My whole life, but not my whole life. So I never really got better, in fact I got worse. I used to be able to draw everything I saw perfectly, but I stopped, I got rusty, and lost my skills.
They better be talking about how much of a benevolent ruler I am, or so help me.
I expect negative things.
I know I do things to make people mad, and them talking about it behind my back is fine with me. It's not like I don't know what they say, I know everything negative they could possibly say about me because I know what I do wrong that aggravates them. I recognize every fault I have. And it eats away at me everyday.
Out of all that I just hope they realize I do what I can for people if they ask. I almost never turn someone down who asks for help.