DuskSong

i will be writing my first story of the month this weekend. i hope that it teaches that you must not give in to your demons, and it's worth it to fight through the pain.

i promise you, it's worth it.

-dusk.

It breaks my heart every time I read of someone committing suicide. And it hurts even worse when you know the pain that person had to be in to decide to end it, because I almost did, too. I have some stories to share this month, to bring awareness to suicide for national suicide prevention awareness month. If you're going through something, I promise you that things will get better. Each day is a battle, but you are stronger than your demons. You can always talk to me if you are struggling with depression or any other mental illness, whether that's to seek advice or just to vent.

Nat Suicide Prevention Hotline 1-800-273-8255

Stay alive.

"I'ma wash away my sins
I'ma rinse away this dirt
I forgot to make amends
To all the friends I may have hurt
I better stop and say my grace
From that I pray that I don't fall
'Cause on the way back down I may
May end up running back into them all
I never meant to use you all as my stepping stones"

~Eminem

Eminem's new album is amazing.

hahaha fuck junior year

a year ago i said i hated coffee and energy drinks, now i'm drinking both daily

i used to be always looking towards the future, now i'm trying hard to hold onto the past and it's memories

i knew exactly what i wanted, but now i feel more lost than i ever have before

i always said i would never be the type of person i've become, and now, here i stand

life sure does have ways of changing everything you had planned

because when i reflect, i stand infront of a mirror where what looks back is the opposite of who i am now.

a face where many changes have taken place beneath the surface

but the memories of this face in younger days bring jokes about who i was, although i feel so much older.

i guess some won't ever grasp the concept of change. and that's alright.

because i know i'm different, and they'll get used to it someday.

save up for a nice laptop for school and extra cirriculars or use my money on a Schecter Hellraiser...

hard decision.

"Honestly
Every day I feel a little bit stronger than I was when I was
When I was with you
Yeah it's true"

~Andrew McMahon

beware, beware, the daughter of the sea...

beware... beware....

Of me.

School was one of the things that triggered my depression to become more severe, so I hope that this year is better. 13 days left of freedom.

okay, blackcraft cult is my new favorite clothing line apart from rude jackets & jeans. loving the edgy designs.

so many albums to buy, so little money..

then again, i've been spending my paychecks on band shirts and jackets. i've gotta start saving!

my sleep schedule is so screwed up. i need to fix it soon, before school starts

got music in the works.

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memories heard in stories of song.. to be retold as faded ECHOES

can't decide on an affordable mic for my amp, nor a good audio interface. my hobbies are too expensive

my hobbies are expensive.

need to spend nearly 200 dollars to record good sounding guitar covers. rip my wallet

i'm still alive

been busy lately

"I spend my nights thinking the worst
And telling myself that everything's going to work out
I keep kicking myself in the mouth
Opening up every cut that should be a scar by now
I need the hope I always tell my friends about "

~Real Friends

Wallpaper Engine has satisfied my love for space. got a dark, revolving galaxy as a background and it's so beautiful

new guitar picks arrived today, hoping Doll Skin's praise for Jazz IIIs isn't misplaced

Spent half my paycheck on clothing due to sales lol, gotta save the rest so I can afford to fill my car up at the end of the month

had my first Monster. I love it

Decided to go back and listen to Tyler Joseph's "I Need Something To Kill Me"

I can finally say that I do not share those feelings anymore <3