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I was just at the local pride, and while the atmosphere there was nice and positive, and the music wasn't bad even if i didn't really care for the lyrics, it didn't end up making me happier, quite the opposite actually, I cried when I got home. Because watching all the people having fun and enjoying their time with friends, really made me realize just how alone I am in reality, and have always been, and probably will be forever.Sure I have a friend, but while long lasting, it's not really that close of a friendship, you won't see us being silly with each other, online friends? sure, but they can't pull you into a half-hug and make a stupid joke about you. The truth is, I have never had anyone I feel close enough to be myself with. Some may ask what about my family? But even though they are great, they cannot provide that kind of connection.
Now, I'm not an idiot, I know someone like that won't just walk in my apartment, but there really isn't any real options, I'm too introverted and cowardly to approach anyone randomly, all events/hobbies are in weekdays so I'm either at work or dead tired from work, and most importantly, I don't drink alcohol.
The last part may sound random, but it is an actual problem, Finns are drunks, bars are the most common place for people to meet, and sure "need to go outside comfort zone" and blah blah, but seriously, by what chance, a person that doesn't like alcohol, doesn't care for sports, and doesn't like being surrounded by drunk people, would find any kind of fitting company in a bar? (ice hockey is big in Finland)
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Awwww I'm sorry to hear about your social anxiety. Goodness, it can be SOOOO nerve-wracking to have to overcome such introversion and shyness.. there's nothing wrong with you, okay? That's totally normal and even happens to extroverted people like myself @.@ it's soo soo scary and yes, it does look easy but you have to fiercely overcome a lot of that inhibiting shyness.
My DMs are always open if you'd like to further discuss these complications. I can see you're really sincere about getting out there and trying. I also find you to be VERY brave about coming out with these information. Even though you didn't enjoy the Pride as much as you'd have liked, they can really show us some ideals as to what we would like to have in our lives and that's already a good step in the right direction. - Show next comments 3 more