Artimis Whooves

I don't know where else I could post something like this, so sorry if it makes some people uncomfortable.

I miss my Dad so  much right now  I never got to spend enough time with him.

I was listening to music on youtube and the song "Kriptonite" by three doors down popped up in the suggestions. I started listening to it and I got sad because it reminded me of when we would hang out (we would listen to music like that). We would do things like watch cartoons (He's the one who got me into anime, we would sit up untill 1 in the morning watching one piece and full metal alchemist together) and movies, play games, and other stuff like that. 

^ this is him, most awesome person I ever knew. He was always there for me when I needed him. He had the nickname "Hook" as well.

He past away when I was 9 due to a motorcycle accedent. I didn't show a reaction when I found out, in fact I showed no reaction at all. I didn't feel anything either, that's when my mom figured out something was wrong. After the funeral and everything had passed, my mom put me into therapy to try and find out what was wrong. I was later identified as an aspie (Enough of that, that'll just lead into another story).

It was odd, I didn't greave at the time (I guess I'm doing it now). It was just sort of, I don't know, I just was okay with it off the bat I guess? I knew he was dead, and that nothing I could do would change that. 

It wasn't untill a couple of years later that I found out what had happened to him (I didn't know it was a motorcycle accedent when I first was told he had passed) and the thought that the accedent was my fault popped into my head. Let me back up a bit and explain. I was the last one to see him alive, He had picked me up to go to his house for the weekend (He and my mom were seperated) and we rode on his motorcycle. I had a lot of fun that weekend. He had to take me back home on sunday, but it would be too cold to ride the motorcycle on my way home that night so that day we rode it to my grandma's house and borrowed her SUV so he could take me home later. On my way home we stopped at Mc donald's (Something I only got to do with my dad at the time because my mom wouldn't ever take me and my sisters) and they were giving out these "idog" (yea, remember those?) toys with stickers. And I went off track. Anyway, once he got me home, he took the SUV back to my grandma's and got his motorcycle to take back to his house. On his way home the accedent happened (I'll spare the details because, even thinking about what happened makes me sick). 

The thought has stuck in the back of my mind for a long time. I recently became depressed and that's just made it even worse.

^Here he is on his motorcycle. I later enhereted it when I turned 16. I still have no idea how to drive the thing and it's been 2 years.

I just miss him so much I started crying twice while writing this.

Here's him at his friend Lisa's wedding. He always looked cool.

I think, I think I should share some happy moments I've had with him, as well as some stories I've been told. How does that sound? 

He got the nickname "Hook" because while he was on a job site (He was a carpenter and a roofer) he slid off the edge of a roof and caught himself on the gutter with just a couple of fingers.

I used to go to work with him sometimes,  I always had fun .

He had a neighbor who had a trampoline and he would let us jump on it sometimes (it was one of those big and thick ones that even adults could jump on) my sisters and I would sit on it and he would jump on it and it would make us bounce around. 

I don't remember what the name of the movie was, but one time he had an avengers movie, but it was a cartoon. He let me stay up and watch it with him and I was happy just to be in there sitting with him 

Ya'know, writing this post is helping me feel better. My heart goes out to you guys, any of you who've lost somebody close to you and the like.

Oh, a funny thing I just remembered; When I started watching the show and I told my mom about it, she laughed and told me that he would watch 80's mlp movies(?).

Well, I've run out of things to say here, would you guys want to hear more about him or anything?

I think he'd really like you guys.