Count to a million

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There still is. I'm just stuck in a powerless position in my life where nothing I do matters except whatever I do just to satisfy a quota like a grade in school. I don't have any aspirations whatsoever. I don't care about my future anymore. I don't care for myself as a person.

I do this stuff on the Internet, I do art, I write, but it's actually doing more harm to my life than good. I have to think for myself. That's the problem. Contrary to what the corporate-industrial distractive media (and this to an extent includes MLP) and their fake individualist messages want you to believe, thinking is for the privileged. I'm not supposed to think. I'm supposed to do what I'm told. That's why I wish brain damage on myself, so that I don't question anymore and just do.

I don't want to spin these psychotic conspiracy theories or do these things anymore, but the urge is there. I enjoy them, but I'm not allowed to enjoy them. That's the problem.

To be fair, most people would probably not be open to the idea of Bronies, but yet we get away with that. You can believe what you want to believe, and do as you please.

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[Wind Chaser 4,768]

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That's the problem. It's too idealistic, and I'm too cynical. It has ruined my perception of reality and what I'm supposed to do. It's creating a conflict of interest.

 

I feel as if I don't belong here. I sometimes wish I could break away from MLP because of this. It's not because of not feeling welcome or feeling like nobody likes me. It's because my personality just does not belong here.

 

I really should thank MLP for opening my eyes to what most popular media today and this whole notion of an American Dream really are and why I hate it so much. To be totally honest, this show has been, at the same time, both a sign of hope and a sign of how messed up and unfair the world is. Look at how all the ponies are portrayed as successful in their lives. Look at my constant ranting at how poor male representation in the show is. Most of all, look at how there are no adult blank flanks.

 

I don't really know anymore. It's like I love this show and I hate it at the same time. -_-

Edited November 9, 2014 by NIGHTWIND BOREAS #1

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To each is his own, Wind.

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I apologise for my comment a few posts ago. My mood has been turbulent to say the least for the past few days and I wasn't thinking straight when I posted that. This thread really isn't the right place for me to come and vent my bitterness towards myself.

 

Wind, I can relate to your feelings as I often feel the same way. I'm open to talk if you want to message me. I'm not sure how much advice I can give but I'll give all that I can.

Edited November 9, 2014 by SonicRainboom27

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Palindrome number.

[Wind Chaser 4,768]

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Thank you for your concern, everypony.

 

However, there's a problem here at play that I think can be resolved by talking to our analysts about the show. I've got an idea of who to go to with that.

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Ok.

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I'm going to bed. I have to be up very early for volunteering tomorrow and it's already gone 2am.

 

Goodnight everypony.

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Night 27

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Well, that was probably the silliest hockey game I have ever watched.

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That's the problem. It's too idealistic, and I'm too cynical. It has ruined my perception of reality and what I'm supposed to do. It's creating a conflict of interest.

I feel as if I don't belong here. I sometimes wish I could break away from MLP because of this. It's not because of not feeling welcome or feeling like nobody likes me. It's because my personality just does not belong here.

I really should thank MLP for opening my eyes to what most popular media today and this whole notion of an American Dream really are and why I hate it so much. To be totally honest, this show has been, at the same time, both a sign of hope and a sign of how messed up and unfair the world is. Look at how all the ponies are portrayed as successful in their lives. Look at my constant ranting at how poor male representation in the show is. Most of all, look at how there are no adult blank flanks.

I don't really know anymore. It's like I love this show and I hate it at the same time. -_-

Well, this whole post...I raised some important points that I've been thinking about for a while, and now I'm talking about this with a couple of the analysts on this site. It's serious business and this might change the way I look at this show forever, it might affect how I post here as well.

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The thing is, are they analysts actually able to make any sort of change in the show?

 

Buffalo Sabres NEED A TOTAL OVERHAUL!!! This is just ridiculous at this point.

Edited November 9, 2014 by Overdrive

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Not exactly. But they will help me to interpret themes in the show and possibly make suggestions for anything else I should consider taking a look at. I need their expertise in that to help me with how I see this show and this fandom.

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I don't mean this offensively, but is there any chance that you're overthinking it?

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Not really. This is how I've felt for a long time about this show. I don't enjoy this show by watching passively. I have to think about it, and the problem is I don't have to go that deep to find these problems. While I'll accept them if they were minor problems, they are constant problems that have regularly recurred over the past season. It's now become a major issue to me. Despite the successes, these misgivings have remained constant.

 

The whole culture of self-image this show promotes, along with the images of successful ponies it pushes, really make it tough for me to see it the same way I did before Season 3-4. There really are some messages that they should be testing that aren't even that touchy. If they continue to dodge them, that might cost the show some legitimacy in my view.

 

On a personal level, it'll be hard because there is nothing that will replace MLP, but I feel as if I need a break from this show and this fandom. It's been a contributor to my emotional distress and I think it's time to just step away and fight the urge to come back for a while.