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That Mental Health Awareness thread is a good idea, there's a lot I could say about my mental and even spiritual state, but knowing myself I'm sure I would end up writing a huge text, regardless of trying to write it in short. So i prefer to let the bunch of words about my person's problems for my profile's posts only, plus, I don't think this a good tjme for me to think much about it, I'm actually thinking that I need some distraction, there's already something I'm feeling strongly guilty for. But good that people are trying to talk about their problems there and connect with each other. ~☆
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Hope you are doing well man, please take your time for you mental health, we don't know each other but I do know that there are people who really care about you here, so I wish you the best, I believe your friends wish the same. Good luck and have a good rest.
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This game looks beautiful, Arc System Works always delivering something astonishing for the eyes, I really liked the japanese redesign for the characters, gives a strong anime face to them while still making them very recognizable and faithful to the comics / original designs. At best, I think only Iron Man really didn't receive the same treatment, I think he looks weird, not in a bad way because I think his design looks very well made, i liked it, but it also just seems too distant from the original one, looks more like something that came out straight from Kamen Rider or some other tokusatsu, but nothing like Iron Man (take this redesign and replace the yellow and red with other colors, you'll get what I mean), I think they really exaggerated in his one, maybe it's the purpose, but with the other characters being more comic accurate the discrepancy is big.
But everything looks really good, I'm curious to see more characters in the future. ~☆
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Hi, I would just like to explain myself about someone who interacted with me here in the forum a while ago. There was this user called "Starforce", he was the first person who really tried to approach me here and become my "friend", we interacted with each other during a part of 2024. I did notice some weird behavior coming from him, but nothing that really made me think that there was something wrong going on, in overall, he acted in a way that made me think he was a good person, and I even mentioned his name in my final post from 2024 along with some other users, saying he was the first friend I made here.
At the time of course, I was completely unaware about absolutely anything he made, I had no idea about what he did and I always thought he was a normal who wasn't really feeling connected with the site and its people, and had some problems with Staff, but I didn't imagine anything too serious and I decided to not ask anything due to my respect with other's privacy.
Recently, I received the information and learned about the many atrocities this user made in the past and the serious conflicts he caused here and harm to other users. A lot of very ugly things that he managed to hide completely from me.
So, what I have to say is, my experience with him at least wasn't harmful to me, likely because I didn't show any interest about the subjects he tried to push into me. There was something odd that happened but the evidence for it is lost. And I did notice now his manipulative behavior based on reports and some stuff I remember he said for me. But fortunately I wasn't affected negatively by him. But I'm aware there are many people who suffered because of him. If you were a victim of one of his actions and is reading this, I'm sorry, I hope you're doing well and managed to forget it, I think he's someone who deserves to be forgotten. So I won't be talking about him or mentioning his name ever again, unless it's necessary.
And now I hope someone like him or even himself never show up here again.
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Hi guys, sorry for the whole month of absence again, couldn't stay true to my own words again, my bad, these are confusing and dark times for my mind and spirit. But I at least had the company of an angelic soul that helped me a lot by showing me a strong light ~☆
Anyway, I think now I'm really back definitely, there are things I still need to fix, my profile for now is under renovation, but I think I can already go back to interacting here again early, I'll at least try, missed this place, also, happy late birthday for those I couldn't celebrate in the right day ~☆
(And the day I return, I run out of water, so funny -.-)
Edit: also, yes I changed my name, it's "StaryStory" only now, it's the way I prefer, you can still call me by my previous (real) name if you want, but that name is now just past for me, my new name represents this current era of mine, thank you ~☆
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Hi guys, sorry for the days of absence, again, I was supposed to return yesterday but I couldn't
💦 (and no, it wasn’t because of GTA 6, though yeah maybe I spent some time because of ir ~R☆)
I had to be absent because of a few things, but especially, because I'm being commissioned for multiple art works and it has been taking a lot of my time, I'm very focused on making them and they're very important for the customer.
So I just came to explain it, but I'll try to spend some time here when I can. Also, I need to advise that I'm accepting friend requests again, yeah just a few weeks ago I decided to remove everyone and I gave my reasons, but everyone change up their minds, I have a few reasons why I decided to accept friend requests again, but they don't really matter
. So, if you want to send me a friend request, feel free to do it! If not, it's okay too
Anyway, I hope everyone's doing good and happy birthday to those I'm late for! ~☆
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April 2022.
