mega thread How are you feeling?

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

6 hours ago, Dreambiscuit said:

Don't worry about what to say and what not to. Just be natural. Therapists really want to hear spontaneous replies to their questions so they can read what's going on. Remember they're here to help you, not judge you. Relax and be okay. 

The thing is they're not magicians, they cannot undo what harm has been done and honestly it is an unrealistic expectation of anyone. Whether or not I take the therapy, bad memories still linger.

and I don't know if I will ever be able to earn trust of people here ever again after what my pessimism has done. If all I ever do is push people away, what is the point?

I do try, but sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I will go to therapy in a couple of days, but I am unsure how it is going to go.

[Crypty Scribbles 5,902]

I'm feeling like an invisible spectator stepping silently like a cat to see things too gentle to disturb them with loud noise or rude touch. 

51 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

I do try, but sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I will go to therapy in a couple of days, but I am unsure how it is going to go

I wouldn't expect a quick result. Exploring your inner self is a slow process. 

[Silent Dusk 429]

Been doing SSOOOOOOOOOOO much bete-worse and I do not want to go into the details.

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

6 minutes ago, Crypty Scribbles said:

I wouldn't expect a quick result. Exploring your inner self is a slow process. 

But if it leads to more pain, it would make all that effort pointless.

I cannot seem to have one opinion about anything, without upsetting someone.

[Crypty Scribbles 5,902]

4 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

I cannot seem to have one opinion about anything, without upsetting someone.

If you insist.  I'll just wish you good luck on your appointment!

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

11 minutes ago, Crypty Scribbles said:

If you insist.  I'll just wish you good luck on your appointment!

Thank you like I said I will try, I don't want anymore problems on this website while I'm going through that process or after it however, and I wrote this on my profile earlier

"I see the light in others, and that is why I yearn for both a peaceful life and friendship, people have different ideas on achieving that goal but seeing the good in others is part of what made My Little Pony Friendship is Magic the success it was. Obviously some individuals are beyond reform and that is why Queen Chrysalis and Lord Tirek got sealed away in season 9, but for the most part, at least Mane Six try to reason with troubled souls, and there was good even in Discord, even though his behaviour is inappropriate sometimes, Fluttershy's influence clearly softened him to the point where he made less problems for Equestria than he otherwise would have done. And I would say Princess Luna became benign after part 2 of the debut episode of the show."

That is what got me into My Little Pony Friendship is Magic from the start. Sometimes to take away others emotional pain, a hug helps, and even though you don't seem to be in any pain at the moment then again I am not a mind reader, I am giving you a hug emoji now.

[Ice Princess Silky <3 16,884]

1 hour ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

The thing is they're not magicians, they cannot undo what harm has been done and honestly it is an unrealistic expectation of anyone. Whether or not I take the therapy, bad memories still linger.

and I don't know if I will ever be able to earn trust of people here ever again after what my pessimism has done. If all I ever do is push people away, what is the point?

I do try, but sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I will go to therapy in a couple of days, but I am unsure how it is going to go.

It sounds like you are being haunted or tormented by bad memories. No. We cannot change that past. But once that past is affecting your present and future… you need to learn active methods to ensure that the past does not repeat again.

the past should be there to learn from. Not to punish you when you already feel so much remorse or pain.

I feel sad seeing people struggle with these things. I hope you feel better soon.

[Florana 311]

1 hour ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

The thing is they're not magicians, they cannot undo what harm has been done and honestly it is an unrealistic expectation of anyone. Whether or not I take the therapy, bad memories still linger.

and I don't know if I will ever be able to earn trust of people here ever again after what my pessimism has done. If all I ever do is push people away, what is the point?

I do try, but sometimes it feels like a losing battle. I will go to therapy in a couple of days, but I am unsure how it is going to go.

I do not know how has your journey with therapy been before, but it's really, really good that you're giving it a chance. Independently of how it goes, keep trying, keep looking. It will keep you stronger, even when you don't feel like so.

[Street Light 324]

been feeling a bit nostalgic :3 the event about friendship and flowers has thinking back to old friends and relationships. it's a bit bittersweet uwu

Edited Monday at 05:38 PM by Street Light
Flowers!!!!

