SpittyPie2005

i hope this doesn't change the way you look at me.

my mom triggered flashbacks/a panic attack from my mean girl days, but i'm ok now...almost ran into the middle of the road thou, but i stopped for i left for the door.
i just
i was awful, i dont deserve friends. she (my mom) keeps making jokes about ''haha in 2019 you were like, copying Sunset Shimmer!'', which really fuckin hurts, because for a while there, Sunset Shimmer was one of the only things keeping me alive. So thanks mom, for being a dipshit and hiding my Equestria Girls dvd...
it's not her fault thou. i never told her all of the mean things i did last year, just so i could blackmail people to hang out with me, to make fake friends....because i was lonely. and now, when my friends say i'm an amazing friend, and i smile and say ''yep!'' and thank them, when deep down i only befriended them to find out their secrets and blackmail them. i will never get over the person who i was. i feel like i'm being rewarded for being such a bitch in 2019. i got my friend group i so desperately wanted, and nobody knew half of the shit i pulled because i was the new kid, she can't do no harm!. now here i am, a year later crying about the (demi)girl i once was. am i copying Sunset Shimmer? no, i didn't expect to go through the same shit as her. am i like her? yes, yes i am. i know i can't take back the past, but i'm really trying to be a better person. and with my friends now, now that i feel an actual connection to them, hopefully one day i'll be able to leave the past behind.