DuskSong

such a great day <3

"I’m not dead yet

So watch me burn

Go on trying, lying, you’re so sure

I may be broken

But I’m not done

I’ll go on fighting, while there’s breath in my lungs

Cause I’m not dead yet

No I’m not dead yet"

~Ledger

"You know I'm suffocating,
But I blame this town,
Why do I deny,
The things that burn inside,
Down deep I'm barely breathing,
But you just see a smile,
And I don't wanna let this go"

~Paramore

"Adore" gives me a nostalgic feeling.. and longing to hold my special one close <3

mood today:

i need about ~48 hours of uninterrupted sleep.

An MCR quote that hits me hard every time:

"Get off the ledge and drop the knife
Not a victim of a victim's life
Because this ain't a room full of suicide
We're believers, I believe tonight"

just a few weeks until i get put on something for my anxiety, hopefully life will be a bit more normal for me after.

after all my years of listening to loud music, I can still hear near the highest frequencies that the human ear can pick up on. youthful resilience is a beautiful thing.

BF4 > BF1.

you can't change my mind.

"I'm confident, I know it scares ya, scares ya
Bye bye, good riddance
The rules have been rewritten
I'm better without you, and that's the truth
I'm not part of your Agenda"

~Emma Blackery

thank god for the few friends in my circle. i don't know where i'd be without them.. if anywhere at all.

"You don't have to tell me
If you ever think of me
I know you see me dancing
Wildly in the fog of your memory
You don't have to tell me
I can still believe.."

~Paramore

"Then there were three men up front
All I saw were backs of heads
And then I asked, "Am I alive and well or am I dreaming dead?"
And then one turned around to say,
"We're driving toward the morning, son
Where all your blood is washed away
And all you did will be undone.""

~Twenty One Pilots

finally getting around to watercooling my CPU. it's gonna look so fresh once it's installed.

"And right here
Right now
All the way in Battery City
The little children
Raise their open filthy palms
Like tiny daggers up to heaven
And all the juvee halls
And the Ritalin rats
Ask angels made from neon
And fucking garbage
Scream out, "What will save us?"
And the sky opened up"

~My Chemical Romance

"So fake your death
Or it's your blame
And leave the lights on
When you stay
Take off your clothes
And dream that fame
Come on and feel that shame"

~MCR

when Paramore breaks up, i will not leave my room for days.

"You want the heart
Or to be saved
But even good guys
Still get paid
So watch my back
And keep the blade
I think it got you laid

I choose defeat
I walk away
And leave this place
The same today
Some like to sleep
We like to play
Just look at all that pain"

~MCR

in a mood to sit on my roof and listen to The Black Parade for a couple hours.

haven't stopped listening to this song, it's such a powerful track, been on a loop for an hour now

after not listening to Paramore for awhile, i come back and fall in love all over again, especially with their Self Titled record. so many memories, and such a great vibe.

"i am not afraid to keep on living" -my chemical romance

"You were too good to be true
Gold plated
But what's inside you
But what's inside you
I know this whole damn city thinks it needs you
But not as much as I do
As much as I do, yeah

You're the last of a dying breed
Write our names in the wet concrete
I wonder if your therapist knows everything about me
I'm here in search of your glory
There's been a million before me
That ultra-kind of love
You never walk away from
You're just the last of the real ones"

~Fall Out Boy

this summer is going to be great. busier, but lots of opportunities! looking forward to what comes next.

if i had any motivation in life, i'd have a book and a self produced LP released by now. all in time, i guess.