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  1. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Well, that's it. 3 and a half years. It has been a long time, but I am not doing this anymore. Being on a forum where nothing I say matters. Where any slight mistakes you make are held to you in the highest regard. Doesn't matter what good you do, the moment you do anything wrong, people will forget. People will not care. So I have stopped caring. I have donated over $100 to this forum in the past. I have made signatures for everyone to use. I have made banners. I have tried to be a welcoming person. I have tried to be a friend. I have tried, so much. Yet, once you make a mistake, nobody will care. The moment you fuck up, every bit of good you ever do will be thrown out the window. Remember that, life is just like that I have noticed. I thought this place would be different, but I see that once again, I am wrong.
     
    So, there you go. I am fucking done.
  2. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    There is something I have been meaning to say but as per my weirdness, I have struggled with wording it. So I am giving it a shot now. I friggin' hate shots by the way.
     
    ANYWAY, I will admit something, I am not the best of friends out there, I know I am not. I am not always completely reliable and I have many struggles within my mind at times which makes concentrating on certain things rather difficult. Like how if someone sends me a message, I sometimes may not get to responding within that same day or even a couple of days even. That isn't exactly preferred, but my mind gets so scattered and things get lost in the clutter. Think of my brain as a really weird rubbish bin. Now throw some fire crackers in it. And some sugar, why not.
     
    What I am meaning to say is this...I appreciate all of my friends. All of you. You all are some of the only friends I have left and I want to make sure I show my appreciation, specifically. Sometimes, one must take a step back and give appreciation to what good they have and friendship is one I never want to let slip through the cracks.
     
    If I take a long time to respond to a message that you have sent, I do apologize, but know that I am not ignoring you. I never want to do that. It probably is just me being super scattered as my thoughts go everywhere. I don't mean anything bad by it. The same goes for my depressive outbursts, usually seen in statuses if I have those. I don't mean any harm by those, if I ever worried anyone or brought anyone down with those, I deeply am sorry about that too.
     
    I don't know if I am being too sappy or weirdly wording things, but it is just something I wanted to tell you all. That friendship matters to me, deeply and you all matter to me. It is something many of you may already know but I feel like setting it in a blog. I think I made a blog like this a long time ago actually, but I want to keep the thought burning in my mind.
     
    Thank you for reading if you made it this far, with my weirdly worded bloggy stuff, it can be difficult to survive. Really though, thank you for reading. I hope I can be a good friend, even if at times I know I am not a great one.
  3. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    **STRONG LANGUAGE AHEAD**



    Magic the Gathering is something that I would have never gotten into if not for the video games. In fact, I do not play the physical game, but the video games exclusively. I find it so much more fun and easier to do it this way. I have been playing these games since the Magic 2013 release and even with some issues, I have enjoyed these games.


     

    Then comes the free-to-play Magic Duels Origins, a game that SHOULD be fucking AWESOME. Apparently Stainless Games have no idea how to do that anymore. Even after working on nearly the same game for many years, they somehow have taken this release and turned it into absolute shit. Technical problems and balance issues are just the beginning to this game's shittiness.


     

    Oh, you want me to pay for coins to buy booster packs? Okay, fine, I can do that. Wait, grinding coins is unbearably slow and nearly impossible? Oh...I guess that is okay, I mean, you WILL have sales on coins eventually, right? Wait, you won't? Ever? Not even when a huge update actually gets released? That makes no sense, but you do what you want. What about the sets then? How often will you release updates? Oh, only one every 4-5 months? That isn't too great for this kind of thing, but at least you are gonna make the game even more polished and improved. Waaaaait, you are only adding in new cards, changing some layouts and adding MORE bugs? How does that help? I thought you have 4-5 months to fix this shit? Why is my fucking game crashing when I try to do a battle now? Oh, you mean to fix that, I need to delete the deck I am trying to use and completely recreate it?! how about YOU fucking morons fix your stupid shit game FIRST. WELL, OKAY. Fine, I will buy some coins because I am excited for these two new sets, it is gonna be cool to see all these new cards. Okay, I am gonna buy the $25 coin pack and......where's my coins? Where the FUCK are my coins? Oh, they aren't there? Well, awesome. Wonderful. Let me just contact customer service. Okay, customer service was nice and helpful, he said they will work to get my coins added. 10 hours later: NOTHING. NOTHING. SERIOUSLY. FUCK THIS.


     

    Stainless Games, I have been patient, it has been 9 months or so, and all you guys have been doing is failing. Failure after failure, and yet you still expect us to pay for these coins. You don't make it any easier to grind, you NEVER have sales. Hell, you don't even add more achievements to the game. Knowing the odds, you will only fuck all of that up too. What's next, all of our accounts are going to disappear for no reason? Keep on it Stainless, you have to keep your failure rate high.


     

    As you can see, I am a tad irritated by this. I have nearly had enough.


  4. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Kyoshi


     

    Platform: One that isn't very high, he doesn't like heights


     

    Genre: Third-pony Weirdness


     

    Publisher/Developer: Kyobisoft/Kyotronic Art


     

    ESRB: K for Kookies. That Kyoshi loves.


     

    Price: Your mental sanity


     




     

    Kyoshi, a pony of many words. A pony of many weirds. A pony that plays video games. He sure loves those video games. He plays video games a lot. How a lot? Does forgetting to breathe sometimes count?


     
     
     

    One might be thinking, what is Kyoshi like? Well, look no further! For this review will tell you everything you need to know.


     
     
     



     

    I am gonna eat some of this in a bit


     
     
     

    Kyoshi's visual representation is stunning. The mix of strangely dark colors and a hint of blue shows that he means business of some kind. It gives a pure sense of mystery and a love for cereal. Kyoshi tends to eat a lot too. Did the colors tell you that? They should have at least! More about his visual splendor. His eyes are of blue shades and I mean come on, blue shades?!?! How could one be any more awesome?!?! It is like 50 Shade's of Kyoshi. Actually, never mind on that. Another thing, Kyoshi's overall features are friggin' amazing. I mean, just look at his NOSE!


     
     
     



     

    Kyoshi's nose


     
     
     

    As far as sound goes, Kyoshi does indeed have a voice in which he uses to produce audible noises from his mouth thing. It is a voice that has found mixed opinions. Some ponies think it sounds like the heavens making a grilled cheese sandwich of the finest quality, while others has said it sounds like an 8-bit version of a walrus singing opera while eating a heavenly grilled cheese sandwich. One can say this is mostly mixed opinion, but Kyoshi's voice still rings true. He talks and he talks a lot. He likes to talk, except when he doesn't like to talk. Let's get a word from him now.


     
     
     



     

    Astounding. It is like watching a box of cereal fall over.


