Dior

Loving her is beautiful but painfully complex, especially when the reality is that we’re not together. The hardest part is the constant back-and-forth of hope and doubt that plays in my mind. I find myself daydreaming about what it could be like if we were more than friends, yet that daydream often feels like a cruel tease. I catch myself imagining her smile lighting up my world every day, but the fear of unreciprocated feelings looms over me like a dark cloud, making it hard to enjoy the moments we share.

There are times when I feel so close to her like our conversations are dancing on the edge of something deeper. I can almost feel the connection crackling in the air, but then I pull back, worrying that I’m reading too much into it. The tension between what I want and what is drives me to distraction. It’s exhausting to constantly question whether I’m just another friend to her or if she might see me as something more.

Loving her feels like standing on the edge of a cliff, staring into a vast ocean of emotions that both exhilarates and terrifies me. Every moment spent together is like a wave crashing over my heart, filling me with warmth and light. But with that joy comes an undercurrent of anxiety, a fear of the unknown that pulls at me relentlessly. I can’t help but replay our interactions, searching for signs that she feels the same intensity that consumes me. It’s a bittersweet game of hope and doubt, where every shared laugh brightens my day, yet the silence that follows can feel suffocating. Each time I see her smile, it lights up the darkest corners of my mind, but then the doubts creep in. I wonder if I’m reading too much into our moments together. Is there a spark, or am I imagining things? The fear of unrequited feelings lingers like a shadow, reminding me that what I feel might not be mutual. It’s painful to think that this beautiful connection could remain one-sided, turning my heart’s light into a chill of loneliness. Loving her feels like a double-edged sword. The highs are exhilarating, but the lows can be crushing. I remember a day when we shared an incredible conversation, the kind that makes you forget the world outside. In those moments, I felt invincible, as if nothing could come between us. But later, as the day wound down, the weight of reality settled in, and I couldn’t shake the thought that this happiness might not last. The fear of losing her looms large, casting a shadow over every delightful memory we create together.

There are nights when I lie awake, replaying memories of us in my mind, the sound of her laughter echoing like a sweet song. Yet, amidst those cherished thoughts, a dark cloud of anxiety hangs over me. What if she doesn’t want the same future I do? What if I’m left standing alone, clutching onto a love that was never meant to be? The very thought tightens my chest, making it hard to breathe as I wrestle with the desire to protect my heart while yearning to give it fully to her. When I think about the future, I feel torn. Part of me dreams of a life filled with shared adventures, of waking up to her smile and creating memories together. But another part whispers that those dreams could remain just that—dreams. The possibility of heartbreak looms large, casting a shadow over my brightest hopes. Each moment of connection we share feels like a fragile treasure, and I can’t help but wonder if it’s enough. Every time I see her interacting with others, a rush of admiration floods over me, mixed with a tinge of jealousy. I want to be the one who makes her laugh, the one who holds her close and shares in her joys. But then I question my place in her life, wondering if I’m just a fleeting moment in her story or something more significant. That uncertainty weighs heavily on my heart, making it hard to focus on the beauty of our connection.

Sometimes, I catch myself daydreaming about us. what it would be like to tell her how I feel, to hold her hand and explore this spark between us. Yet those dreams often come with the harsh reality that they might never pass. The ache of deeply wanting her, combined with the fear of never truly having her, creates an exhausting tension. It feels isolating as if I’m trapped in a glass box, watching the world move around me while I grapple with my feelings. Each moment of hesitation feels like a choice between love and fear, joy and pain. I want to take that leap and tell her how I feel, but the stakes are impossibly high. What if my confession changes everything? What if it breaks the delicate bond we’ve built? The thought sends shivers down my spine, and I find myself caught in a cycle of overthinking, unable to break free.

Yet, despite the fear and uncertainty, I know I can’t suppress these feelings forever. The love I have for her is too profound to ignore. I want to embrace it, to let it wash over me, even if it brings the potential for heartache. There’s a beauty in vulnerability, in the act of loving deeply, even when it’s scary. I remind myself that every great love story carries its share of risks, and perhaps it’s worth it to take that leap of faith. In the end, I realize that love, in all its complexity, is what makes us truly alive. Yes, it can hurt; yes, it can bring uncertainty. But the joy it brings, the moments of connection, laughter, and shared dreams, make the risk worthwhile. I hold onto the hope that, no matter what happens, this love will have shaped me, taught me resilience, and shown me the depths of my own heart. And maybe, just maybe, that’s enough.

