Aerodynas

Purpy, if I caused any confusion in my own depressions, I am sorry. I was being selfish and that's just because of my own scars and sadness. Until today, I found restrictions and felt not good enough or simply lacking the confidence to push myself forward. Honestly...I lost sight of the true horizon that awaited me. I see you, rising over the hills. You are my sunshine: the light that gives me hope and establishes a smile on my face. I told you since day one that I won't give up and now, I know for certain....unless you wish to leave me. As you once told me, "I don't give a fuck about your past." It's brutally honest and true but it shows something even brighter. Funny enough, I don't really care about anything except the person I make a point to see and speak with on the other side of the computer screen. I'm fighting hard now my dear, giving it all I've got now because I will be able to provide for you and see you one day. I give it all to you...I will wait...I promise. It's in the song that I have so desperately desired to sing with you one day: I can't win without you by my side. I said I've chosen you and dammit I want you. I want you more than anything...please, don't push me away now. I love you. Would you like me to sing to you? Do you need money? I can draw for you, write to you, send you gifts. Please, tell me what I have to do to win your heart because your heart is worth fighting for. If you think what I want is a "good girl" then you obviously don't know me. What I want is you. You are who you are. I will never find someone like my PP...come to me. Talk to me. Don't be afraid. I will hold on...just hold on with me...I love you...

Wouldn't think differently of you for a second bud Your sexual preference is your own

Heil!

@@PurplePony,

Meh, I'd say I'm the lucky one really don't tell her I said that 

@@Serious Sam,

Of course and thanks my good sir I hope it works too with all my being  

@@Serious Sam,

She's the love of my life  

@@Wayzer,

Thanks Wayo  

And sorry about the drama. I know how much you hate it.

Hmm...perhaps I should look at your blogs more often. It took almost 15 days for me to actually come across this. Quaint haha

I suppose indeed you are correct about being completely honest with people in concerns of the heart...and, I guess it's my turn...And no, I don't give a damn that others can see this because I take absolute pride in knowing you and having this bond with you no matter how real or fake it may seem in your book.

In my most honest approach if you don't care for a slight read:

Since the day I was introduced to you by our friend who still searches for the Ctrl key, I thought you were an awfully peculiar specimen of a woman. The first thought that passed through my mind was 'great, another girl who appears to be awesome online but is probably overweight, emo, and Chinese for all I know.' For quite a while, my attraction for you developed. I didn't think about having a connection with you for possibly the first week. I know that doesn't seem like much be we talk...a lot...lol

Ever since that day you said that you wished someone would fight for you, I honestly don't know why I took up the reins...Maybe it was as Daniel said: I did it for hope. If that's the case then I know you probably won't want much to do with me. Desperation isn't exactly the best thing to even get close to starting a relationship on. I never did have much growing up and I've been through a literal hell...however, I moved on. I pushed past my own troubles and saw you. Finally, I had a rope to grasp hold of that things would indeed get better in my life.

Personally, I doubt I'm much better than any of the others that "chase" you. Feels good to have such an enormous selection doesn't it? Yeah, I never had anything like that. It was always as though if I wanted love, I would be forced to to do so unhappily for I could not love those who were so attracted to me. 

All my mind has realized is if you truly love someone and wish to pursue them, you have to fight for them (even though no one has ever really done the same for me). In the end though, I believe I was being selfish in my own regard. Even though I had little, I expected you to leave the good you had going for you: A home, family, already having a boyfriend, etc. That was wrong, even with my promises and the money to do so. As I said from day 1, I will not take you from someone you wish to be with. 

Anyways, take a minute to consider the boat that all us "chasers" are in. We're all in it for the gold: you. I'm no saying you have to really decide anything, no matter how badly all of us wish for you to commit.

The only thing we don't realize is that you have to make a life for yourself and succeed to where you have control and happiness in your life. All the same, so do we.

I'd like to say I've been giving you my all to as far as you will let me, being willing to give up everything I have no matter how little there is. 

In the realest of honesty though, not a day goes by in which I question if I am doing the right thing. My heart tells me to keep fighting and to keep going so that one day these dreams I have can be realized, but truly, reality hits the hardest.

Yes, I could pay your way down here or even me do the same to pay my way to you...but what would that solve? You love (and I mean relationship love) your current boyfriend and I have no doubt that he at least feels something towards you. I believe you are extremely undecided on which path you truly wish to pursue either than obviously making yourself self-sustainable and build yourself back up from the horrible past you went through.

Maybe it's just now that I realize what I should have done earlier instead of setting goals to ensure a possible and happy life with you in the future. 

Purple, I do indeed love with you with the most my heart can give (and I really don't give a fuck how much you've heard those words told to you because I know that they are real) and I want to fight for you like I always have but really...I think I've made my fight perfectly clear.

I think now I will not harass you about how much I love and adore you anymore. I believe it isn't necessary when you should already know how much I do. I told you I would pay your way or my own way so that we can be together and would fight for you every day of my life to the greatest of my ability.

I'm done being a chaser Purple...I don't wish to be hurt again...I'm not needy but I am real. 

If there is ever a day you will want me, I will come.

Until that day comes, as you have said, we shall remain friends as we always have been...but nothing more. 

Just know, that my love for you is real and unwavering, willing to give up everything for it to be returned.

My arms will be open for you always...till you wish to embrace them.

lol I won't

hahaha rolling around on the floor will not help you. I'll tell you late Sis

Nope not yet silly haha XD

Oh my, what is this?

 

Be nice to her Lil Sis XD I care about her so don't be too mean