     
     
     

    Now, Kyoshi isn't perfect. He has some flaws. Kyoshi once owned a PS Vita. Ouch. Gonna have to drop a few points there buddy. Kyoshi also sometimes speaks in a very odd third pony manner. I mean, why does he do that? He is writing a review about himself, what a weirdywabblewooby. He also makes up really weird words. Kyoshi, stop being such a dingledanglediggysnibble.


     
     
     

    Final Verdict of Verdictness that Kyoshi is extending to make the review even longer what no he's not you have no proof I am just gonna step over here *dodododododooododododo*


     




     
     
     

    Thank you for reading this millennial Turbo Review! Remember, if you don't know what you want for lunch, play a video game. Forever.


  5. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Frosted Shredded Wheats



    Platform: A bowl, usually



    Genre: Delicious



    Publisher/Developer: Lottsa different companies






    Frosted Shredded Wheats. A cereal that is made by many different companies. It is delicious, healthy, and all around heaven in your mouth. With the high fiber content, it is heaven for your colon too! :3


     

    Frosted Shredded Wheats are a cereal that has a bunch of whole grains. So much grainy goodness that you will be baffled that you are eating something that is good for you, the taste is unrivaled!


     

    But Kyoshi!!! Just a bunch of whole grains? How nasty! WAIT!!! There is more to this cereal of the gods. Only one side is pure grain. The other, is sweet, delicious, frosty substance. This adds a whole new dimension of taste and when this cereal is lathered in the cold embrace of milk, the sensation in your mouth is beyond compare.


     

    Final Verdict:






  6. Kyoshi Frost Wolf

    Halo 5 Sucks

    By Kyoshi Frost Wolf,

    Yes, Halo 5. It sucks. The graphics are nice, the sound is kinda nice, but the game as a whole? It is bad. You like moving like a tank but still dying in 3-4 seconds upon getting shot? This game is perfect for that. How about vehicles that barely add anything to the gameplay except inbalance since most of the time you have nothing to counter it? Halo 5 has it all. No splitscreen? Who needs it! I mean, they only introduced a new 2vs2 mode to celebrate Valentine's Day. Except you can't play with your spouse that is sitting right next to you but heeeeey, close relationships are overrated anyways, to 343 they apparently are. How's about customization? Oh, you mean getting completely random shit that doesn't do anything and you will never notice it on other players and other players won't notice yours? Money well spent on those glorious microtransactions. I guess we can see the winning team's armor for about 2 seconds in the oh sooooooo amazing victory stance that they take. I mean, they stand there for a whole 2 seconds!! Genius! Such craftmanship is put into this experience. Like how arguably the most popular mode in all of Halo, Capture the Flag, has no playlist of its own? Hmmm....that sounds like a bit of a gigantic misstep on their part but hey, who knows, maybe 6 months down the line they will add it in for free. But then they will be teasing Halo 6 since they already said it is coming. That is...riveting. At least now the players talk in the battles. I mean, it is so immersive hearing the same sounding voice on almost everyone. Also, you know how Halo Reach and nearly EVERY OTHER shooter nowadays actually has a comprehensive lobby system that allows you to see who the hell is gonna be in the game with you? Halo 5 says to hell with that and instead lets you see the shitty emblems with no indication on who is who until you are in the game. However, you won't be seeing them again unless you add them because you are immediately given new players each and every game. Did you see a teammate playing awesomely and want to add him? You better remember who the hell he was or else you will miss the chance. Another thing, MODES. Who needs those either? You might remember some classic Halo modes like Infected, Oddball, you know, those zany modes that were still really fun to play? Those aren't here. I mean, Halo only sells millions of copies with every release and now this one has microtransactions but whoooooo caaaaares, we don't need such stupid modes. We have the vanilla modes that have been done to death in every shooter ever. Top it off with a completely meaningless leveling system that NOBODY ELSE CAN SEE and no firefight either and you get a Halo game that is somehow more shallow than Halo 4, even though it plays better than Halo 4.
     
    Can this game be fun? At times, but for me, these have been few and far between. Very far. Now, I am honestly sick of the game. Then again, nearly every competitive multiplayer shooter sucks ass nowadays so I shouldn't expect much.
  7. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    One thing I think about rather often is space. The glorious blackness in the universe that contains all that we know. Looking out at the stars at night, thinking, "Wow, we are just a tiny little pixel compared to all that is out there. Standing on a rock that is dwarfed by the massive star that we orbit." It is a rather humbling feeling but also it fills me with determination (save point), a sense of wonder. Kinda makes the hairs stand up if I think about it. Thinking about the things that make us so small.


     




    The Sun has no interest in our petty politics


     

    The Sun is a massive ball of gas and flames that is a million times larger than the Earth. It is something we have no power over whatsoever, the star can destroy us at any instant. Yet, this makes me feel humble. Space humbles me. One day, it would be amazing to see a gas giant planet up close, to witness the behemoth that has size that we humans can barely even comprehend. A skyscraper is massive compared to any of us, what about Jupiter? Image staring at it, close to it, what would that look like?


     




    Earth has hurricanes. Jupiter has these. The Great Red Spot is an ongoing cyclonic storm that you can fit 3 Earths in.


     

    Rambling aside, this is just me talking about one of my obsessions. The wonders of space and the fascination that I continuously have. Imagining all that is out there, knowing that we humans aren't even a blip on the galactic radar.


     




    Endless wonder


     

    So yeah, there it is. Me rambling a bit about space. Gushing my own obsession. How weird. Kyoshi, me, is weird isn't he? Isn't I? Me. Now, I need to go play some Elite Dangerous. *-*


  8. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Another year. Another birthday. How exciting right? RIGHT?! LEFT? Left is more correct honestly. My birthday this year was a mixed bag of epic proportions. While many of my birthdays don't seem to matter much, lately I have been wanting to make them more into something special. To make a change in that way. Right? Left. Thing is, that didn't happen through most of it. Wasn't able to go anywhere, didn't have any friends over at first, didn't even get a cake. Bleh. Left? Right. HOWEVER, when all was lost in the pit of harpoons and half-priced despair, I was able to voice chat with my boyfriend, you all may know him as NothingIsEverything here. So that already was really nice, but then, a friend of mine was able to come by. While we did not get to do much at all, we apparently will tomorrow. Movies and stuff. Pretty cool. THEN, oh yeah, THEN, another friend came by! That was really unexpected and with him, he brought me a gift, some wine coolers and even a big slice of delicious cake! CA-KE. Yeah, that turned things around.
     

    ^That is how I feel about it now^ Wasn't that way at the start.
     
    So all in all, I was gonna give this birthday a 2/10, but it easily jumped to at minimum a 5/10, which is at least average. Not bad. You know, there could be something about this whole Friendship is Magic thing that makes a lot of sense. Today sure showed that to me.
  9. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    *looks at calendar* Oh, it's been 3 years.....3 YEARS??? Wow. So yes, it has been 3 years since I joined this fandom and these forums, I am a few days late on this actually but time just goes by doesn't it? I joined the fandom in September 2012 and joined these forum mere days after that. It has bee quite a ride. So much has happened in these 3 years, some good things, some horrible things, some fantastic things. It is just crazy looking back on it all, you know?
     
