Pastel Heart

And someone stole both my credit card numbers.  Where that happened I have no idea, but thanks asshole, not like my Christmas week hasn’t already been shit enough.  

Goodnight and take care

see ya on Christmas eve 

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Imagine she would figure out instead of a Christmas Ornament she also

could put/hold a Mistletoe with her mane 

https://www.deviantart.com/pirill-poveniy/art/Snowglobe-724013064

hmmmm

*Hug*

So i just had some odd thoughts as in what am i missing out on?

After losing my IRL friends i realised that they never really were my friends at all;
I was just someone who 'tagged along' because one person wanted me to be there.
Rather than lifting my spirit and accepting me for who I am, I've never been able to be myself and they continuesly made fun of me, blocked me out, and whenever I asked them what was wrong when something had happened or why we couldn't go do something together it was always just 'well.. yeahh ummm.."
They always hated my taste for music even though I grew to like it because of the one who pulled me in- thankful for that cause it keeps my head up -
But.. they never told me anything, spewed on the things i liked and never really got to know me. after 10+ years all they ever knew was that I like to draw but not what, or the things i truly liked.

I still remember one night year's eve they'd make fun of me time to time to time again till i just wanted to leave and that's also the last one i've spend with them because the year after I lost contact with everyone -- My ex manipulated me to not do stuff with them, played on my anxiety and made me lose my mind.. but now that i think about it.. they never really were my friends.
Friends would open up to eachother and would accept what the other person likes regardless of if they like it or not, not spew on it because whatever.

I never realised how blind I was to that because all I wanted was to belong.
I suppose this is the way you become after being bullied so much and getting mental issues, all you want is to belong. Regardless if they care for you or not. You turn a blind eye to all the pain and just smile.
I still remember how they spewed on pokémon cause I had a game on my NDS for it and the other did too but they were quiet when she played it and she played pokémon go with two of them who hated it.
"Childish,disgraceful, etc"

I felt i couldn't be myself around them, always hiding myself away. Crying at my room but smiling at them no matter how hard the situations were. I didn't cry at them when people in my family died, i just smiled.
This is just how blind i've been, I put up a wall for them. To not see any emotions other than a smile and a laugh, no matter how fake that was.

Now after this time of no longer being friends I've learned that there's one person who understood me and stood by me and the odd thing is that this is a person from Deviantart. Someone who didn't judge me for my looks, personality or the things I liked.
They have always told me "I just want you happy."  I've never forgotten that, It was about then that realization hit me, this is what friends are meant to be like. Loving you regardless of what you like or do. Not tell you off for anything, make you feel bad for who you are and what you like. Making you feel disgusted with yourself.
To this day that person still supports me, my art, anything i like. He doesn't judge what i like instead he just supports it and tries to let me talk about it to my hearts content.
The only person i fully open up to and who knows me as I am, he hasn't dealt with my icky personality though because with him I don't get those harmful feelings where I endanger myself or others.. Just calm.
It's odd right?

hey friends how is today going for you? <3

wow I just got a little sad from some text cause it reminds me of my bestfriend lol ; _ ; aah
"even if the whole world turns on you, I will always be by your side.
I won't let anybody hurt you" *Sob*  haha that sounds so like him, he's been by my side through the hell and never once let things cloud his judgement, always staying by my side. I never know what I did to deserve a friend like that, who supports me regardless and tries everything to make me a better person- always trying to keep me company on the days I'm at my worst.

Remember that time Mario said you'll go to hell if you do drugs?

TBH, I like this version of Jumpin' Jack Flash more than the Stones original.

Appetite for Destruction is the best "sleaze" rock album. fight me.

How's everyone? <3

 

* Hugging Frequencies are open *

you awesome ponies

This has been a pretty swaggy day. 

No AJ, I won't guide your sleigh tonight

Have an awesome day...or night! 

Goodnight everyone I'm feeling beter now  

i hope @TomDaBombMLP had a great birthday today 

The shipping continues

Well, I’ve stocked up on some beer, hehe.

Well, I’ve stocked up on some beer, hehe.

good evening everyone 

i'm in the bus right now and there is a guy blasting music and he chose to sit next to me

o god my left ear hurts

here is a pic that i like

Moonday :>

It's Luna's day :3

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*huggles all of you

Here comes the first question of the week:

In 1923, the Nazis attempted a coup d'état to take control of the German government. They were confronted by the police, who killed 16 of them and wounded Hitler before arresting him for treason. 

Anyway, what was the name of this failed rebellion?

A. Wermacht Rebellion 

B. Munich Putsch

C. Weimar Invasion

D. The Two-Day Battle for Berlin

Goodnight everyone 

I had a amazing day i hope tomorow will feel just as good

Me and my english friend be like

Yes we are both British citizens, why do you ask?

Me and my english friend be like

Yes we are both British citizens, why do you ask?

I think I'm done with the first draft of the story. It's about AJ and Apple Bloom talking about Diamond Tiara on Hearth's Warming. 

Any title ideas? I'm drawing a blank.