Oh wow. I read this thread and can see that I'm not the only one. Thanks poneys, I love you.
Well, actually I was in very similar story but from the opposite side.
Long story short. Many years ago I had a good friend here who I truly enjoyed to talk to. But as my life in general was turning into shit with speed of Rainbow Dash some psychological disorder happened to me and I was escaping to fantasy where our friendship may grow into something. When I knew she met someone special I felt like world is ruined "...and hurtful words were said, flaring temper were inflamed..."(one well known song). I told her many mean things. Everything were ruined pretty quickly.
I stayed here couple years more and even met some great people who I grateful for great moments of my life, staying here were reminding me about my moment of shame so I quit, stopped watching MLP and even dropped my passion to art.
I hated myself until a therapist gave me an explanation what happened, not so long time ago. And even if it strongly reduced the feeling of burning shame I still feel sorry that she was around when I lost control, she didn't deserve it. Well I learn my friendship lessons the hard way. >w<
Meanwhile, it seems I handled my demons so the brand new Crypty is back again. Missed the MLP G4 grand finale, but still intending to have true fun ^-^ Cheers