    Just over 3 years ago, I was some guy with no major interests except for video games, with almost no friends and no real hobbies anymore. Then I find this show, decide to watch it, and everything changed. It was one of the best moments of my entire life and that feeling is something I will cherish forever. I remember when I ordered my first ever piece of MLP merch, a Fluttershy shirt of her saying Yay. When it arrived, I was so happy, I was filled with absolute joy and I felt renewed in my life. This show and its fandom did that for me, I will never forget that. Nowadays, I have...problems. Many problems. Depression, self hatred at times, inferiority complex, these different issues that have randomly gotten worse.
     
    Despite that, I still love this show and I cherish these past 3 years and all of the friends I have made here. I really do. You all have been so kind to me, so wonderful, and I cannot thank you enough. I truly mean it. On top of this, the forums eventually led to me meeting the person who would eventually be my boyfriend now, NothingIsEverything. ^.^ That is something I never would have expected but it makes me reflect on how this show and fandom even helped me to come to terms with my sexuality.
     
    I remember when I did not even have a Ponysona, my first avatars and whatnot were all about Fluttershy, my original favorite pony. Then I created Kyoshi, the original version was one that I abandoned after a couple of years, because he did not match me at all. Then I created the Kyoshi you see now, who is actually me in pony form really. Then of course I did get into Photoshop and stuff like that early on, stuff that I never would have expected that I would get into before, then I did. I am no good at it, but it still has given me a lot to do before. More than I had before in my life.
     
    This show and fandom has changed my life completely and I am a much different person now, somewhat. I might have my own problems and weird feelings but I still love these forums, this fandom, this show and all of you. Thank you all for being who you are and being so wonderful to me. ^__^
     
    By the way, I am not leaving or anything, just wanted to give a reflection on these 3 years. It's been quite the 3 years indeed. I hope you all are still enjoying the ride as much as me.

     

    I do apologize for my odd wording, it is just a little overwhelming thinking of all of this now.
  11. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Now that I have my Worst Game of 2014 out of the way, I think it is time we go into something more positive. This is my favorite game for the year of 2014. While it might not be the most innovative game or the longest, but it was an experience that I enjoyed literally every second of. It is a game that rose above the rest for me in terms of art direction and music and overall atmosphere.
    My 2014 Game of the Year is...
    That is my best game of 2014. It truly was a wonderful experience. What was your favorite game of the year?
    Here are some honorable mentions for me:
    GTA V (Xbox One)
    Tomodachi Life (3DS)
    Have a great New Year everypony!
  12. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Hello to all. I wanted to share something with you, it's kinda random but I want to share anyways.
     
    A big part of my personality is my very child like nature, how I have always been. One of those aspects is that, I love looking forward to and enjoying the simple things in life. Being excited for enjoyments is such a great way for me stay positive even in dark times.
     
    One huge thing that I am currently looking forward to, are the Fall and Winter months. Fall and especially Winter are my favorite times of the year. The cold air starts to move in, the leaves fall, the insects and other creatures of silent and everything becomes more and more peaceful. The snow that potentially falls. On top of the peaceful weather that moves in, the holidays are another great thing. We get Halloween with all of the decorations, Thanksgiving which is further into the fall and of course great food. :3 Then there is Christmas which has always been one of my favorite times of the year, easily.
     
    When I was younger I used to look forward to these times so much and my excitement would fill me with happiness when the time started to come closer. I still have this excitement, many parts of me have not changed since then. I still have that child-like excitement and I see it as a wonderful thing.
     
    Another awesome aspect of the Fall and Winter months, are the games. If possible, a lot of publishers like to release games during the holiday season and they are usually big releases too. Some games have been pushed back but there are still ones to look forward to. I am incredibly excited for both Call of Duty Advanced Warfare and Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain and I am sure more games will catch my attention by then too. This just further adds excitement for the already wonderful time of year for me. :3 I'm gonna be pre-ordering one of these games soon,
     
    So there is something learned about me and something I love. Hope you all enjoyed this read even though it is really random.
     
    Do you look forward to simple enjoyments like this? If yes, what?
     
    Thanks for reading.
     
    Turbo out!
  13. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Hello and welcome to Turbo Rants! LETS DO THIS!
     
    Fanboys, I don't like them. Ever since the Nintendo vs. Sega era, fanboys have been a parasitic entity on gaming. They worship their gaming platform of choice while insulting and demeaning all other choices. Nowawadays fanboys are getting worse and worse with the newly released Xbox One, PS4, and the bit less recent Wii U. They exist for everything and not just gaming but gaming is where they are at their worse.
     
    If you are a fanboy, then I have a problem with you. Why? The main reason is that fanboys deem it necessary to try and soil the enjoyment of other people just because they play games on a platform you don't prefer. Brand loyalty is perfectly fine to me. Do you PREFER a certain gaming platform? That is wonderful and you should stick with it if it is what YOU enjoy. A fanboy is someone that takes this preference and uses it against others, which is pretty pathetic.
     
    I know this because I was once a fanboy. Yep. After I got my PS3 is 2007, I became very defensive of the system and hated most other platforms. I was stupid. It was meaningless paranoia and I did not need to do that to enjoy what I enjoyed. That's the thing, fanboys are an infection. Once you start being really defensive over a unit of choice, the other fanboys will insult you and just continue the cycle.
     
    This applies to all consoles and PC sadly. There are fanboys for all of them. People trying to demean the Xbox One without even playing it. People saying the Wii U is bad because..I don't know. Those saying consoles are terrible and we should all game on PC. It happens constantly. People who share articles that do nothing but fuel fanboy wars and arguments. People that use the sales of a system against those who play the system. Those are just a few examples.
     
    If you don't enjoy a certain platform, then don't play on that platform and leave it at that. Enjoy what you enjoy and let others do the same. I play mostly on Xbox nowadays. Xbox 360 and One. Why? It is because I enjoy and prefer to do so. That's it. That's what gaming is about, enjoying it and having fun. I also own a 3DS, I prefer that as well for my handheld gaming. If you prefer PC gaming, that's fine. Wii U, that's fine. Atari 2600, go for it. What you enjoy is what matters for yourself.
     
    One other thing I need to address are people that participate in flame wars and say this: "True gamers own ALL systems so you don't miss any of the great games!" This is also insanely stupid. 'True gamers own all systems'? Wrong. True gamers enjoy gaming without resorting to trolling and insults at others that enjoy other platforms. True gamers are people that have fun with gaming in their own way. People that get immersed in a game's world, or maybe get legitimately scared at a horror game due to immersion, or play for hours on end because they are having so much fun, people that get competitive but Ina friendly way, people that enjoy the story, and so many possibilities. I am not saying you have to do one of those things to be a 'True gamer', I am saying that a true gamer is someone that enjoys gaming in their own way without ruining the fun for others. Enjoying it is what it is all about.
     
