It's been about 4 years since I had a real friend. Ever since I moved from my hometown in 5th grade I've been depressed. I am alone. Right in the beginning of 6th grade this kid started picking on me and spreading rumors about me, so he gets a higher social status. It worked. I was always pushed aside after that. Just some guy that if you happen to come across him you could have a laugh. They called me gay (not that gays bad at all, but they said it as an insult.) because i was the rare kind of guy who enjoyed cute things and was amazed by nature. Alone at recess i often just stared at the clouds in the sky, not doing anything else. They would bully me in every way possible. I could of just moved in with my dad to escape, but the education at the high school i would be going to is one of the best in the country, so i decided to wait it out. Eventually they would pick on me less, but then pick on these other kids that were younger than me. Seeing that made me snap, the way fluttershy did to that dragon in season 1. Every time they would do it, I'd fight back with power i didn't even know i had inside. Well soon enough middle school ended. The next year, well this year, im now a freshman in high school. I'm still alone. I've had the ability to make friends multiple times, but someone would always prevent me from joining a group. In every group i am given a chance in there is always one of the kids who picked on me, so i just leave. My thoughts keep becoming darker. I've already tried to move into my dads house, but it wasn't possible. If you didn't know, loneliness is one pain worse than death. I Don't know what to do, and I cant seem to find other bronies like me. If i continue on this path I feel I'll be alone forever. Can someone help me? Like maybe give me some pointers on how to find other bronies, without being too open about it. If a jock finds out im a mlp fan it would make my situation 10x worse, so it has to be secret. Please help, this pain is killing me.