26,000 polar bears

G'night

Morning

Hey everyone, as I wind down for the night and think about today, I'm feeling a mix of emotions. Today is typically a joyful day for most people, but for me, it's a reminder of my dear friend who passed away. Right now, being active in the forums is adding to my stress, no matter how hard I try to put on a brave face and engage with all of you. I've decided to take a break to grieve and process everything. I'm not sure when I'll be back, but I need to prioritize my well-being for now. I'll miss the friends I've made here, but I want to assure you that I'm not leaving forever – I'm just taking a break. Take care, and I'll see you all when I return.

See you on the flip side.

Happy Birthday! I hope your special day is filled with joy, laughter, and all your favorite things. Birthdays are such a wonderful time to reflect on the past year and celebrate everything that makes you unique. Whether you’re spending the day with friends, and family, or just treating yourself, I hope it’s truly amazing! May this year bring you exciting new adventures, opportunities, and lots of happiness. Enjoy every moment of your celebration, and here’s to making great memories! Wishing you all the best for the year ahead.  Have a fantastic day!

I feel like I need to share what’s been weighing on my heart lately. Sometimes it feels like the world is a heavy place, and I want to be honest about how I’ve been feeling. I know I’m not the only one who struggles, and maybe my words can resonate with someone else out there. Lately, I’ve been grappling with a deep sense of loneliness. It’s strange because I’m surrounded by friends and family, yet there are days when I feel like I’m invisible. I put on a brave face, but inside, I’m just aching for someone to see me, to see me. It’s hard to express this without feeling vulnerable, but I believe it’s important to share these feelings. There are times when I feel overwhelmed by sadness, like a heavy fog that just won’t lift. It can hit me out of nowhere, catching me off guard when I least expect it. One minute, I might be laughing with friends, and the next, I’m drowning in a wave of despair. I wonder if anyone else feels this way or if I’m just being dramatic.I remember a particular day when everything felt too much. I had a rough day at school—tests, arguments with friends, and feeling like I wasn’t good enough. When I got home, I went straight to my room, closed the door, and just sat there. Tears streamed down my face as I struggled to catch my breath. I felt so lost and alone in my pain.

At that moment, I thought about all the things I wish I could say out loud. I wanted to scream, to shout about how overwhelmed I felt. I wish I could tell someone how exhausting it is to pretend that everything is fine when it isn’t. But the words just wouldn’t come. I felt trapped in my silence. So, I turned to my journal. Writing has always been a refuge for me, a place where I can let my feelings spill onto the page. As I wrote about my struggles, I felt a tiny bit of relief. It’s as if each word carried away a little piece of the weight I was carrying. I wrote about my fears, my insecurities, and my longing for connection.

I often think about how hard it is to ask for help. There’s this fear of being seen as weak or burdensome. I’ve trained myself to put on a brave face, to act like I have everything under control. But inside, I’m just a kid trying to navigate a world that feels so big and overwhelming. I know I shouldn’t feel ashamed, yet it’s hard to shake off that feeling. Sometimes, I lie awake at night, staring at the ceiling, wishing for things to be different. I think about my dreams and aspirations, but doubt creeps in, whispering that I’m not good enough or that I’ll never achieve them. It’s a painful cycle, and I wonder how many others share this struggle. 

I’ve realized that even small moments of kindness can have a huge impact. I want to encourage anyone who feels lost or sad to reach out. It’s okay to let your guard down and ask for help. Whether it’s talking to a friend, a family member, or even a teacher, sharing your feelings can lift some of that weight off your shoulders. You deserve to be heard and understood.

As I think about the future, I hold onto hope. I know that life is a journey filled with ups and downs, and I’m learning to embrace the uncertainty. I want to be brave enough to face my fears, to chase my dreams, and to believe in myself, even when it’s hard. I want to remind everyone that it’s okay to feel what you feel. Sadness, loneliness, and confusion are all part of being human. We don’t have to pretend to be perfect or have it all figured out. Sometimes, just surviving each day is an accomplishment in itself. To anyone reading this, I hope you know that you matter. Your feelings are valid, and you don’t have to go through this alone. There’s a community here that understands, and I encourage you to lean on it. Let’s create a space where we can share our struggles and lift each other. I want to say thank you for listening. Writing this has helped me process my feelings, and I hope it resonates with someone out there. We all have our battles, but together, we can find strength and healing. You are not alone in this journey.