    Thank you for reading my first rant. It is something that has been bothering me of late and I wanted to address this. I hope you enjoyed reading it. Remember to enjoy what you enjoy because that's what gaming is for.
  14. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Want to see just a quick summary? Check out the Final Verdict for that and my rating!
    Killer Instinct
    Platform: SNES, Arcade(Not in this review)
    Genre: Fighting
    Publisher/Developer: Rareware
    *This is a review for Killer Instinct on the Super Nintendo, not the arcade version or the new Xbox One reboot

    Killer Instinct is another wonderful game from my childhood. With the new Killer Instinct reboot on the Xbox One and season 2 for that game on the way, I feel it is necessary to go down memory lane with the Super Nintendo version of the original Killer Instinct.
     
    Killer Instinct is a 2D fighter that takes inspiration from the more popular fighting games of the time, Mortal Kombat and Street Fighter. The gameplay is a bit stiff like MK and the graphical style is like MK's, though sprites and pre-rendered backgrounds are used here. The fighting moves themselves are more like a Street Fighter game. You have the basic move motions and even Jago, the obligatory Ninja, is very inspired by Ryu/Ken. The game uses a light/medium/heavy attack system and there are no throws in this one. Blocking is done by holding back. While these work fine, the thing that makes this game unique and fun though, is the combo system.
     

    "Whoa! Look at those graphics! I'd like to get my hands on that game!"
     
    The combo system is like using a special move, but chaining them together. So with Jago for instance, you can do a wind kick, which will then give you the opportunity to chain more moves after the wind kick is done. This allows you to pummel your opponent with very satisfying combos that really separate KI from other fighters at the time. Combos can also be broken by the one on the receiving end if they input a certain command at the right time. Learning each character and seeing their combos makes the game incredibly replayable, even with the lack of modes. Another huge thing about this game are the match finishers, which are the Fatality-like Ultimates and the ever so popular Ultra Combos. The Ultra's are one of the most satisfying parts of the game and each character has a different one. This was easily one of the most satisfying ways to defeat your opponent in any game at the time.
     
    As I just said, the game does lack in modes. You get a standard arcade mode, vs mode for multiplayer battles, a tournament mode and a practice mode. These are pretty much standard and they all work very well, though maybe one or two new modes would have been nice too. These probably would not have fit on the SNES cart so it isn't a huge deal.
     

    "SHORYUKEN!! Wait..."
     
    The graphics for the time are absolutely superb for the SNES. The 3D rendering of the stages and sprites looks great for a 16-bit system and in my opinion it looks better than any other fighter on the system and other than some very minor slowdown that can happen, the game runs smoothly as well. This is definitely a good technical showcase for the Super Nintendo. They may not look as good as the very technically impressive Arcade version, but for the system it is on, Rare did a fantastic job.
     
    Another great aspect about this version is the difficulty balance. In the options menu, you can select from 5 stars of difficulty. The higher the star number, the harder the game. This definitely sets the game apart from the arcade version as here the game feels far more balanced and player friendly, whereas the arcade version features insanely cheesy difficulty and cheating AI in order to drain you of quarters. This home port does not suffer from this and it makes the game a lot more enjoyable. Many think that this game was a butchered port from its arcade counterpart, yet this is the version I always enjoy more.
     
    One last thing, the characters here are quite varied and play differently. Each one is pretty much an early 90's dream. We have the obligatory Ninja, an icy T-1000-like alien, a boxer, a friggin Raptor, and more. A lot of the cast feels like stereotypes, but they work fine given the time.
     
    Final Verdict:
     
    Thank you for reading this week's Turbo Review! Been reviewing quite a few Awesome games lately. Sharing good games is, well, good.
     
    Until next week,
     
    Turbo out!
  15. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    SUPERHOT



    Platform: PC, Xbox One



    Genre: FPS/Puzzle



    Publisher/Developer: SUPERHOT TEAM



    ESRB: T



    Price: $25 USD







    SUPER. HOT. These are two words you will be saying after playing this game. SUPERHOT is a First Person Shooter, but not like you have ever played.







    SUPERHOT is actually a really simple concept. You play as a nameless character, seemingly supposed to be you, in a sort of virtual reality game, where you dispatch with 'red guys' as they are called, by various means. Shooting them, punching them, even going at it with a katana. Guns have limited ammunition and the baseball bat weapon can break, but you can also throw your weapon to get the jump on the enemies. Here is where the twist comes in: SUPERHOT only movies when you do. While you are motionless, the game slows down drastically, to near stopping point, so you can strategically fight all of the enemies, as you die with 1 hit. Being shot once, be hit with a sword once, even being just punched once, is instant death, so patience and situational awareness is an absolute must with this game, but wow, is it fun. Your enemies all die in one hit as well, except for melee hits which takes 3, so the odds are also in your favor if you are careful.

     
    While a simple concept on paper, it is incredible how well executed it all is. The thrill of getting a huge kill chain while not be touched is exhilarating beyond belief, especially since this game doesn't mess around. Even the visuals and sounds are simple, with a very crisp look consisting mostly of white for the background, black for weapons and objects and red for the enemies. It is simplistic but works flawlessly for the concept. IT keeps everything easy to see and once you get the hang of the way the game works, if you are patient enough, this game will keep you coming back again and again.







    There is a story mode surprisingly enough and this is actually what you must start with. You play through about 27 levels where you are given all that you need to get the hang of the game. This story mode, while incredibly short, was actually quite engaging, as there are some really interesting undertones to the entire thing and it will have you wondering. Like I said it is short though, it can be beaten in about two hours, so sadly the story just doesn't last long.

     
    Once you complete it though, you unlock a plethora of new content, such as endless modes with different arenas and variants, challenge which has you going through the story mode with specific conditions and more. This, a long with the addicting gameplay, makes this one of the most fun experiences I have had in a game in a long time, let alone an FPS.







    To me, this game has very little in the way of flaws. Firstly, the hit detection can be a tad finicky in you are close to a wall's edge. Sometimes a bullet will hit the empty air right next to the edge or when you throw a weapon, the weapon might go at an angle that causes it to hit a wall unexpectedly. This is something that is not a major issue mind you, but it is something I experienced. Other than that, perhaps a slightly longer story would have been nice, but this just doesn't detract from the overall package. Say what you will, but I would take this $25 unique FPS experience over any generic COD title with it's $60 price tag AND $50 season pass any day.

     
    Final Verdict:

     


     
    And there you have it. This is one of the best games I have ever played.

