This is a song that I've found especially encouraging when I'm troubled, too when coupled with the story of the hymnwriter:
I've found it also encouraging to read through the stories of martyrs and different Christians throughout the ages, who although suffering so much kept on the struggle and reflected Christ in various situations, often flying in the face of common worldly sense.
Regardless, I'll be in prayer for you, Pink Mist, along with the others who have already expressed their support for you.