mega thread What are you thinking?

[Snoopy Fan 5,985]

What will my viewers think of my upcoming YouTube videos.

[Slumberlumber 885]

5 minutes ago, Octavia Scratch said:

Its raining over here so I'm snuggled up with a blanket

It's warm now, at last. (Though I know I'll regret those words in a few days or week.)

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,636]

I don't like bringing this up online with people, especially this forum of all places, and for the first time in months since I joined, I bring up current family issues here.

I won't mention the real names of people involved for privacy reasons, however I am not happy with how my so called "Carer" berates me for the smallest things. The problem is unless others hear both sides of it they're likely to take her word as gospel and yes, this has happened before about a separate issue and I think she banks on the idea that because of my learning disability, others will take her side all the time and it usually works in her favor, but I am sick of this, I will be taking another beta blocker in a moment to get my anxiety down, but the short version of this is I cannot trust her. All I did was told her I was about to hide a mess of wires with larger monitor in my room, and she made a drama out of it by raising her voice for no reason. She may have her own problems which have nothing to do with me, but I cannot deal with the negativity, the same issue will happen again and again and it is draining on my mental health to deal with this.

 

 

[Raskolnikov 1,032]

3 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

I don't like bringing this up online with people, especially this forum of all places, and for the first time in months since I joined, I bring up current family issues here.

I won't mention the real names of people involved for privacy reasons, however I am not happy with how my so called "Carer" berates me for the smallest things. The problem is unless others hear both sides of it they're likely to take her word as gospel and yes, this has happened before about a separate issue and I think she banks on the idea that because of my learning disability, others will take her side all the time and it usually works in her favor, but I am sick of this, I will be taking another beta blocker in a moment to get my anxiety down, but the short version of this is I cannot trust her. All I did was told her I was about to hide a mess of wires with larger monitor in my room, and she made a drama out of it by raising her voice for no reason. She may have her own problems which have nothing to do with me, but I cannot deal with the negativity, the same issue will happen again and again and it is draining on my mental health to deal with this.

 

 

She should be fired. Period.

Abusive carers get no sympathy from me, especially ones infantilising the people in their care. Disgusting and dehumanising behaviour, you should not have to self-medicate to deal with the stress of someone who is supposed to be helping with your quality of life.

I did wonder before as the carer profession is known to be full of abuse. Sorry you have to deal with that... :\

And by the way there is nothing wrong with needing a carer; people don't realise they are one accident away from disability, or that all it will take is time for them to need one in the future. There is no shame in it. Don't worry at all about bringing it up here, anyone having a problem with it can shove it.

[Raskolnikov 1,032]

45 minutes ago, Dawnshine Wonder said:

I want to get my own place, unfortunately for the time being I am stuck in a Council estate where there are waiting lists for moving home.

I had to terminate a conversation with somebody in my home by walking out of the room because she kept raising her voice at me, I am annoyed with the way she treats me sometimes. I cannot have a normal conversation with her because when she raises her voice she is not a pleasant individual to be around, it becomes doubly aggravating when she blames me for it, accusing me of not letting her get a word in, when I do. I like my brothers but not her, she may be my Carer for the moment but at this point I'd rather be on my own because of all the negativity with her.

And she is not the only relative in the family who has treated me like this. This is the definition of a broken home, now I realize the reason why I used to be so short tempered, her influence.

I missed this post, I see. Is the carer a family member... ughhhh. Yeah abusive family members are a surefire way to get anger issues 🙃

[Snoopy Fan 5,985]

I shouldn’t have taken a walk outside. Now my allergies are acting up.

[ComanderZhabikKlavik 4,147]

Is it just me or is my discipline starting to wane a little?! Time to watch the David Goggins video again. I can't slow down, I need to pick up the pace. There should always be discipline, discipline needs to be increased! 

Edited May 27 by ComanderZhabikKlavik

[Raskolnikov 1,032]

Sister's mum is sending me some New Age stuff... uh, I appreciate the thoughtfulness, but you don't want to get me started on this stuff...

[ZiggWheelsManning 12,625]

Day 2 on the final week with Lestor Holt as the anchorman.  

[Tao 8,627]

I got some stuff done and got some answers at least...

[Dawnshine Wonder 2,636]

Perhaps it wasn't a good idea to be bringing up my family problems here, as aggravating as they can be to deal with from time to time for anyone involved, it's not like complaining about it here will change what happened. Fortunately it does not happen every day, only occasionally, , however the anger had built up so much that I had to release it somewhere without turning violent, that is how I deal with anger now, I use words, not fists. Sometimes if I'm upset about something I would watch a horror movie, sometimes when I am not angry at all I would still watch movies, horror genre or not, the last horror one I rewatched was A Nightmare on Elm St part 1. I find these outlets to spill the negative energy without causing somebody else pain.

 

 

[Snoopy Fan 5,985]

What will I end up dreaming about tonight?

[Acinonyx 1,071]

That moment when you're walking a empty darkened section of the hospital and you hear what sounds like someone's last rasping breaths coming from a nearby room but then you realise someone had simply left a tap on a trickle. This place will keep you on your toes.

[Slumberlumber 885]

3 minutes ago, Acinonyx said:

That moment when you're walking a empty darkened section of the hospital and you hear what sounds like someone's last rasping breaths coming from a nearby room but then you realise someone had simply left a tap on a trickle. This place will keep you on your toes.

Bruh your just having quiet the day aren't you.

[Street Light 386]

i posted a LOT of music today :3 i usually do not do this!! somewhat anxious uwu the fear of other ponies knowing what i listen to! guh!   

i've also really come like the  emoji :3

[Acinonyx 1,071]

8 minutes ago, Slumberlumber said:

Bruh your just having quiet the day aren't you.

It's what makes life worth living.

[Slumberlumber 885]

Moments ago, Acinonyx said:

It's what makes life worth living.

I bet.

[Sparklefan1234 177,602]

I’m just thinking about green Jell-o. 😳

[Cash In 22,894]

I gotta remember to return those books to the library.

[Bairro M Vagrant 1,456]

My embarrassing and sinful urges are sooooooooooo STRONG these days, must find a way that doesn't consume too much my strength to calm down

[Raskolnikov 1,032]

7 minutes ago, Bairro M Vagrant said:

My embarrassing and sinful urges are sooooooooooo STRONG these days, must find a way that doesn't consume too much my strength to calm down

I understand, I feel this when I see wrong opinions online... 😔

[Night Sky 729]

19 hours ago, Snoopy Fan said:

What will my viewers think of my upcoming YouTube videos.

Been wondering this myself lately.

[Snoopy Fan 5,985]

4 hours ago, Sparklefan1234 said:

I’m just thinking about green Jell-o. 😳

How DO they make it green?

[Raskolnikov 1,032]

Naked jam? Ewww why is the jam naked?

[Bairro M Vagrant 1,456]

3 minutes ago, Raskolnikov said:

Naked jam? Ewww why is the jam naked?

They don't normally wear clothes