  16. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Welcome to Turbo Highlights! Where I basically just share something that I really enjoy that I feel deserves more recognition. This might be anything. Music, videos, games, Youtube channels, pizza, anything. :3
     
    Here, I am sharing the Youtube Channel 'Game Sack', a show hosted by Joe and Dave where they go through tons of classic games and game consoles and explore them. They have covered many topics such as the Sega Saturn to the Neo Geo CD and other classic systems, as well as other topics like Arcade games that never made it to home consoles, sequels, and more.
     
    The show has a very light hearted tone to it. The hosts talk is a very friendly manner and it even has some cheesy-ness to it, with some of the humor but I like that aspect. This overall makes it pleasant to watch or just of listen to. Learning about these systems and seeing some of the many hidden gems that they had is quite neat if you into gaming at all. Or you can revisit a console you once owned and see some games you might have missed. It really is enjoyable.
     

    These guys have such a simple charm to them.
     
     
    The way they present the consoles is nice too. They use stop motion to show the ins and outs of the systems themselves and add in neat little sound effects that are not overdone at all. It's these little things that add even more enjoyability to show for me.
     
    If you are a gamer at all, I highly suggest checking them out. It is enjoyable, calming in some ways, and a nice blast to the past. If you like AVGN's ventures into obscurity but want something a bit more relaxing and in depth, then this channel is easily for you. Plus they actually go far more in depth than any of the Nerd's videos.
     
     

     
     
    So check them out if you are interested. They apparently have been around for a few years and I feel that they have not gotten the recognition they deserve. They also do not upload super often but given the length of the videos that is of no surprise.
     
    Check out their channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCT6LaAC9VckZYJUzutUW3PQ
     
     
    Until next time,
     
    Turbo out!
  17. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Warning, strong language is ahead, so if you are one of those people that cannot handle a bunch of lines formed to some word that is only bad in a certain context, don't go forward.
     
    So yeah, you probably won't be seeing much of me anymore. Honestly, who the fuck REALLY cares. You might say 'I do care!' But why? What have I done and what about me makes me worth this constant praise and people telling me that I am wonderful, awesome, and who knows what else?
     
    Since I have been silenced in other ways, I have decided to make this worthless blog post, ranting about why I am a worthless piece of fucking garbage that doesn't deserve this kind of praise. I wasn't told that I couldn't do this here so I will assume I can, but I kinda already know that if I cannot do this then I will be told after action has been taken towards me, so, it's kinda downhill either way.
     
    Enough of that stupid shit though, let's move on to the next stupid shit that is floating around my worthless brain.
     
    As you all know, I am fucking depressed. Yeah, I am. Why? Why Kyoshi? Tell us so you can waste our time like you always do. I tend to do that don't I, waste the time of other's...well, you aren't obligated to anything, remember that.
     
    Why am I depressed? Because there is no purpose or point to my existence. At all. Seriously, zero, zilch. Nothing. The second reason, I hate myself. I despise my being. I look into a mirror, and I remember that I am inferior to everyone else around me. Why is this? Simple. I have no particular talents, traits, skills, admirations, or even the basic stuff that would make any other human being worth a damn. I cannot drive, I have the mind of a child mostly, I have anger issues, I have anxiety problems, I cannot work, I cannot do this I cannot do that, I cannot do a goddamn thing correctly. I always make everything worse over time, no matter what I do. Oh sure, I am not a murderer, or a thief, or whatever, I try to stay out of everyone's way and just live within my means. Whatever that is. So you could say, 'oh kyoshi, you aren't THAT bad!' Well when all I can say is 'I'm am not doing shit that is absolutely required by law to NOT do' and nothing else beyond that, what exactly do you have? A husk, a simple flesh bag that really has in business walking around, eating, and sometimes enjoying some stupid hobbies like other, more worthy human beings.
     
    So yeah, I am a giant fuck up. A 'thing' that exists solely to exist. You are saying, I know you are, 'Kyoshi, do something about it!'. Here is the thing, I can't. There is literally nothing I can do. I really wish I could better explain this particular thing because it is really confusing but I just cannot do anything about how my mind functions. By that, I mean the flaws that I mentioned above. Maybe through harsh meds (meds don't seem to help at all) I can kinda block one or maybe two things, but I am just stuck with who I am. Interesting note, I have always been like this, a fuck up with flaws everywhere, always. The only difference now is that I realize how inferior these flaws make me. Now, you are saying 'they don't make you inferior!' It's just a matter of opinion I guess, but I see that as incorrect. I cannot function like some 'normal' human being. So, how exactly is that not inferior? That isn't even counting that I am nothing special whatsoever. I see that as inferior to most common folk.
     
    So we have that established. I am a fuck up, who happens to be a mental case as well, Who has no special, anything about him, and not much can alter that. I have tried therapy and meds and whatnot and I truly, I mean this, TRULY wish they could do something, ANYTHING, anything to stop this torture. This corrosion that my emotions and mind is doing to itself. My life isn't 'terrible' by any means, it sure as hell isn't all that 'good' but whatever, the main issue is my worthless brain and my worthless self. If I could, or if meds to make me do this at least, I would be happy. I WOULD just say 'whatever' and just enjoy what I enjoy, regardless of all of the things that make me a walking pile of dust, I would do this. Seriously, I have done this before, but as time goes on, I am weakening, my mind is destroying itself, slowly but surely. I have grown to hate myself for just being me, for things that I cannot control, and at that point, things are getting a little fucked aren't they? Well yeah.
     
    I just wish I could stop the thinking, stop the thoughts, stop everything. I look at you, reader, whoever you are, and by default, my mind goes into this mode: I am inferior because of A, B, and probably C, I don't deserve them as a friend or anything else. I am worthless compare to them. That's what happens. In the past, I didn't care. Where do this all to wrong? I don't know, it just started to happen as I got a little bit older. I looked at other people and thought 'you know...I like playing my video games and doing what I do...but that person, they are so much more than me' and everyone shows in this society that you have to be worth something, you cannot just be this flawed and not be considered a burden. This is true right? Well, whether or not it is, THIS is what my mind has convinced me of.
     
    Now, Am I always this way? Am I always this depressed, self loathing, whiny waste of time? No. You see this mostly on the internet, mainly because I voice whatever I am thinking on the internet a lot. In non internet life, I do have days where I just enjoy what I do. Live my life however and just get satisfaction from that. I wish it was always like that. Seriously. I do.
     
    What life do I live? A simple one, of simple pleasures, and simple lifestyle. Simple. I want to enjoy this, I want to embrace this, but because of everything I have said above, this is getting harder and harder with each passing day. I feel that someday my mind with completely corrode itself and I will be completely alone to go with that. Will that happen? Probably but I base that notion around my current mood, which is 'Kyoshi go throw yourself off of a bridge you useless twat!' So maybe looking into the future in any way is a really bad idea for me.
     
