What Makes [Your] Life Worthwhile?

[They call me Loyalty 1,948]

I love truth, meaning that I essentially hate this world and the false reality it proposes.
Fighting against deception and lies is in my nature, since I was born, and probably even before that. I got into so much trouble because of my innate defiance against pretty much everything. I do not have a choice, I will always follow my heart. Which means this is a solitary road. But I believe at the end, my soul will find the place I've been looking for my entire life. My heart is starving for a satisfaction I won't indulge any other way than the one my heart knows to be true. The answer this world cannot give me. I will find the truth my soul demands. Because without that answer, there is no reason to this creation.

I was never changed. At the center, I am still who I am. It makes me wonder if that is the reason for my suffering in the face of this plane. Because it goes agaisnt that truth. And to be part of it, I have to let go of that truth, let go of who I am. So, I am in the middle of nowhere. I cannot be part of it, nor I can be out of it. And this spiritual uncleanliness is everywhere. This world has a way to violate the sanctity of the soul. And they all end up selling out themselves sooner or later. To be betrayed by the people you trust the most. I understand, it is difficult. But it was still devastating for me. You end up feeling like an idiot, like the only fool, actually.

So many things have been lost, that sometimes I feel there is nothing to fight for, anymore. I have the lie and every conceivable flavor of it. And I wont eat, but I am starving. And still, I wont eat. I want this to end, already. But I believe the real test is about to begin. What a betrayal to the heart. I want to see this world burned and razed to the ground.

Edited May 2, 2022 by They call me Loyalty

[ExplosionMare 18,063]

My close friends and family, art, my religion, and the simple fact that perseverance is better than quitting.

[dead account 2,710]

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[daviddaviddavid 776]

9 hours ago, ExplosionMare said:

My close friends and family, art, my religion, and the simple fact that perseverance is better than quitting.

Came here to post something almost exactly the same, but you said it better than I could've done here. Every day above ground is a good day so we should always make the most of it!

[Winter Storm 244]

I can't seem to find anything that does it for me.

[Savy 5,077]

My close friends are the ones who makes my life so much better.