This past year has been especially tough because I lost a friend to suicide. Losing them felt like the ground dropped out from under me. One day they were here, laughing and full of life, and the next, they were gone. It’s a pain I can’t fully describe like a gaping hole in my heart that just won’t heal. I keep replaying memories in my head, wishing I could go back and somehow help them. I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt. I kept asking myself if I missed the signs if I could have done something to save them. It’s a heavy burden to carry, and it’s hard not to blame myself for not being able to reach them when they needed help the most. I realized that many people around us are fighting battles we can’t see, and it breaks my heart to think that my friend felt so alone. I miss her. I truly do

Here is a section dedicated to Moch.

To my beloved friend Moch,

It’s hard to find the right words to express the depth of my sorrow and the emptiness I feel without you. You were more than just a friend; you were a shining light in my life, illuminating even the darkest days with your laughter and warmth. Your kindness and compassion touched everyone you met, and your spirit was a beautiful gift to us all. I wish I had been able to show you the same support you gave to so many of us. Your absence leaves a void in my heart, a silence that echoes where your laughter once was. I keep replaying memories in my mind, wishing I could relive those moments, to tell you how much you meant to me, and to remind you that you were never a burden. You deserve love, understanding, and joy every single day. The news of your passing shattered my world, and I find myself grappling with a whirlwind of emotions—sadness, anger, confusion. I keep asking myself if there were signs I missed or if there was something I could have done to help you. It’s a painful cycle of “what ifs” and “if only” that I know I will struggle with for a long time. You should be here with us, and the world feels a little dimmer without your light. I want to dedicate this moment to you, Moch, to celebrate the incredible person you were. Your laughter could fill a room, and your heart was so big. You had dreams and aspirations that inspired everyone around you, and it’s heartbreaking to think those dreams will remain unfulfilled. I will carry your memory with me, sharing your story to remind others of the importance of reaching out and being there for one another.

I’ve learned that it's crucial to talk about our feelings, to check in on those we love, and to break the silence around mental health. You deserve to be remembered for the joy you brought into our lives, but also as a reminder that it’s okay to not be okay. I promise to honor you by spreading awareness, encouraging open conversations, and being a friend to those who are struggling. Though you are no longer here physically, your spirit will always remain with me. I see you in the sunrises, in the laughter of friends, and in the quiet moments of reflection. I will hold onto the lessons you taught me about kindness and love, and I will strive to be a better friend because of you. Moch, you mattered. You were loved deeply, and you will never be forgotten. I hope you have found peace, wherever you are, and I hope you know how much you were cherished. Your light will continue to shine in our hearts, and we will carry your memory forward, always. It’s hard to think about a world without you, but I’ll keep you in my heart forever. I’ll remember you every time I see a sunset, hear a funny song, or just think about our good times. You’re a part of me, and I’ll never forget you. I think about how important it is for us to talk about our feelings. Moch taught me that it’s okay to not be okay, and I wish I had encouraged her to share more of what she was going through. If you’re feeling sad or lost, please reach out to someone. You never know how much it can help to just talk about what you’re feeling. I want to carry Moch’s spirit with me and be that friend who listens, who cares, and who makes sure no one feels alone.

To everyone reading this, please take care of each other. Life can be tough, and we need to look out for one another. Let’s create a world where we can be open about our feelings and support each other through the hard times. Moch would want that for all of us.

I want to keep your spirit alive by sharing our memories. I’ll tell stories about you and all the fun we had, and I hope that others will do the same. You deserve to be remembered as the amazing person you were. You made an impact on so many lives, and I want to honor that by being a better friend, just like you were to me.

Princess Luna gallery for Moch.

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This is Moch. This Blank Profile you see behold you was Moch's She would post here almost every day, and She loved it here You may have not known her but she knew almost who everybody was. She convinced me to finally join on October 14 two days before her death. 