    So yeah. This literally can go on forever and ever and ever. It's all a waste of time reading though. Nothing can be done really, the only thing is that I somehow am able to accept what I have listed above, the stuff I do enjoy at times. I want it to happen, make no mistake, many think enjoy this depression. It's hell. Not the worst kind of hell, there are plenty in this world we humans have created and are now torturing, but it is a hell none the less and I wish to not feel it but it's there. Only time will tell if it will subside and if my happiness, as insignificant to the world that it is, can prevail. It just doesn't look that way right now.
     
    End pointless post #Kyoshishutthefuckupalready.
  18. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Hiya everypony, I wanted to share something today. This may seem really random and weird but hey, why not! I like taking random screenshots of things on the web and web pages at times, almost as a way to record a memory. I know, that's weird, but I am weird so huzzah it works.
     
    I have here, an old screenshot of MLP forums. Not insanely old but I captured it sometime in October of 2012. Yep, less than a month after I joined the fandom and the forums! It brings back good memories really, I feel it was a better time for me as a whole...Though I am so happy I changed my username!
     
    Here it is, give it a good look!

     
    It feels weird looking at it now and thinking how things have changed really...I hope you all like it, for what it is. I know it is random but I wanted to share it.
  19. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Woo! A review from me! I am posting this review on Rotten Tomatoes as well. Keep in mind that I do not review things often.....at all, so please excuse my awkward wording.
     
    Oh boy, Equestria Girls. The bane of My Little Pony's existence. The death of the show as we know it! THE END OF PONYKIND, EQUESTRIA, AND THE FABRIC OF EVERYTHING THAT CURRENTLY OR WILL SOON EXIST!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
    OOOOOooooookay. I was not fond of the idea of EqG at first, never hated it, just did not see the point. Over time I really grew fond of it. It started as slight interest, then it became a 'I MUST SEE THIS!!'' film for me. I was still worried about it being bad though. The setting was a bit....meh, that being a typical High School setting, the plot was very basic, and just the idea of our favorite ponies being human did bring a bad taste to my mouth. Well, I finally seen it. I had my tissues ready for when I would eventually cry at the bastardization that the EVIL Hasbro has done to our beloved show. The result....."Spoiler alert", it was fantastic.
    Speaking of spoilers, there may be spoilers in this review, but I will try my best to limit them.
    I mentioned the plot earlier...well, what is the plot Kyoshi?! I will tell you the plot. In the case that you do not know, Twilight is now a princess. She and her friends stay at the Crystal Empire (for an event that thanks to my bad memory, I don't remember). Sunset Shimmer, a former student of Princess Celestia, steals Twilight's crown/Element of Harmony. She goes into this mysterious portal that leads into another world, populated by humans. She then has to go into the portal to retrieve her lost crown and save these two worlds from an unknown threat.
    Now let me start off with the first thing I loved about the movie. It stayed true to the original show, for the most part. The animation is spot on, the characters are spot on, the expressions, the colors, it is all great. Given that it is done by the same talent who makes Friendship is Magic, that should be no surprise, but I was actually very surprised that they pulled it off this well. The other thing, was the amount of characters within the human world that they showed. The Cutie Mark Crusaders, Big Mac, Snips and Snails, just to name a few. There were plenty of shoutouts to the original show and it shows that the writers are keeping the fandom in mind, which is fantastic. The next thing, were the songs. There were a decent amount and in some ways they might seem cliche, but I found them to be very enjoyable. It helps move the plot along at a good pace and helps establish scenes that would have otherwise been a bit boring, potentially.
    The characters, even their human counterparts, were very well done. The way that the characters were shown with all of the stuff that WE know, such as the Internet, cell phones, computers, lead to some very funny moments with Twilight and even the other mane 5, who in this world know how to use these devices. The personalities of most of the characters are spot on, even some that appear for a small amount of time. They will all make you laugh just as they made us laugh in FiM. Pinkie is still random, Fluttershy is still, um, shy, and Rarity is still overly dramatic. The conversion of the characters is great and they did not miss a beat, for most of them. The names are not changed as well. Even Spike was actually funnier (and in my opinion, cuter) than he is in the original show!
    The setting itself is rather plain, but it works. It really does. It is a high school setting, but really, Equestria has school as well, so this is not a completely alien concept. In some ways, it is cliche, but what can you expect? With what it was, it was done much better than I originally anticipated.
    The animation, as I said, fantastic, as expected. Studio B was still able to keep those great, vibrant colors and expressions in the other humanly world.
    Now, were there flaws with the film? Yes, there were flaws, as with most films, but I was able to look past them. What were they? One, the pace. It wasn't perfect. Some parts went by a bit too fast. One part in particular seemed a bit forced, just to advance the plot. Luckily it was still funny. Two, a few of the characters were not represented all too well. Snips and Snails were the biggest here, they just seemed a bit too evil. They are gullible, but in the original show, they never went to the point of harming others, at least not intentially. The others, were Celestia and Luna. Luna does not get much screen time and Celestia does not get much more, but they seemed a bit.....plain, more than they are in the show itself. Celestia just seemed to have an expression of being unimpressed throughout most of the movie. The only other flaw, in my opinion, was the near the end, but this is a smaller flaw. It went by really fast and it was very simple. I still liked the ending, but it could have a been a bit better.
    I can safely say though, I can ignore these flaws. This movie is not perfect, in some ways cliche, and may not have been fully realized in some areas, but it was incredibly enjoyable. I enjoyed it from start to finish. Also, the way Alicorn Twilight was portrayed was fantastic as well. I am a huge fan of the Princess Twilight thing and this film made me love it even more, if that is even possible.
    Let me be clear, if you do not like FiM, you will probably not like this movie. Beyond that, I think most will enjoy it. The original outcry from other bronies was incredibly pathetic and now that I have seen the film, it was very unwarranted. Many people do not like change. People do not want their beloved show that they have grown accustomed to changed, probably for many reasons. Change can be a great thing though. It can open up new possibilities, adventures, and plot ideas. This, is an example of an adventure. It is a fun little ride that will not disappoint you, at least, I hope not. It begins on a good note, ends on a good note, has many nice little tributes to the original show and to the original plot of the show, and it was just fun. On top of all of what I have said, the movie shows that the writers are able to handle the Princess Twilight subject very well, which is another bright spot for the show's future. If you can, I highly suggest seeing it. Many have accused Hasbro of starting to wrap their hands around the show and take control over it to sell more toys. This movie has been a prime subject among some bronies for this theory. Well, the original show was more than likely made for the selling of toys as well and we kinda know how that went. This movie is really no different. It is not AS good as the original show, but it is damn close. Extremely close actually. Hell, it might be just as good in many ways. If you are skeptical, as many might be, give it a chance. You might be pleasantly surprised. I have been quite depressed the past few days prior to seeing the film and once I seen it, I felt uplifted.
    By the way, here is a little spoiler that happened during the film. Do not click the spoiler tag if you have not seen the movie and you do not want this surprise revealed to you.
  20. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Life is pointless. Lets get that out of the way early. Nothing that we do 'really' matters. So, why do we bother? It is because we want to make something of ourselves, to accomplish something. I have always thought that since I am not doing much with my life...at all, that I am inferior to other human beings. I mean, just look around. Look at all of these people doing so many great things! Going to college, working hard, blah,blah. Yeah. That is fine and all, if you enjoy it, then fine with me. Honestly, though, life is mostly an ego feeding contest. It seems all I hear about is all the great things certain people are doing, or what certain others are trying to do. It is all about being better than your fellow humans. It is not always the case, but it is more prominent now than ever. Look at this fandom, it is filled with it. People constantly trying to seem like they are great because of one thing or another. 'Look! I can do this! Or that! Of I know this! Or that! Look how smart I am!'
     
