Count to a million

[lomk 20,663]

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I'm never getting into a relationship.

You never know that bby

 

But no, I get the feeling. Dating and marriage...two things on my "avoid this" list.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,335]

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[Moony the Cat 3,702]

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@ base

 

Are you talking about depression or unmotivation maybe?

 

Because thats what i have sometimes. And most of the time it doesnt make any sense. Its like, oh yeah i gonna draw something today, than i chat with someone, and then all of a sudden : Depression. Just so, without any explanation.

And i feel bad. And then i end up doing nothing, or in rare cases crying.

And i dont even know why 

My life isnt bad...i mean, yeah they are many situations that werent very nice in the past, but nowadays its better. But still, from time to time just straight up depression.

Edited September 22, 2015 by PsychoTwi

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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Might be depression. If so I may have had it my whole life, since I can remember feelings like this all the way from elementary school, on a pretty consistent basis.

 

 

 

Are you talking about depression or unmotivation maybe?

[lomk 20,663]

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Also, living with an anxiety disorder, I'm miserable all the time. I hate making mistakes because they destroy my sense of self worth (given I have any). I lost count of how many times I told myself something like "you fucked it up again, you worthless piece of human waste" last week. But I guess something in me sees value in making other people laugh so I try to stay positive and stay silly. It makes me feel happy even if for a little while.

 

I guess what I mean to say is that we all have issues. Nobody is without some weight on their shoulders. And we all have different ways of coping. Perhaps your mechanism is to rant. Mine is to make others laugh. We all deal with our problems in different ways and that's okay. We're your friends. We really don't mind it.

[Moony the Cat 3,702]

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@ base

Well...i cant really give you any advice, because i cant really handle the situations myself 

Yeah, i know, im not helping. Sry.

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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It's fine, it's helpful when you guys talk back, usually anyway.

 

 Really, what I'm worried about is my anger issues resurfacing. Being honest I used to have some severe emotional problems. I could snap and get really, really angry, or break down crying at the stupidest of reasons. I've noticed I'm sort of being a bit Passive Aggressive lately, and getting urges to lash out at people.

Edited September 22, 2015 by BasementPinkie

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[Moony the Cat 3,702]

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@ base

 

Sometimes i also cry from very stupid things, i dont even know why really.

One time i was going out with my sisters dog, and someone screamed at me, because i let the dog do something on a place, were he wasnt supposed to, but i didnt know that.

After i was home, i told to myself " But i didnt want to do that, i didnt know i was doing something bad..i mean..i never want to do something bad, i mean its not even my dog...why do i even have to go out with him? I never wanted all this... "

And then the conversations with myself went to :

" Why am i even here ? " to " Maybe i should be never born, then everyone was happy ".

Yeah.

And all this, just because someone told me, that i did something bad.

Its ridiculous 

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[Raritas 6,820]

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If I could make say my opinion, voicing your issues is much better than keeping them too yourself like I do (and I regret it). We don't get annoyed about it Base, and it's understandable to get angry because you're tired of putting up with the issues your facing. Voicing the problem is a good way of facing the problem, and it gives us a chance to try to understand how you're feeling.

[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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It's similar for me, though I tend to get unreasonably upset at the other person instead, though in a way I do take it out on myself even when I'm not really upset at myself.

 

 *Hugs* Sorry you have to go through that too.

 

 *Hugs Raritas* Thanks.

Edited September 22, 2015 by BasementPinkie

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,335]

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[DasCapschen 7,766]

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[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,335]

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[Moony the Cat 3,702]

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@ base

Im unsure if one of your hugs was meant for me, but if it was : Thanks 

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[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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It was meant for you.

[Deae Rising Shine~ 55,335]

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[Raritas 6,820]

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[DasCapschen 7,766]

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[Moony the Cat 3,702]

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Thanks to Harry Partridge , i finally know how to color drawings in Flash and how to use flash in general 

I mean i still dont have a tablet, and drawing frame by frame animation is a pain, when you use almost 20 papers to make one movement, that only goes 1 second, ( and by the way, if i do that, i often dont draw them as good, as i would single drawings, because it simply takes so freaking long ) and have to scan every drawing itself, by a totally slow Windows Pc, that likes to just shut itself down from time to time...

but i mean..

Im a big step forward to actually learn how to animate in flash, yay 

Maybe sometimes, i will actually animate some thing...finally ! 

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[BastementSparkle 20,326]

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I love Jalapeno cheese.