I wish she was still here posting her status updates, I wish she knew how much the forums liked her She expressed feeling that nobody in the forums liked her, She thought she was some annoying bug in the forums she thought she wouldn't be missed on the forums and in real life

I remember telling "her not to worry if people on the forums don't like you, it's just online. But I know they do you're so funny."

She would be posting one of her ominous status updates with her Princess Luna pfp and banner updating you about her life or just being silly hoping to make someone laugh. 

My one simple ask is if you see this please post a princess luna picture on her page, it will be her roses, something to keep her spirit alive on the forums. 

@Moch You can find the account right here.

Good day everybody.

Happy Birthday!  I know we haven’t talked before, but I just wanted to say I hope you have an awesome day! Birthdays are the best, and you deserve to have a blast today! I hope you get to hang out with friends, eat a ton of cake, and maybe even open some cool presents. It’s a special day, so make sure you enjoy every moment! 

As you celebrate, think about all the fun things you want to do this year. Whether it’s trying out a new hobby, going on adventures, or just having a great time with friends, I hope it’s all amazing! So here’s to a fantastic birthday filled with laughter, fun, and all your favorite things. Have the best day ever!  

Happy Birthday! Even though we haven't met yet, I just had to take a moment to celebrate you on your special day! Birthdays are awesome, and I hope yours is filled with joy, laughter, and everything that makes you smile. As you look back on the past year, I hope you can be proud of all the things you've achieved and experienced. Every year brings new opportunities, and I’m sure this one will be no different. May it be full of exciting adventures, personal growth, and moments that make you happy. I hope today lets you enjoy your favorite things, whether it's digging into delicious cake, hanging out with friends and family, or simply taking some time for yourself to do something you love. It’s all about celebrating what brings you joy, and I hope you get to savor every moment.

As you step into this new year of life, remember to embrace the journey ahead. Take chances, explore new interests, and don’t be afraid to chase your dreams. Life is full of possibilities, and I truly believe this year holds wonderful experiences just waiting for you. So here’s to you on your birthday! May it be filled with all the things that bring you happiness and contentment. Enjoy every minute, make beautiful memories, and know that even from afar, someone is wishing you the best on this special day!  

Happy Birthday!  Today is a celebration of you, a day to honor all the wonderful things that make you unique and special. As you mark another year in your journey, take a moment to reflect on the incredible experiences that have shaped you and the beautiful memories you’ve created along the way.

Birthdays are not just about counting years; they’re about celebrating the milestones you’ve achieved, the challenges you’ve overcome, and the growth you’ve experienced. It’s a time to look back with gratitude and forward with excitement. May this year ahead be filled with new adventures, inspiring opportunities, and the joy of pursuing your passions.

As you spend time with friends and family today, I hope you feel surrounded by love and appreciation. You bring so much light and positivity into the lives of those around you, and today we're celebrating all the amazing things that make you, YOU. Enjoy every moment whether it's indulging in your favorite cake, sharing laughs, or simply soaking in the warmth of those you cherish. Remember, it's never too late to dream big or set new goals. Embrace the possibilities that this year holds and don't hesitate to step outside your comfort zone. The world is full of potential, and you have the talent and determination to seize it. Here's to you! May this birthday be just the beginning of an extraordinary year ahead. Fill it with unforgettable moments, boundless joy, and experiences that bring you closer to your dreams. You deserve every happiness this year has to offer. Enjoy your special day to the fullest! 

Hey! I just noticed you seem to have claimed to have moved on, and left this account yet there are so many random spawns of you coming back I was really just wondering is it just like you don't like the show but you enjoy the people on here? 

R.I.P My friend, You will be missed I'm missing you extra hard today since I knew what fun we would have today. I miss you more and more every day. 

Although it is my birthday I am thinking of something more tragic, A long-term irl friend of mine who was on here recently lost her battle with mental health. I can't help but think of the fun She and I would have had today and I am saddened knowing I could have done more to help her. This serves as a reminder to check up on your friends and family members as you never know what they are going through, You matter. 

R.I.P Moch, I hope you are finally in peace 

Hello! I checked out your DeviantArt and, amazingly, I love your OCs too hopefully I can learn how to draw so that I can make some fanart of your OCs (If that's okay with you obviously ). Have an amazing day as always!