    The best thing I can learn to do is to just say fuck it. None of this shit really matters, so why do I let it get to me? I am always depressed and I may stay that way for a good while, I will admit that. Still,the best I can do is just ignore all of this stupid shit. Thinking that I need to be better at this, or that, or I must do this with my life, or that, I am just feeding this useless notion. The world is full of elitists and that is unavoidable, because society constantly yells it into our ears that if we are doing certain things, then we are better than everyone else who is not doing it. Don't believe me? Take a look at a random college commercial. Usually, it is advertising some business or technical college and the tag line is always this: Some person, usually a male, explains his story about how he wasn't doing anything important, that is until he went to this college and now he actually had a life worth living apparently. What about all of those people who work at convenience stores? Or factories? What do they mean? Nothing, if you go by elitist standards. It is all about college in the job regard. That is just one random example so take it as you will.
     
    So....yeah, this is just the ramblings of an idiot who quite frankly has a lot of free time and not too many friends and zero social skills, so this probably seems dumb, but that is what I want to say. The best thing I can do is say fuck it, because nothing really matters, so I should just live my life how I want. It may not be perfect, but it okay I suppose. My viewpoint is this, if you are not harming anyone, then live your life how you please.
     
    End of pointless post. Keep in mind, I try to be a nice person despite how brash and negative I seem. I know that I can be very annoying at times, because I even annoy myself.
  21. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    As the title implies, I am done with it. I am no longer going to be creating music. I realize I have no ear for it and I am horrible so I will stop wasting my time. This is thanks to a certain member from here apparently, username being Bearsie. This person basically said that my last piece of music, which I thought was a nice, simple, soothing tune, is terrible and that I should stop making music. Well, you have your wish. Even though your criticism is the equivalent of a goddamn rock teaching someone how to draw, you are probably right anyways. So fuck it, I am done. I have zero talent in it anyways. Go figure, story of my life. I really have no talent in anything. Perhaps I don't really deserve to have talent in the first place.

  22. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    So, this is going to be difficult to explain. I will probably retread over bullshit that I have said before so this is going to be boring and accomplish nothing.
     
    As a person, I make no sense whatsoever. I hate myself with a deep passion yet I like my personality, for the most part. Overall though, I just hate my very being. I just have no place in this world. Or do I? I don't even know.
     
    I am always thinking, constantly thinking about whatever. Whether it be ideas for something, or just depressing thoughts, or just random stuff. I always compare myself with others, because I want to feel like I have a damn purpose. Everyone else is better than me though,at most things. Should that matter? Again, I do not know. I just wish there was something that I was good at, everything I do is mediocre or boring.
     
    I do not do much in my life. My days mostly consist of staying at home, listening to music, browsing the forums, maybe playing a video game, and maybe doing something productive, but barely. I don't work. Yeah, I am a useless sack of shit to society. I get SSI. If that is a crime, then kill me now. I was deemed worthy of it thanks to three mental professionals thanks to my severe Aspergers Syndrome, constant anxiety, and to a lesser extent Hydrocephalus. I have brought this stuff up before, but I am doing it again.
     
    I want to be happy with my life. I have no big career planned for myself, nor do I have any interest going to college like all the best people seem to do. I just want a simple life of happiness. I try as hard as I can to appreciate the little things, but nothing works now, because I see myself as a useless wretch, a scar upon this world.
     
    I honestly wish I was someone else....Like I said, I like my personality, but my cons far outweigh the pros. You might be thinking, 'Why don't you do something about it?'Maybe I cannot do so. Human beings are flawed, one way or another, some drastically more than others. Some of us cannot change the way we are. I cannot change how my messed up brains functions, I was born the way I am. I would say it is a good thing since my f*cked up mind is the cause of my unique personality, but it is also a curse, causing my worthlessness to everyone and my constant self-loathing and depression.
     
    That is another thing I want to bring up, humans. Many overly positive people want to assume that everyone has a purpose. Why do they think that? Is it some hopeless attempt at trying to brighten up this dark world? Is it just because they have something in life? It could be anything, this subject will not get me far.
     
    What the fuck can I do honestly? All I want is happiness. I try as hard as I can to stay out of everyone's way, and I do, but I always come back to feeling completely useless to this world. I truly have nothing to live for. I hate myself because of this. I feel like I am unworthy of friends, of love...But am I REALLY? Is it true, or is it just my mind thinking this way and it is NOT true? I do not know what to think anymore. Perhaps I am just crazy. I don't know what to do.
     
    I fear that one day, I will be entirely alone. I mentioned this in my last blog, but it is a sad truth. Thanks to my problems, who would want me?
     
    I am sorry for posting this.....I truly do not want to feel this way anymore...like I said, I just want to be happy. I am probably just posting this for attention, who knows, but I have no bad intentions. I just do not know how to feel anymore. I am lost, alone, and afraid of the world around me. All I do is judge myself due to what others do. I don't want to do it anymore, but still I do.
     
    I just..don't know anymore. I don't think there is anything can be done by others to help me, I am just too complicated. I make no sense, if you cannot already tell by this post. If you read this whole thing, I feel sorry for your mind, because this post makes no sense. It more than likely appears to be the rambling of someone gone mad and it probably is. I guess it just feel nice knowing that my voice may very well be heard by someone.
  23. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    So I have been thinking quite a lot lately. Actually, when am I NOT thinking about something? Well, this time I have been thinking of something more specific, that thing is love. What? Love? How incredibly unlike me to be thinking of such a subject!
     
    Yeah, it is a little strange I suppose. I do not have much of a social life at all. The social life that I do have is on the internet, mostly on these forums. I suffer from severe Aspergers Syndrome and crippling anxiety so I have an incredibly difficult time meeting new people, not to mention getting to know them well. Normally, I am a loner. I live with my dad and I usually just stay in my room and I do not leave my home much. It doesn't sound like much of a life, but I am happy with it. I get SSI due to my problems and I try to live within my means and keep things simple. I like a simple lifestyle.
     