[Silent Dusk 429]

11 minutes ago, Street Light said:

been feeling a bit nostalgic :3 the event about friendship and flowers has thinking back to old friends and relationships. it's a bit bittersweet uwu

The only nostalgia I feel is longing.... Yeah, I have problems :[...........................................

 

Anyway, good to hear! 

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

1 hour ago, Silent Dusk said:

The only nostalgia I feel is longing.... Yeah, I have problems :[...........................................

 

Anyway, good to hear! 

I know, you got problems as well, sometimes it feels like we're in this life to be punished though, trial and tribulation that has no pay off does happen to people, not everyone, but there are a lot of cases where this does occur. I'd like to think positive, I'd like to free of stress like other people seem to be here much of the time on this forum, but how to get there has been difficult, with unstable relationships and what have you. It's like I said before I don't enjoy being negative about things, and who does? I wished more people understood that positivity sometimes requires encouragement.

When I first came to this forum I wanted to discuss My Little Pony, fan fiction and other fictions, I did not come here to be a troll, I don't enjoy making others suffer.

[Silent Dusk 429]

8 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

I know, you got problems as well, sometimes it feels like we're in this life to be punished though, trial and tribulation that has no pay off does happen to people, not everyone, but there are a lot of cases where this does occur. I'd like to think positive, I'd like to free of stress like other people seem to be here much of the time on this forum, but how to get there has been difficult, with unstable relationships and what have you. It's like I said before I don't enjoy being negative about things, and who does? I wished more people understood that positivity sometimes requires encouragement.

When I first came to this forum I wanted to discuss My Little Pony, fan fiction and other fictions, I did not come here to be a troll, I don't enjoy making others suffer.

Suppose we're basically the same in that case. And Thanks for being there for me and others, DW

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

7 minutes ago, Silent Dusk said:

Suppose we're basically the same in that case. And Thanks for being there for me and others, DW

Thanks, I don't forget my friends and individuals who helped me out when I was down. If you're feeling uneasy about something I am happy to comfort you about it, you know me, I came to your profile weeks ago wishing you to get well after you got back from hospital, that time when you were sick because of a problem with your digestive system, which you're still being treated for I'd imagine. We may not have the same opinions about everything, but I don't expect that, all I want is a friend, someone who won't judge others just because of an opinion about something they didn't like.

and I believe you're one of the few people on here I can safely say, are. Sure, I've interacted with others outside my friend circle on this forum, but most people here would only see things about users of this website at surface level, that I don't blame them for, everyone's got their own lives to worry about and I'm not here for a popularity contest.

[Silent Dusk 429]

27 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

Thanks, I don't forget my friends and individuals who helped me out when I was down. If you're feeling uneasy about something I am happy to comfort you about it, you know me, I came to your profile weeks ago wishing you to get well after you got back from hospital, that time when you were sick because of a problem with your digestive system, which you're still being treated for I'd imagine. We may not have the same opinions about everything, but I don't expect that, all I want is a friend, someone who won't judge others just because of an opinion about something they didn't like.

and I believe you're one of the few people on here I can safely say, are. Sure, I've interacted with others outside my friend circle on this forum, but most people here would only see things about users of this website at surface level, that I don't blame them for, everyone's got their own lives to worry about and I'm not here for a popularity contest.

Wow... you truly have a way with words... @Ice Princess Silky <3 do you mind making an honorable mention for this absolute poet here? I mean, come on! Who else can string words so beautifully like that? Who else can realize the horrors that we humans have faced and caused, and still remain positive? My overall point is, you are a true, TRUE friend. A slam dunk. A dependable person/pony. I could go on for the next year or so, and still not have enough explanations for just how wonderful and amazing you are, Dawnshine Wonder. I thank you, and the whole community thanks you for just being here.

 

A toast to our dependable and dear friend, @Dawnshine Wonder.

Edited Monday at 08:40 PM by Silent Dusk

[Ice Princess Silky <3 16,884]

22 minutes ago, Silent Dusk said:

Wow... you truly have a way with words... @Ice Princess Silky <3 do you mind making an honorable mention for this absolute poet here? I mean, come on! Who else can string words so beautifully like that? Who else can realize the horrors that we humans have faced and caused, and still remain positive? My overall point is, you are a true, TRUE friend. A slam dunk. A dependable person/pony. I could go on for the next year or so, and still not have enough explanations for just how wonderful and amazing you are, Dawnshine Wonder. I thank you, and the whole community thanks you for just being here.

