Winter Storm

Hi there. Good to see more people still showing up in this community. Do you have any OCs?

Super-stressed, kind of barely holding off bad emotions.

I just feel very lost lately. Nothing I can do to find a way forward. It just wears me down.

Thanks, I just wish I could kind of appreciate things without feeling bad about myself. Like that I'm not good enough, etc.

I can't but feel a mix of bad emotions on this day. I feel disappointed in myself mostly, like I think there must be something very broken or wrong with me. Not good enough, that sort of thing. Like I know how all of these thoughts are self-defeating, but I can't help but feel them. That's like so much of the rest of how my brain functions I feel. I'm always fighting against this sense of how I'm never good enough, etc. I don't know what I can change.

I strongly agree with you about shared interests, and I don't think it could ever work out for someone like me without such shared interests. But it feels impossible to meet anyone of the opposite gender who shares them, let alone any who are single and would actually like me. How can it not leave one feeling hopeless? The odds are awful and I'm only getting older. I only ever manage a few awkward conversations a year with such strangers in-person, and it makes me feel awful about myself. Online I hardly seem better at making conversation. I dare not suggest anything that would even approach the idea of going on a date.

I'm thinking how I wish I hadn't bitten my lip earlier when eating because now it's 1000% annoying.

How do you even get so far as to learn so much about someone else here? I swear I feel like I can barely communicate with people beyond basic interactions.

I'm trying to do swimming exercises at least once a week, preferably twice, or more in the warm months. Just want to lose weight really, I don't know if it will change anything about how I feel though.

Probably me if I made it to Equestria, though I hope not, I hope ponies would be easier to bond with and trust which is very hard with people.

I guess it comes down to I don't feel like I'm ever making any progress towards my goals. When there are chances to take to move forward, I always disappoint myself.

I feel stuck in a loop with no way out. Sometimes I can push back all the negative thoughts for a few weeks at a time, but sooner or later they all come back. I don't see anything I can do about them.

An act of kindness on that kid's part. I wonder if he will keep whatever inspired him to try to cheer some stranger up? I feel like at some point in my life I became a lot more cynical and jaded about life, but I can't pick out a moment. Does everyone reach some particular moment like that or just some of us? Is it a matter of chance or luck? Does it make me a bad person? I often try to avoid the gaze of others just because I fear they may think ill of me. All too often I get stuck fighting my own bad memories and sense of past failures. It feels like a lifelong struggle against those things so I can find some of what you say relatable though I'm sure the thoughts and reasons are different for both of us. Even when trying to do something fun these creeping feelings appear that have to be fought off and what can spark them is often out of my control. I can respect what it takes to deal with that even though I feel I am not very skilled at it myself.

Hello forum staff. I noticed this forum only has a thread in the convention section for BABScon 2023 and Everfree Northwest. It is very unfortunate that the MLP convention scene isn't as large as it once was, but there are still some cons going on. Harmonycon in Texas is a big one for example and is already scheduled for February 2025. BABScon 2025 is also going to happen early next year, although sadly they decided 2025 would be their last year. There are some smaller conventions too, like one in Maryland if I recall, and Ciderfest over in Wisconsin. Also, some overseas ones which people may want to discuss even if many of us can't hope to go to them. For me at least I think conventions are a good chance for me to actually meet people in person and maybe make friends though I have always struggled with that in my life. I think having some more threads in there for different cons would be beneficial people want to ever arrange meeting at these conventions. Thank you for considering.

My birthday is soon, I can't help but reflect on life and feel bad when I consider my age. Like I have failed in aspects of life.

Honestly, I don't know if I've felt what I would really consider "love" beyond that which I have for my pony "waifu", and she, despite my everything I wish and desire, is probably fictional even in some other universe. I don't know if I could really feel "love" to someone who doesn't share my same sort of love on pony. I have other hobbies of course, but pony is one I have sort of connection with that really isn't like the rest. Everything else is kind of "academic" if I were to describe it. But with MLP stuff there is something that speaks to much more base emotions. Of course, I feel some sense of duty and responsibility to my immediately family, but there has long been some part of me that wishes I could leave that all behind. I know in many ways my brain is all broken and confused, but I don't think that is the sort of thing that can be fixed. I can't leave it behind because that would mean giving up on any meaningful romantic relationship to me. So, in short, I guess I would pick "love" if that sort of thing could even be found on this Earth. And for me I think that would be a girl who is as invested into ponies as I am. But that seems so unlikely I can't help but to despair. I honestly don't know what to do with the remainder of my life besides look for that ideal, despite however hopeless it is. It's a real mess of a situation and only at certain times like this I feel like I can explain it to anyone. Sorry if I brought down anyone's mood with these thoughts. It's just rare that I get a sense of mental clarity where I feel I can make sense of my confused mind.

Really, most of the forums I had once been active in withered away with time, everything seems to have moved to Discord or Reddit or other places where it really isn't the same. I am part of one that discusses military/aviation projects, but I dare not speak my love of all things pony there. But the rest? Seems like it has been a long time since they were around.

I find it hard to feel good about myself. I have a lot of regrets.

I keep trying to lose weight, I am trying to do some swimming 4 times a week, but I just can't seem to make any progress.

I've never met a girl or person I've "fallen in love" with for better or worse. The closest thing I guess would be ponies. I have other hobbies and interests, some of which I am quite passionate about, but nothing is quite the same as what I feel about ponyponypony in general.