    Anyways, I really cannot live alone. Due to my many problems, there is just no way that I can and I will fully admit it. I was born with these problems and all I can do is just accept them and accept myself and just try to be happy.
     
    This has made me think though, about the future. I tend to do that a lot, thinking of the future. Probably not a good idea in my case but I do it anyways. Because of this thinking marathon, I have recently become very scared of the future. I have tons of anxiety over many things, but this is a feeling that I have not felt before. I fear that I may be completely alone in the future.
     
    Why is this? Well, it is because of my problems that I have mentioned. I cannot drive due to my problems and I do not get out much and even if I did, I live in a small town.
     
    I have thought of something more though, that is love. Love is something that I have not thought about much in my life. I have had only one relationship and it did last for a decent while, but it ended on a bad note. Why am I thinking of love? I honestly do not know the exact reason, but I have realized that it is something that I truly want.
     
    Because of my awkward wording, this may be difficult to explain but I do want love in my life. I want to find my special somepony. I truly mean this. I want someone that I can say 'I love you' to and for them to love me back, despite all of my shortcomings. I want someone that will hold my hand and hug me, and me do the same for them.
     
    This is where my complications come in. I am incredibly shy and socially awkward. I also have very low self esteem, basically the self esteem of a rock. Which is weird because I will admit that I am a good person for what I am, but I am weird like that. How will I meet anyone majorly new to even have a chance? If we develop something, how will we see each other? I have so many worries and questions that honestly it makes me cry. My limitations keep me from doing much. I cannot travel and like I have said I am very socially awkward.
     
    I know that these things take a lot of time and it does not happen instantly, you just cannot force it and I realize that. I just feel so worried about it all and the future. Maybe this worry is unjustified but I am very weird like that. Does any of this make sense?
     
    The only real way I will find anyone is online. I have made a small step by making a post in the forums here, but I am unsure if that will do anything. I worry that if I find anyone, what if they live really far away? It is stuff like that, that depresses me. I don't know what I will do at that point. Will they come to me? Am I worth that? I probably would not be able to come to them, but if I could, I absolutely would. Who knows, maybe they would come to me. I know it is a lot to ask, but if we truly love each other, then they may not have a problem doing so.
     
    I am very serious about wanting real love and I want something like this to work, but I know that I need to give it time, a lot of time. Hopefully someday I will find my special somepony. That is what I need to have, hope, not doubt. I get depressed very easily so I am vulnerable to doubt and fear, but I just need to have hope. One day, I will find that special somepony, I will. It is just keeping this spirit up that is the challenge.
     
    Thank you for reading if you did. This was very confusing to read I bet but my wording can be weird. It makes me feel really nice letting these thoughts out and I am glad I was able to share them with you all.
  24. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    Since I do do not plan on RPing, I decided to post my OC's information here to share with you all. I posted this in the database, but that really isn't sharing, since you cannot even comment on it. So here is. Kyoshi Lonehearted.

     
    Backstory: Prior to his transformation, Kyoshi was a very shy Pegasus from a village in the Frozen North. He was anti-social and had tons of anxiety issues. He seldom talked, except for his few friends in his village. He always worried about things and felt that he lacked any sort of purpose in life and was unhappy. Life scared him. He was afraid of heights, which he was at times teased for as a filly. Later, he just avoided social confrontation all together with those he did not know. He had no major family, so he often felt alone. It was when he could express his feelings to his few friends that he felt at least a little happiness. Even then he felt like a burden to his friends and everyone around him. At times, he even said that he hated himself. Eventually, he decided to leave his village. He told nopony about this, as he didn't see the importance, though did hope to return. He was desperate to find his purpose, his destiny, whatever that may be. He later arrives in Vanhoover. It is there where he obtains the mystical Alicorn Amulet from a very strange shop. From this point, his life will change forever.
     
    Cutie Mark: His Cute Mark is the Alicorn Amulet. He never earned his Cutie Mark, not even as an adult. While visiting Vanhoover, he ran into a merchant who said that he had something that could solve his 'lack of purpose' problems. He later tried it on, thinking it would do nothing, but instead it infused itself to his body, going where Cutie Mark should have been. This is why Kyoshi is now permanently an Alicorn.
     
    Personality: Due to the amulet and his transformation, his personality has gradually become more social, but also aggressive.As he socialized more and talked with other ponies, his original flaws gradually faded. He would stutter out of nervousness before, as he talked more, he started to stutter less, eventually none at all. He used to avoid social confrontation, then he started to seek it out. He was once very stressed and having constant anxiety, he later learned to suppress his emotions.
  25. Kyoshi Frost Wolf
    This is a big problem that I have. I have a very active mind, so I am constantly thinking about many different things, this being a big thing. I wish that I didn't think about this though. I don't many remarkable traits. I do not have any major talents or skills. I do have a nice and quirky personality and an active imagination which I am happy about.
     
    The problem is that I compare myself with everyone too much and this has negative effects. I always feel that I should be just as good as this person, or that person, or I feel inferior. I know that sounds stupid, but I have a weird mind. Example: Say I find a Brony song and it is really good. I will enjoy it and appreciate it, because I love music. The problem that will arise is that I start to get feelings of inferiority, because I will feel that I cannot do anything like it. I do make some music, electronic because I am not skilled with any actual instrument, but I have a great ear for music, so I should just be fine with that, but my nagging comparisons get the best of me and it brings me down a lot. The music that I make does sound good and that should be enough. Again, I know it sounds stupid, but it is something that I go through.
     
    Another good example is this. I have noticed that a lot of bronies attend college. I do not, mainly because I have no interest. That should be perfectly fine, but my comparisons kick in. I see people, like on the forums, and see that they talk about college and I feel inferior. I start feeling like I am not doing anything great with my life, which shouldn't bother me because I normally am fine with my simple life.
    I live a simple life, enjoying simple things and loving this fandom and show. Another one is that I cannot drive. I constantly compare myself with other people because they can drive and I cannot (due to horrid anxiety problems and aspergers syndrome) and that again makes me feel I inferior. Luckily I am slowly but surely accepting this particular thing.
     
    This is a reason why I do not go to certain websites or I try to avoid certain things and places, because I want to avoid these thoughts. I am also very anti-social so that doesn't help (Aspergers Syndrome ahoy) and I usually have a difficult time expressing these strange feelings. I really wish I didn't have these feelings because it can greatly impact my ability to enjoy certain things. Again, I know this seems strange but I am a strange person, which personally I like about myself. I just need to stop comparing myself with other people be happy for who I am, flaws and all. This is a weird first blog, but I wanted to share my thoughts. I like sharing my thoughts on things I think about a lot or am passionate about, hence why I post a lot about the Twilicorn subject.
     
    Either way, I am getting off-topic. Thanks for reading. It feels nice to just express my thoughts, I don't have many people that I can express my feelings to.
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