Lunar Echo

Sorry to hear that, i don't really know what I could say so. 

There is also this feeling to just lose it and go out of control, a giving up entirely type of control.

  Well, Life is always going to have a significant amount of things wrong with it. I watch alot of reviewers & critics & riffers who's entire job depends on atrocious actors, dumb directors and scummy screenplays. Bad CAN lead to good.

  I hate my life even more when everything gets handed to me & there isn't any adversity or choices for me to take, even If I fret myself senseless when I do have a choice.

  Technically speaking the world is always doomed. The world or your life could end at any moment. (heh, sorry if that's too dour!) But there's some bittersweet beauty to that, isn't there? That your life is so precious & unique, that whatever you do with it is worthwhile in the pristine beauty of knowing that it won't ever happen again by virtue of you being the one to experience it. Take those cat pics that Cerberus keeps posting! (...wait, why is a dog analogy spewing forth pro-cat photos?) Look how tiny & delicate that kitten is! You think something that smol can fend for itself in the wilds? The pets you have or had have or will have have you as their world. Nay, the relationships & friends & experiences you make in this world are a unique thing that exist because of what you did, no matter how little it may have meant to you.

Control, I feel, is a bit of an illusion. Focus too much on trying to control your life & you wind up with too much stress. Better to work with what you got given to you.

I won't argue that this world isn't a miserable place or that your feelings of negativity aren't right. But that's what I love about dysfunction, it lets you know where Light is.

  "My world's on fire, how about yours? But that's the way I like it, 'cause I'll never get bored."