just do readings, do it to actually solve a problem or help someone. Wasting energy on "wowing" someone will only result in repressing the problem. Get done what needs to be done.
     
    9. Tarot is meditation, not divination. Divination is divination.
     
    10. Don't ask "yes" or "no" questions. There are no such questions in the Universe. There are only "maybe" questions.
  14. Heretick-Tock
    http://www.sacred-texts.com/eso/cdg/
     
     
    What are "elementals", you ask?
     
    Think of it like this: elementals are the spirits of nature and all that jazz. Faeries, gnomes, etc...
    Basically, the stuff you don't see with your physical eyes. They exist in the spirit would, exclusively.
     
    But here's the kicker: Fathers of the Early Church actually debated with them over things like Jesus and the Virgin Birth.
    That means:

    Christians were much more mystical at one point.
    Christians successfully argued with faeries and nymphs.

    Fuck all you know about Christianity today; these guys were the big leagues. They took zero shit from anyone, not even from the spirits of the forest.
     
    "Haha, you think your goddess created this earth, gnome? Yeah well fuck you, you little assclown. Jesus is going to come back and kick your midget ass any day now!"
     
    God, you know how cool it would have been to be a Christian back then?
     
    "Where were you today?"
    "Oh, debating with a dragon about if he's the spawn of Satan or not."
     
    "How'd it go?"
     
    "I told him that if he doesn't believe what I say, he can suck my cock since I'm a martyr and not afraid of his 'fire breathing' skills."
     
    "How did he respond?"
    "He curled up and cried, since I hurt his feelings. He probably went off and got drunk like all these heathen losers around here do."
     
    "Wow, h4rdc0r3, Fr."
     
     
    Yeah, I wouldn't want to start shit around these guys either. Man, they probably had the faith of a lion merged with the balls of a pit bull.
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    Six Dollar Shirts

    By Heretick-Tock,

    http://www.6dollarshirts.com/home.php
     
    All these shirts are complete trash. However, if you get drunk and buy one you'll feel like the smartest shopper alive.
     
    Of course, it would be all for nothing if you don't buy the worst of all the shirts. Make sure you get THAT shirt, the one no one else wants. That way, you're the shopper that can spot "hidden" deals, the deals that go completely unnoticed even though they're priced the same as all the others.
  25. Heretick-Tock
    We have Doom Kitty, right? So Doom Kitty is a pure black cat wearing nothing else than a collar. You see where I'm going with this, don't you?
     
    Doom Kitty has "Doom" in the name. Thus, Doom Kitty must be related to Doom Guy.
    Where is Doom Kitty's helmet? Where is Doom Kitty's body armor?
    There are obviously demons around so that's taken care of, but that doesn't make up for everything else.
     
    At least we understand the chronological order of Doom, now.
     
    Doom -> Doom 2 -> Ultimate Doom -> Doom 64 -> Doom 3 (and expansions) -> Doom Kitty
     
    We found SOME comfort in this tale of lies.
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