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Better to take the sword by the handle, and receive the thoughts for what they're worth. Maybe all you need is to know that if you could predict something bad happening, maybe you would be the only one in such the case to have known such a happening could occur. You could use that in your favor. Guide your worries to becoming instincts rather than "what if's" - let your in-the-moment thoughts become backseat to the real you. A well guided instinct is like having two pilots...

You're the main you, but your instincts can be your co-pilot. And separating the two things is better than combining yourself and your co-pilot together. Let your subconsience be just that, and let your conscience worry not, but rather, keep driving, keep moving forward.

Yeah I feel you on that man I know how it feels to do that, it is just a part of who you are but you're amazing the way you are, don't worry in time you'll conquer this feeling I believe in you.