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Normally I don't talk about such things...feelings...it's easier for me to be more happy and carefree around others. But with the amazing people I have around here and my friends, maybe... I dunno...
I feel like going in circles with my own thoughts and feelings since some years now.
I'm a strong believer of being truly yourself is the only right way to live. In my case, it led to a life where I can barely relate to anything. What most people say in real life doesn't even make sense to me. And the same is true when it comes to most media; movies, video games etc. But this place is different. And FiM.
We all don't even need to be the same, it doesn't matter, we all simply get along. I guess that's one reason why I'm less stoic and talk more. 
I never wanted to be alone, but I felt like I didn't have another choice. Being myself + not being alone hardly goes well together.
My biggest dream was always to be together with people I like and to work together on something bigger. I even dreamed about creating something that is very similar to FiM, I mean before I ever saw the show and knew what it was about. It's a funny coincidence.
But something in such a scale requires many people and a company, which would lead to even more problems and struggles in itself. FiM is the only fictional world I can truly relate to, it's just so similar to my one of my own ideas I had! I view it as a wonder that it exists in the first place. Whenever I play video games or watch other shows, there are always things that frustrate me, things, that I would have done in a different way. A little example would be the Pokémon games. The main games always start with a plant, water and fire starter. It's always the same and boring (for me). The evil group always has "Team" in front of their names and a predictable story. You can always recognize the evil leader in these games beforehand. I love the games for the nice music and colorful graphics. <3 But I also always see the potential and the depth it could have had otherwise. A game like Ocarina of Time is so easy, it makes collecting heart pieces not very rewarding. There is a lot I would just do differently, If I had control over it. I enjoy discovering new worlds, new creatures. Real life movies are about typical things, naturally. It doesn't excite me, personally.
I guess I'm just sad. I would love to be a creator, to go out there and offer the world more new and unique experiences, but these are things that are not liked nor wanted. The same way I can't relate to our world for the most part, the same way people can't relate to me and my stuff. And this weighs heavily on me ever since I started to work on creative stuff almost 4 1/2 years ago. Ever since, I'm so full of ideas, I enjoy nothing more! I see things that don't exist yet, I see so much potential in everything. But it also shows me how lonely I am with everything. I can't make stuff that has value to others. I'm too different. I even see flaws in some german laws. Or even in the way grammar works here. At least I can change the latter to something that is better in my opinion.
It seems I can only make things better for myself, not others.
I guess I'm myself...I'm just lonely with it. At least in this regard, when it comes to creative topics, not counting the lovely time we have here together.
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I still try my best to learn to live with this. I hate being sad and depressed..png.94e4307ee88938c514736d69deea6a2b.png)
I'm sorry...
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Your interest in FiM is proof that there are people like-minded to you. They have similar values and interests to you, just like we do here, so you’re not alone
You know what? Forget all the social norms and the people who don’t like what you create! Create anyways! The only way to succeed with creativity is to work on it, polish it up, then take the risk of sending the work out into the public. I’m confident someone out there will like your work, even if the audience is smaller than you expected. Smaller audiences are great though, they are more open for discussion. Big audiences are way too concerned about what they want to see.
No matter what audience you get though, I highly encourage you to create, even if your work becomes something just for you at the end. Creativity is all about the artist’s passion and ideas, outside people don’t matter unless they have helpful criticism to provide.
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@DivineFive1000
Thank you. You are at least just awesome! 
@Rikifive
You have good points.
Your latest game you work on, SH, looks amazing. I always loved good GBA games and your game just gives me the right vibes. <3 Even the sound effects sound pleasing, which is more rare in my experience. I can clearly see that you are a perfectionist. Your craft definitely deserves more credit.
@Rainbowshine295
You definitely don't sound immature at all. I always enjoy to read what you have to say..png ":)")
Thank you so much!
@ExplosionMare
Small, honest and genuine circles are worth the most... Hm... We don't need more. This forum still feels like a dream to me. All the kindness I receive is overwhelming. Thank you! I'm gonna be myself from now own, follow my passion and heart no matter what!! 
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You're not alone, my friend. You never are.
Instead of creating things for others, why not create for yourself? You don't need validation from others to create. If you have ideas or vision, express them. Let them be something. If you die with these ideas, it'll be as if these ideas never existed. Many believe it's better to try something than to not try at all.
But whatever you decide to do, just know that you have my support, my friend.