 

A toast to our dependable and dear friend, @Dawnshine Wonder.

I am feeling rather warm and proud of the community for sharing this deep level of appreciation and kindness for each other. I will definitely let one of the mane 6 know about this and see which one may come forth for some honourable mention.  Well done @Dawnshine Wonder and to you, too @Silent Dusk.

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,577]

14 minutes ago, Ice Princess Silky &lt;3 said:

I am feeling rather warm and proud of the community for sharing this deep level of appreciation and kindness for each other. I will definitely let one of the mane 6 know about this and see which one may come forth for some honourable mention.  Well done @Dawnshine Wonder and to you, too @Silent Dusk.

I'm now involved in @Snoopy Fan's rolepay, surprisingly quite fun, I may even get some ideas for my fan fiction from this adventure, and it's helping to lift spirits some more.

Anyhow thank you Ice Princess Silky, you of all people here have been a big help toward all this, giving me a chance to interact with others more positively, and I hope I am not as negative as I was last time. I did complain about one or two things, I think since I came back to this forum, however I don't plan on making that a regular situation. I also encourage others to help me tone it down some if they notice me saying something which makes others feel uncomfortable even if unintentionally, because I think in the long run this does give me hope to rebuild relationships here with people and ensure healthy friendships then last a lifetime.

[Acinonyx 882]

Another melancholic introspection interval.  

[ExplosionMare 18,622]

@Dawnshine Wonder

A huge thing about healing is that you're working towards changing your mindset. You can't change the kinds of tribulations you may face, but you can change how you deal with them. In time things that used to terrify you may not scare you as much and you may find strength where there was once weakness.

I know what it's like to be haunted by traumas, it can really take a hold of you. It's not an easy thing to come out of, but it is manageable with the right help. I hope you get what you want out of therapy! I hope it helps you! Just remember that if you do get bad days even during the therapy, it doesn't mean all your days are gonna be bad. Life isn't this race towards perfection, it's very much a mix of ups and downs. You just have to take them as they come.  Life does have a meaning, too, and that's really up to you what it is! You just have to ask yourself what you'd like to see in the world.

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I'm doing fine, just a bit tired from the work day. I will probably feel a little less tired after dinner.

[Longhaul 7,236]

I'm having one of those 'I can't describe how I feel' moments, but if I had to try to define it, I guess I feel ... kinda flat emotionally.  Not up or down, just ... meh.  Maybe after I get some sleep I'll feel better.

[ZiggWheelsManning 12,500]

All that's gone on for Monday, it's time for bed.  

[ExplosionMare 18,622]

I'm a little confused about the flower event, I hope I did it right.

[Crypty Scribbles 5,902]

Was feeling great, but now feeling extremely anxious because of some RL event. I guess it's nothing serious, but was really unexpected. I think I just needed to vent a bit.

29 minutes ago, ExplosionMare said:

I'm a little confused about the flower event, I hope I did it right.

I'm pretty sure, you did uwu

On 2025-06-10 at 11:05 AM, Ice Princess Silky &lt;3 said:

also, @Crypty Scribbles remember that cute coincidence you told me about to encourage me on? Well, you were right. Fate seems to be kind to us. 

Nope, I have no idea what coincidence you are referring to.

There's too many of them.

Edited Tuesday at 11:27 AM by Crypty Scribbles

[Starset Twinkle 536]

Feeling kind of empty. I just finished another full watch through of FIM/EQG... I was doing 1 episode a day so it lasted more than 8 months. Now it's time to take a break from the show for a while. I'll miss it, but I know I'll love it more when I come back to it refreshed from hiatus. It's always about the journey..... sigh

[Snoopy Fan 5,660]

Better than yesterday but still not 100%

[Silent Dusk 429]

Pleasantly suprised.

I was just now playing one of my favorite PvP games back in the day. And I used to play real tactical, fussing over every little detail that could be Pivotal to the games succes. But recently I found that the dumber I play, the better I play. I'm talking like using a sniper as a shotgun and vise versa. Think running into a building that's about to be bombed is a bad idea? Do it, I did it and I managed to get a team wipe for making STUPID CHOICES. Why does it work? NO IDEA. But it does.