twiia

Today... my rabbit Oreo died. He still had a good 5 or 6 years before him, and he died suddenly in what appeared to be sleep. He was one of the only ones who wouldn't mind me venting, and petting him almost always makes me feel better. He was also really cute. Worst of all... my family blames me for his death. I already have enough to deal with, but grief, with a side of blame, is making this worse. I can't bring myself to finish 12 commissions, when Oreo's on my mind. Still don't know the cause of death. Yesterday, I noticed he had blood on his nose and he wasn't jumping around outside and he rejected our greens and ate grass instead. His heart seemed to be beating faster than normal. He also seemed abnormally warm, like he was running a fever. But... maybe his death is my fault. I was the one who first noticed the symptoms. I should have told my parents, but I didn't, and simply tried to convince myself it was nothing. I know my dad thinks it's illogical to take anything other than a dog or cat to the vet, but he said that in extreme circumstances, we would rush over to the nearest vet (only about 15 minutes away). So... maybe I am the one to blame. And I need to finish 12 commissions... can I have some time to... grieve and then try getting over my eh, issues.