Such a complicated date for me to remember. Two individuals, trying to take me down, for not accepting my criticism. One a disappointed fan, the other, someone truly evil, at least it was what I felt. It was so fast, I was so desperate, I couldn't defend myself because of the shock. But for me, this wasn't even the worst part. There was a girl, a very special and good girl who tried to protect and defend me. She took care of me, got very close to me, I spent days and days with her, building a friendship that for me felt completely different when compared to any other I had. She became very special to me.
Unfortunately, there was so much negativity and people attacking me and others, it has corrupted my mind and consumed me with distrust. This led to our friendship facing a sad ending, where I thought that she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Imagine you making everything for that person, taking care of it, giving it priority, becoming best friends with it, only for that person in the end not value your friendship as they should.
I still regret it to this day, she dedicated so much of herself just for me. I just can't even imagine how she felt after that. It's something I just can't forgive myself for doing.
A girl from this forum tried to be my friend and getting close to me. It was all going fine, but when I started telling her about this past, she wanted to get even closer to me, to the point where she was just reminding me of this old friend of mine.
Unfortunately, I had to stop her. I couldn't allow it, I don't know if her desire was truly to become my best friend just like that girl once was, but this was reliving a traumatic experience for me.
I'm just not strong enough to go through it again. I know it's a different context, time and place now, there aren't people attacking me anymore but only lovable people here, my mind isn't in despair. But still. I can't let it happen.
I had to unfortunately "refuse" her friendship. It was too fast, and the trauma is just too big and strong for me. If this disappointed her, I'm really sorry for her, but I'm just hopeless, and I believe that I just don't want to risk it anymore, and I am destined to live with this fear and the pain of this sin that I committed until the arrival of my eternal sleep. Maybe, even after it.
Sorry if this made you sad, but I just thought I had to share one of the reasons why I feel so empthy, pessimistic and "dead inside" nowadays. I always try to be positive with people here, enjoy what you have to share and all, I think it's good for my mind and spirit. But the pain and guilt never goes away.
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Do you have any idea how much this breaks my heart? This is precisely what gets under my skin...
Someone who is as darling as you are... someone who does not mess with anyone... and they target the innocent and the kind simply because of their egos or the thrill of feeling power over those who cannot defend themselves or simply choose not to engage in such pettiness. I understand that this was on an entirely different platform... but if anything like this ever happens here or anywhere within my scope of abilities: Please tell me.
PSA on bullying or ANYONE trying to drag people away on Discord for gossip, etcSpoilerYou have to speak up. Staying silent is how these people work to disassemble the beauty of friendships and connections. They loathe it and try to sneak and work behind the scenes to break it apart.
I highly encourage people to connect in the community - observe who they are in the community as well as how they are to people in private.
And if you meet anyone who drags you away into Discord for 1 on 1 -- put your guards up! (Yes, you may feel special, you may feel shy) but the moment they hit you with drama or garbage about someone you do not even know -- this is GOSSIP. Either disengage from the gossip and politely tell them you wish to have no involvement in that: (observe them, if they get angry and drop you -- this is a red flag.) if they insist it is SO bad that you NEED to take their sides... get the other person involved in a group chat so that they can also tell their side of the story... otherwise, this is petty sabotage and an attack on that person's character.
Also, if the matter is not so serious for a group chat to resolve it more reason to drop it!
I am literally getting fed up with the creepy, rotten apple types thinking they are so clever with twisting the narratives in order to hurt others through false rumors or violation of privacy/conversations that they call "evidence." Involve the other person of the topic or drop the matter entirely, otherwise, "evidence" can be fabricated or taken out of context -- and then we have a situation where a victim is literally being painted as a bad guy in order to have people who normally would not bully, suddenly join in bullying....
As for your friend.SpoilerI will do what I can to help here. I understand it was years ago. But if she is anything like me... she takes her friendships very seriously and she still thinks about you. You remind me of a close friend I have on here whom I love dearly and I have told him before... if he ever planned to disappear from here -- to please keep in touch because I will always think of him -- forever. Even in 20 years!
So, please... try to find her. Try to reach out. You would be surprised just how precious you are to people -- even if you cannot see it in yourself... I will be here if you need anything. I will do what I can to help.
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I believe this morning the interactions here really helped to rise my spirit and make me feel better, I told you that this place always brings positivity for me, I'm feeling a little more alive now, thank you very much, you really have a mysterious power.
Well I have to go now, I have multiple drawings to do for some people and a few other things too, I'll be back soon, I wish you all a beautiful day
~☆