Bright Honor

A bit tired but relaxed. Excited for a party i am attending today.

Those are some great designs. I like their manes a lot.

Hi guys! @Cash In hope you are doing well buddy! @Nitobit how’s Deep Rock Galactic treating you? @Sophie Sophie!!! *squee* try any delicious deserts? What’s your favorite @Ice Princess Silky <3 Hey Hey! How’s you? Read any good books lately? @Samurai Equine you see the new One Punch Man season 3 trailer?!

Hello everyone. I hope you are all doing well. This week has had me in thought. I have been thinking about the forum. Specifically...how i have treated you all. and if we are being honest it hasn't always been great. and that includes not being great to the staff sometimes. and i feel like i need to talk about it. In the past, especially late 2010s, I haven't always been good to you all. I can go on and on about my IRL problems that cause me to be like how i was/am but that isn't the point here. The cold, hard truth is i have mistreated this forum. I have been rude, weird, aggressive, cynical, negative to this lovely forum. Arguing, causing drama needlessly, putting others in uncomfortable positions. posting aggressive, very depressing statuses, making others feel depressed by dumping my own problems unto them. I have even taken the kindness of others, staff included, for granted. and i had no right. Lately i have made some progress in terms of being better and not causing problems but the problems i have caused happened regardless. I am sorry the monster that i was, and still can be sometimes. i don't mean to be a monster. i have a lot of rage against this world. and unfortunately sometimes i took that out on you guys. and that is never acceptable. Sorry can't even remotely cover or change all that i have done.but i should say it anyway. To the staff of this wonderful forum, I am truly sorry for any and all issues i have caused. and for getting defensive/taking things too personally when in reality you're just trying to help me be the best person i can be. the best friends will hold you accountable and hit you with the real, raw stuff when they need to. I should be more appreciative of that. and will try my best to be. You guys are amazing. The work you do here is wonderful. I am sorry to all the non-staff members too. You guys deserve safety and positivity. I hope you all feel safe and happy here. I truly do. Lately, I have been thinking of myself when i was younger. I miss that little, young, happy, and docile me and i am sorry that i haven't always shown that side of me. I miss him. I want to try and bring him back as best as i can. Sometimes, I don't know how to though... Thank you all for putting up with me, even though you shouldn't have to and don't owe me anything. I appreciate everyone who has been supportive of me, even if i haven't always done a great job of showing it. I wish you all safety, love, kindness, happiness, and all you deserve.

Dunno if i have ever interacted with him but may he rest in peace. Sorry for your loss.

Thinking about plans for next month. Hmm.

Tired, really frustrated with work.

Seeing today’s haldheld landscape, specifically how large and expensive handhelds have gotten and how expensive games in general have gotten has really made me appreciate the 3DS during it’s time.

Interesting. I am guessing this will be something where ponies come to the human world but stay as ponies?

Happy Gilmore 2 on Netflix. Decent movie.

Thinking about bills and my bday.

Mainly Fortnite and Warzone.

Hmm i say i am trying my best. I sometimes feel inadequate. Maybe i am too harsh on myself. There are parts of myself i do not like and i do my best to work on them.

Howdy. Hope you all been well. wanted to say some things. Things have been improving a bit this year but truth is it got off on a pretty bad stuff. Won’t go i to detail but let’s say that it hurt pretty bad. I came to a realization: at the end of the day, i just wanna be me. That’s the only person i know how to be. That doesn’t mean close the door on -constructive- criticism and the like, but i feel like it’s time i put myself first for a change. To choose me. As Bruce Lee once said, “Have the courage to be disliked.” This isn’t targeted at anyone specific, so i hope nopony gets offended when seeing this. It’s more to do with family than anything. If so, then i am sorry. I’ll still be noble, kind, helpful as i can be. It’s just time to get rid of some things that don’t serve me, such as my old obsession with finding love and so on. I don’t need to live up to anyone else’s standards. It’s time to set boundaries such as no unsolicited advice anymore, especially from family members. ”There’s nobody i’d rather be, than me.” -Wreck-It Ralph. That said, i hope we can continue to grow healthy friendships together. Happy Dunday everyone.

Thinking about about the zoo trip for Saturday.

FNAF Secret of the Mimic and Fortnite.

Feeling pretty good. Got fitted for my wedding tux yesterday and going to a state park/reservoir today. Good good overall.

Oh my def a fan on that canon. Also, welcome to the forums to you both!